I'm Free
Dr. R. A. Vernon & Lyrics

Reminiscing bout the past
Thinking back to earlier times

You never know when those emotions blast
You never know when your emotions will suddenly come out

Always thinkin' bout those times I was the last
Always thinking about times when I felt alone and last

Needed help, but no one listened, so I couldn't ask
I needed help, but no one listened, so I couldn't ask for help

I had to finish my task, but all I found was a broken glass
I had a job to do, but all I found was something broken

My mind was burning like gas, I begged for freedom
My mind was on fire, I begged to be free

Some people tried to save me, I pretended that I didn't need 'em
Some people tried to help me, but I acted like I didn't need them

Felt like a dog in a cage searching for a chance to run away
Felt trapped like a dog in a cage, searching for a way to escape

Anger and rage made my colours blur and fade to grey
My anger and rage made everything seem dull and grey

But one day I found the way , no one ever played me
But one day I found a solution, and no one ever took advantage of me again

And even if I fail, this time I have a plan B
Even if I fail, I have a backup plan this time

I'm not alone and not afraid, so come with me
I'm not alone and not afraid, so join me

Or go away, but I decided today
Or leave, but I made the decision today

I decided not to change, but to be myself
I decided to stay true to myself and not change

Tired of leaving all my skills laying on my shelf
Tired of not using my skills

I decided not to hide, but to stand and fight
I decided to stop hiding and to stand up for what I believe

For my attitude, for feelings till I reach my prime
For my attitude and my feelings until I reach my full potential

I decided to show everyone my will
I decided to show everyone my determination

By spreading confidence that no one's ever gonna kill
By spreading confidence that can't be destroyed by anyone else

I decided to become a better me
I decided to improve myself

Hopefully I'll see you in the future when I'm free
Hopefully I'll see you in the future when I am free and happy

Never thought about that, why am I sad, why am I mad
Never thought about why I am sad or angry

I'm alive and I should be glad, but I'm not, why is that
I am alive, and I should be happy, but I'm not

Should I pray to God? Maybe move abroad?
Should I pray to God for answers? Should I move away?

Or just end my speech, put a dot
Or just end my speech and say nothing more

They say it's easy, like listening to Weezy or Jeezy
They say it's easy, like listening to Weezy or Jeezy songs

When things get a lil bit cheesy, you just press stop
When things get a little uncomfortable, you can just stop

But it's not, tell a person next to you to win a jackpot
But it's not easy, like telling someone next to you to win a jackpot

What would he say, that it's easier to get shot
He would say that it's easier to get shot than to win a jackpot

Wait a second I'm awake, what a great job
Wait a second, I'm awake and that's great

I'm back on my track, this time I won't lose my way
I'm back on my path, and I won't get lost this time

Man, I don't have that depression
I don't have that depression anymore

Ayy, but I know some people do
But I know that some people do have depression

Well, maybe I had once, but I told her F u
Maybe I did have depression once, but I told it to go away

I didn't say the full word, cause I was scared of her
I didn't say the full word because I was scared of the consequences

You know she wanted me to stay in my place and stay with her forever
She wanted me to stay where I was and be with her forever

And then I started takin' actions, I changed my school once
And then I started taking action, I changed schools once

I felt that if I don't do that I'll soon be with the dead ones
I felt that if I didn't do that, I would soon be dead inside like others

Dead on the inside, for a long time some of em'
Dead emotionally, for a long time some people felt that way

Finish their story by crossing the line - suicide
End their life by committing suicide

If you think you're alone and no one wants to be with you
If you think you're alone and have no one to turn to

You gotta SPEAK, couse nobody's gonna speak for you
You have to speak up for yourself because no one else will

And you now keep the message that I gave you
And now you have the message that I gave you

I wanna save you
I want to save you

And I decided to be brave, when someone dies
And I decided to be brave when someone dies

But if a person says he's good, he's telling lies
But if a person says they are good, they are lying

I decided not to cry alone when I am sad
I decided not to cry by myself when I am sad

But call my friends and have a chat, what's more to add
But call my friends and talk to them, what else is there to do

To all of those who wanted from me traps songs
To all those who wanted me to make trap music

Fuck ya'll, couse I don't want to see you dead soon
Fuck you all, because I don't want to see you dead soon