Killing Me
E-603 Lyrics
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i cant help but wonder why
is everything always falling down around me
pretty face and a new try
every exhaust to sunrise
so jaded and faded every moment that i breathe
just wish i could see my self
the way you see someone else
since you last texted me
throw myself off with my help
like dusty pics on your shelf
you’ll never care again about me
when i leave
say goodbye for me
i dont think ill have time before i leave
i been on these drugs yeah i can’t feel a thing
i gave you all my love and its killing me
ouuu ouuu Ouuuu
i gave you all my love and its killing me
ouuu ouuu ouuuu
dont give up on me i dont want to leave
dont give up on me i dont want to leave
ive been in the back ground honestly
letting all the pain follow me follow me
letting go again i cant even save my self
hold on until the end
hold on until i die
maybe i will be alright
all alone at night
baby you been on my mind
i been chasing time
i been running out of lines
ive been fucked up in my mind yeah
say bye to my mom and dad
tell them not to be so sad
it was pretty obvious that i would crash
and into the void i go
they’ll say it was quite a show
when i disappear just like i was a ghost
The lyrics of E-603's "Killing Me" depict a deeply introspective exploration of despair, loneliness, and the struggle to find self-worth amidst emotional turmoil. The opening lines encapsulate a sense of confusion and helplessness. The repeated questioning of why everything seems to be crumbling around the singer reveals a feeling of being trapped in a cycle of disappointment. The juxtaposition of "pretty face and a new try" hints at a façade of resilience, masking the deeper issues brewing beneath the surface. The mention of being "jaded and faded" illustrates a sense of weariness that comes with experiencing continuous struggles, highlighting the toll it takes on one's mental state.
The song further delves into the anguish of unrequited love and the longing for recognition and validation from another. The singer expresses a desire to see oneself through the lens of how a loved one views them, emphasizing feelings of inadequacy and low self-esteem. This longing becomes a source of pain as the singer confronts the reality of silence – the absence of communication from someone they once cherished. The imagery of throwing oneself "off with my help" reinforces the idea of self-sabotage, where the person acknowledges their agency in their emotional struggles, yet feels powerless to escape the cycle of neglect and heartbreak.
As the chorus unfolds, the repetition of "I gave you all my love and it's killing me" resonates as a potent declaration of the weight that love can bear. This line encapsulates the duality of love as something deeply fulfilling yet ultimately draining when it goes unreciprocated or when the relationship sours. The plea not to "give up on me" serves as a desperate cry for connection and understanding, but it also hints at a fear of abandonment and the internal battle faced when grappling with one’s emotions. The acknowledgment of being "in the background" suggests a feeling of invisibility, where the singer may feel overlooked or unimportant in the lives of those they care about.
In the final verses, the lyrics take a darker turn, addressing the inevitability of one’s decline and the impact it might have on loved ones. The singer seems resigned to their fate, indicating a level of acceptance of their struggles with mental health and substance use. The farewell to parents signifies a profound sense of loss and the weight of guilt that accompanies thoughts of departure. The imagery of disappearing "just like [one's] a ghost" encapsulates the feelings of isolation and the fear of being forgotten. Ultimately, the lyrics resonate as a haunting lamentation of emotional pain, the search for identity, and the desperate yearning for connection in moments of overwhelming despair.
Line by Line Meaning
everyday that goes by
With each passing day, I find myself reflecting on my circumstances.
i cant help but wonder why
I am constantly questioning the reasons behind my struggles.
is everything always falling down around me
It feels like everything in my life is collapsing and creating chaos.
pretty face and a new try
Despite my outward appearance, I find myself repeatedly attempting to improve my situation.
every exhaust to sunrise
As the night wears on, I exhaust all my options in search of a new beginning.
so jaded and faded every moment that i breathe
I feel disillusioned and numb with every breath I take, losing my sense of vitality.
just wish i could see my self
I long to perceive myself in a more positive light.
the way you see someone else
I wish I could view myself through the kind eyes you reserve for others.
but its been way too long
A significant amount of time has passed since I felt that way.
since you last texted me
Your absence in communication has made me feel neglected.
throw myself off with my help
I'm inadvertently sabotaging my own well-being.
like dusty pics on your shelf
I have become a forgotten memory, just like old photographs left behind.
you’ll never care again about me
I fear that I will no longer hold any significance in your life.
when i leave
Once I make my departure, my presence will be forgotten.
say goodbye for me
Please express my farewells on my behalf.
i dont think ill have time before i leave
I may not get the chance to do it myself before I'm gone.
i been on these drugs yeah i can’t feel a thing
I've been numbing my emotions with substance use, rendering me emotionally detached.
i gave you all my love and its killing me
My deep affection for you weighs heavily on my heart, leading to my suffering.
ouuu ouuu Ouuuu
An outburst of emotional expression, a release of conflicting feelings.
i gave you all my love and its killing me
Yet again, I emphasize that my love, which once felt fulfilling, is now a source of pain.
ouuu ouuu ouuuu
A continuation of my emotional turmoil.
dont give up on me i dont want to leave
I implore you to hold on and not let me slip away.
dont give up on me i dont want to leave
This plea for support illustrates my deep fear of abandonment.
ive been in the back ground honestly
I have faded into the periphery, struggling to cope with my reality.
letting all the pain follow me follow me
I feel as though I am being haunted and pursued by my chronic suffering.
letting go again i cant even save my self
Once more, I find myself relinquishing control and struggling to rescue my own essence.
hold on until the end
I am determined to endure my struggles for as long as I can.
hold on until i die
I will fight against my circumstances despite feeling overwhelmed.
maybe i will be alright
I cling to the hope that I might still find a sense of peace.
all alone at night
Nights are especially lonely, heightening my feelings of isolation.
baby you been on my mind
Thoughts of you occupy my mind, intensifying my emotional struggle.
i been chasing time
I feel as if I am racing against time, desperate for change.
i been running out of lines
I have exhausted my options and words to express myself.
ive been fucked up in my mind yeah
My mental state has been deeply troubled, affecting my overall well-being.
say bye to my mom and dad
I need to communicate my goodbyes to my parents.
tell them not to be so sad
I wish for them not to mourn my departure.
it was pretty obvious that i would crash
It was clear that my struggles would lead to a dramatic downfall.
and into the void i go
I fear I am spiraling into a state of emptiness.
they’ll say it was quite a show
Others might view my struggles and exit as an impactful performance.
when i disappear just like i was a ghost
My absence will leave an impression, as if I were never truly present.
Lyrics © O/B/O APRA AMCOS
Written by: Kyle Robertson
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