Diary Of A Battered Child
Dystopia Lyrics


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smack!
my head hits the wall
dont know why this is happening to me
a role model for me in this world
"do as i say and not as i do"
another slap across my face
just to show me that you care
how can i fucking love you?
what love do you have to share?
none!
someday theres gonna be hell to pay
for treating your son this way
you cant take my dignity
without destroying your love for me
and you wonder why i hate your fucking guts
no time left for apologies
fuck you
grown apart from you
im told that i am stupid
you taught me all i know
that im so fucking worthless
and that my lives a joke
curled up in a ball
is how i spent my fucking life
i tremble in fear and im bloody
and i cant stop the tears from flooding my eyes
what have i done to deserve
the agony you call love
i got a broken arm and stitches
while other kids got kisses and hugs
love / abuse
ever since i was born
i get them confused
you never cared
you never will




when i die
dont come to my funeral

Overall Meaning

The lyrics of Dystopia's song "Diary Of A Battered Child" delve into the harsh reality of child abuse. In the song, the singer is repeatedly physically abused and emotionally traumatized by their parent, who is supposed to be a role model but instead shows little to no love or support. The child expresses confusion and a sense of betrayal, questioning how they can love someone who inflicts so much pain on them.


As the song progresses, the child grows up and becomes disillusioned with their parent, realizing that their upbringing has left them feeling worthless and "stupid." The lyrics paint a picture of a broken and damaged individual who has suffered greatly, both physically and emotionally.


This song shines a spotlight on the heavy topic of child abuse, which can often go unnoticed or overlooked. By sharing the story of this battered child, the song encourages listeners to pay attention to the suffering of those around them and to take action to prevent abuse from happening in the first place.


Line by Line Meaning

smack!
The sound of physical abuse about to begin.


my head hits the wall
The first hit of physical abuse where the child is defenseless.


dont know why this is happening to me
The child is unaware of the reason behind the abuse.


a role model for me in this world
The parent is the only example of behavior the child has.


"do as i say and not as i do"
The hypocritical message given by the abusive parent.


another slap across my face
The parent reinforces that they are in control through physical abuse.


just to show me that you care
The parent uses physical abuse to demonstrate their twisted form of love.


how can i fucking love you?
The child struggles to understand how to love someone who hurts them.


what love do you have to share?
The abusive parent has no true love or affection to give.


none!
The abusive parent has no excuse for their horrific behavior.


someday theres gonna be hell to pay
The child hopes for justice and retribution for the abuse they suffer.


for treating your son this way
The parent is responsible for the abuse inflicted on their own child.


you cant take my dignity
The parent cannot rob the child of their intrinsic self-worth.


without destroying your love for me
The parent's behavior erodes the love between them and their child.


and you wonder why i hate your fucking guts
The child resents the parent for the abuse they inflict and their inability to comprehend the consequences of their behavior.


no time left for apologies
The parent has lost their chance to make amends for their abusive behavior.


fuck you
The child vents their anger and frustration towards the abusive parent.


grown apart from you
The child naturally distances themselves from their abusive parent.


im told that i am stupid
The abusive parent uses verbal abuse to further diminish the child's self-worth.


you taught me all i know
The parent is responsible for the negative influence they have had on the child.


that im so fucking worthless
The child internalizes the abuse and believes they are undeserving of love or respect.


and that my lives a joke
The child's self-perception is distorted by the constant abuse they suffer.


curled up in a ball
The child is in a state of fear and submission.


is how i spent my fucking life
The abusive parent has robbed the child of their chance to live free from fear and pain.


i tremble in fear and im bloody
The child experiences physical harm and psychological trauma.


and i cant stop the tears from flooding my eyes
The child is overwhelmed by their emotions and the pain they endure.


what have i done to deserve
The child is unable to comprehend why they are being abused.


the agony you call love
The parent's twisted form of affection is actually torture and abuse.


i got a broken arm and stitches
The parent's abuse has caused physical injury to the child.


while other kids got kisses and hugs
The child is robbed of a normal childhood and experiences a starkly different life than their peers.


ever since i was born
The child has been subjected to abuse from the earliest days of their life.


i get them confused
The child struggles to discern the difference between abuse and love due to the twisted behavior of their parent.


you never cared
The parent has never shown genuine care or concern for their child.


you never will
The parent is incapable of providing the love and support their child needs.


when i die
The child sees no hope or future for himself due to the abuse he endures.


dont come to my funeral
The child resents the parent so deeply that they do not want them present even when they are dead.




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