Drunk
Ed Sheeran feat. Rudimental Lyrics

I wanna be drunk when I wake up
I want to drink enough to forget my pain and problems, so that when I wake up, instead of feeling bad, I can feel good with some alcohol left in my system.

On the right side of the wrong bed
I don't mind waking up in an unfamiliar place, as long as it's comfortable and makes me feel good.

And never an excuse I made up
I don't want to have to make excuses for my behavior, and I want to be honest about my desire to drink and escape from reality.

Tell you the truth I hate
In reality, I really hate feeling this way, but I don't know how to control it, and I hate feeling vulnerable.

What didn't kill me
Although I have been hurt before, it hasn't killed me, but it's also not made me stronger. It just made me want to drink more to forget the pain.

It never made me stronger at all
Even though I have been through many challenges, I don't feel any stronger mentally, emotionally, or physically.

Love will scar your makeup, lip sticks to me
When you love somebody, it changes you, and it leaves an impression on you that is hard to erase.

So now I'll maybe lean back there
I'm considering going back to a place where I can escape through alcohol and forget about my problems.

I'm sat here, wishin' I was sober
I'm realizing that even though drinking helps me forget, it's not a long-term solution, and I can't keep relying on it to make me feel better.

I know I'll never hold you like I used to
I'm aware that time has passed, and things have changed between us, and I can never go back to the way things used to be.

But our house gets cold when you cut the heating
Without you, there's a noticeable difference in the temperature of the house, but it's also a metaphor for the coldness I feel inside.

Without you to hold, I'll be freezing
Without your support and comfort, I'm vulnerable and exposed to the coldness of the world.

Can't rely on my heart to beat it
I can't count on my own heart to get over you and move on.

'Cause you take part of it every evening
You left an emotional imprint on me that I can't seem to shake off, and it's affecting me every night.

Take words out of my mouth just from breathing
Just by existing, you evoke powerful emotions in me that are hard to express in words.

Replace with phrases like, 'When you leavin' me?'
In my mind, I keep asking myself when you're going to leave me, even though you're not around.

Should I, should I?
I'm considering whether or not I should continue drinking and using it as a crutch to deal with my emotions and pain.

Maybe I'll get drunk again
I'm considering drinking again, even though it's harmful and potentially dangerous.

I'll be drunk again
I know that if I drink again, I'll lose control of my emotions and actions.

To feel a little love
Drinking makes me feel less lonely and more connected to myself.

I wanna hold your heart in both hands
I want to have your love and affection again, and I'm willing to do whatever it takes to make that happen.

Not watch it fizzle at the bottom of a Coke can
I don't want to see your love disappear or fade away, like a fizzy drink going flat.

And I got no plans for the weekend
I have nothing to look forward to or any exciting plans for the future, which amplifies my sense of emptiness and loneliness.

So should we speak then? Keep it between friends?
I'm trying to reconnect with you and see if there's any chance of us being friends, but I also don't want to make things awkward or uncomfortable.

Though I know you'll never love me like you used to
I'm aware that things will never be the same between us, and your feelings for me have changed.

There may be other people like us
Maybe there are other people going through the same experiences and emotions as us.

Who see the flicker of the clipper when they light up
Just like a lighter creates a small spark, perhaps other people are also looking for a spark of hope and companionship in their lives.

Flames just create us
Our past experiences and emotions have shaped and defined us, and have played a significant role in creating who we are today.

But burns don't heal like before
Past hurts and pain don't just go away on their own, and emotional wounds can last a lifetime.

You don't hold me anymore
You're no longer around to comfort and support me, and I feel lost without you.

On cold days, cold plays out like the band's name
Cold weather reminds me of feeling cold and empty inside, like the band name 'Coldplay'.

I know I can't heal things with a handshake
Small gestures and actions can't fix or heal the emotional pain and scars that I have.

You know I can't change, as I began sayin'
I realize that I have deep-seated issues and insecurities that will take more than just words or actions to fix, and I need help to overcome them.

You cut me wide open like landscape
Your absence has left me feeling vulnerable and exposed, like I'm an open wound that can't heal.

Open bottles of beer but never champagne
I drink beer as a way to drown out my pain, but I don't have the luxury of celebrating my achievements or milestones with champagne or other luxury drinks.

To applaud you with the sound that my hands make
I'm envious of the people who can celebrate their victories and accomplishments with loved ones and family members.

All by myself
I'm alone, and I have no one to turn to or rely on for support or comfort.

I'm here again
I'm back in the same place as before, feeling lost and empty, and not knowing how to deal with my emotions and pain.

You know I'll never change
I'm aware that I have deep-seated issues and insecurities that might never go away or fully heal.

I'm just drunk again
Alcohol is my only way of coping with my problems and emotions, and I'm back to square one.