So Many Nights
E-Town Concrete Lyrics
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That this would just stop,
I woke out of my sleep from
A sound of a popped lock
My heart would drop to the ground
Maybe the fact that my pops wasn't around
Forced you to found these guys
That would just knock you down
I don't know.
My innocence was lost back then,
Not to be found.
And in a sense it's like this world
Was just weighing me down,
Leaning it's weight hard on my shoulders,
Making my heart less warm and much more colder,
A chip off my tooth and a chip on my shoulder.
I told y'all that I don't play,
I've seen that drama every goddamned day.
So go ahead, yap away,
'cause now you got a lot to say.
Cast your judgements,
Cast all your stones.
Holding my hand, holding on
To everything I have
'cause it's slipping away so fast.
I was like six then,
We ain't have a pot to piss in,
While most kids lives consist of shine
And glisten,
Mine was lined with mischief.
A boy flipping, devoid of times
You find joy in reminiscing.
It's like time was missing,
Years was passing,
I was inside while kids
Was outside laughing.
No time for games,
Their fake toy planes was crashing
While me?
My life was crashing.
At night fist fights left
My mom's face smashed in,
Her ass blasted,
Threw her down a flight of stairs,
Alone and scared I stared
At eyes of a man who didn't care,
My father was never there.
Now I am prepared for this lifetime that's unfair. This life I fight from the bottom to the top.
This life I had to fight for all that I got.
It hurts but I still won't stop till my casket drops.
The lyrics of "So Many Nights" by E-Town Concrete depict the struggles of growing up in a violent and dysfunctional household. The singer describes a life filled with fear and anxiety, as he constantly prayed for the violence to stop. He vividly recalls waking up to the sound of a popped lock and the terror of being beaten or knocked down by his mother's abusive partner. The absence of his father is implied to have contributed to the household's instability.
The singer's innocence was lost when he was very young, and he feels weighed down by the world's burdens. His heart has become colder, and he carries a chip on his shoulder, ready to defend himself from the constant drama he experienced. Despite experiencing abuse and poverty, the singer still clings to what little he has and fights to break the cycle of violence he was born into.
Overall, "So Many Nights" is a raw and powerful portrayal of the trauma experienced by children growing up in violent households. It highlights the emotional toll of living with constant fear and uncertainty, and the courage required to fight back against the forces that seek to drag us down.
Line by Line Meaning
So many nights I prayed
I continuously hoped that the violence and abuse would stop
That this would just stop,
I wished that the cycle of violence would come to an end
I woke out of my sleep from
I was abruptly awakened by
A sound of a popped lock
The sound of someone breaking in
My heart would drop to the ground
I would feel frightened and hopeless
Maybe the fact that my pops wasn't around
The absence of my father
Forced you to found these guys
Led you to associate with these people
That would just knock you down
Who would assault or harm you
Or beat you around.
Or physically abuse you
I don't know.
I am uncertain
My innocence was lost back then,
I was no longer naive and pure
Not to be found.
And could never be restored
And in a sense it's like this world
It feels like the world
Was just weighing me down,
Was burdening me
Leaning its weight hard on my shoulders,
Putting a heavy load on my shoulders
Making my heart less warm and much more colder,
Hardening my heart and making me colder
A chip off my tooth and a chip on my shoulder.
It made me angrier and more combative
I told y'all that I don't play,
I warned you that I don't mess around
I've seen that drama every goddamned day.
I witness the violence and chaos constantly
So go ahead, yap away,
You can talk all you want
'cause now you got a lot to say.
But now you have plenty to say about me
Cast your judgements,
Go ahead and judge me
Cast all your stones.
Throw all the insults and criticism you want
Holding my hand, holding on
Holding onto what little I have
To everything I have
To everything I possess
'cause it's slipping away so fast.
Because I'm losing it so quickly
I was like six then,
I was only six years old
We ain't have a pot to piss in,
We were very poor
While most kids lives consist of shine
While most kids have happy and carefree lives
And glisten,
Filled with joy and light
Mine was lined with mischief.
But mine was filled with trouble and chaos
A boy flipping, devoid of times
A boy in turmoil, lacking in positive experiences
You find joy in reminiscing.
People find happiness in reflecting on positive memories
It's like time was missing,
It seems like time was stolen from me
Years was passing,
Years were going by
I was inside while kids
I was stuck inside while other kids
Was outside laughing.
Were outside having fun and enjoying life
No time for games,
I never had time for fun and games
Their fake toy planes was crashing
Their pretend airplanes would 'crash'
While me?
But for me?
My life was crashing.
My life was spiraling out of control
At night fist fights left
Violent fights broke out at night
My mom's face smashed in,
My mother would be beaten and bruised
Her ass blasted,
She would be badly beaten
Threw her down a flight of stairs,
My father would throw her down a staircase
Alone and scared I stared
I watched helplessly, feeling afraid and alone
At eyes of a man who didn't care,
While my father showed no compassion or remorse
My father was never there.
He was never present, neither physically nor emotionally
Now I am prepared for this lifetime that's unfair.
Now I am ready to face a life that is unjust and cruel
This life I fight from the bottom to the top.
I struggle and fight my way to the top, starting from the very bottom
This life I had to fight for all that I got.
Everything I achieved, I had to earn through hard work and determination
It hurts but I still won't stop till my casket drops.
Even though it's painful, I will keep going until the day I die
Lyrics © Kobalt Music Publishing Ltd.
Written by: ANTHONY MARTINI, DAVID MONDRAGON, ERIC DENAULT, TED PANAGOPOULOS
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