Ka-Spel is probably best known as the lead singer, songwriter and co-founder (with Phil "The Silverman" Knight) of the prolific underground band The Legendary Pink Dots. He has also released numerous solo albums and has worked in various side projects, including The Tear Garden (with cEvin Key of Skinny Puppy), and Mimir (with Phil Knight, Christoph Heemann, Jim O'Rourke and others).
His musical output has combined elements of psychedelia, dark folk, goth, industrial, electronic, found noise, sampling, pop and rock in varying degrees. His lyrics have been described as intensely personal and mystical, incorporating recurrent themes from his own personal mythos, and his songwriting and singing have been compared (usually favourably) to Syd Barrett and early Pink Floyd.
Ka-Spel's singing voice is distinctive, especially for listeners outside of England, as it displays characteristics peculiar to the region of England in which he grew up. In addition to his East London/East Anglian accent, Ka-Spel's dialect has what is sometimes misidentified as a lisp, but is actually a form of rhotacism, in which Rs are pronounced as Ws. This is believed to be a sociolect or a form of "permanent affectation" acquired as a child, rather than a speech disorder as such.
Even Now
Edward Ka-Spel Lyrics
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Mistakes were made and prices paid - The scars across your wrists.
The twist inside - I know you're hiding. Even now. Have you changed? Do
you forget? you still regret the day you met me - even now? You feel the
bandage itching as you're sweating in the white light - feel the
tethescope press down, even now? (Don't you think I feel it too, even
now?) It had to be, and now I'm missing you and want to start again -
No never... even now...But still the fire's burning. It's burning just
for you. Is it burning for me too, even now? We're locked-up for
eternity.. locked together, even now...
The song "Even Now" by Edward Ka-Spel talks about love, loss, mistakes, and regrets. The opening line, "Mistakes were made and prices paid- The scars across your wrists" suggests that one of the parties involved in this relationship has gone through some emotional or physical trauma in the past. It could be interpreted as either self-harm or an attempt to commit suicide. The line "the twist inside- I know you're hiding. Even now" suggests that even though the two have parted ways, one of them is still struggling with their demons and unable to move on. The use of the term "twist" indicates the mental turmoil within that person.
As the song progresses, the artist asks if the person has changed and if they forget. Even though they have gone their separate ways, the other person still regrets meeting the artist. The line "You feel the bandage itching as you're sweating in the white light- feel the tethescope press down, even now?" could suggest the person is in a hospital, and the artist is asking if the person is still uncomfortable and in pain. The use of "Even now" throughout the song indicates that despite everything that has happened, the artist still has feelings for this person and wants to start afresh.
The song ends with the line "We're locked-up for eternity, locked together, even now," which suggests that despite everything, they will always be connected, and their love will endure.
Overall, "Even Now" is a beautifully written song that talks about the complexity of human emotions and relationships.
Line by Line Meaning
Mistakes were made and prices paid
The self-inflicted physical scars are a price that you paid for the mistakes you made in the past.
The twist inside
The emotional turmoil that you're experiencing.
I know you're hiding. Even now.
I understand that you're hiding your emotions from me, even at this moment.
Have you changed? Do you forget?
Have you moved on from the pain of the past? Or do you still remember it?
you still regret the day you met me - even now?
Do you continue to regret the day we met, even in the present?
You feel the bandage itching as you're sweating in the white light
You're uncomfortable and nervous in your current situation, as if you're wearing a bandage that's making you itch.
feel the tethescope press down, even now?
Do you feel the weight of your problems bearing down on you, even in the present?
(Don't you think I feel it too, even now?)
I empathize with you and understand what you're going through, even at this moment.
It had to be, and now I'm missing you and want to start again - we'll start with flowers and a row, even now!
The breakup was inevitable, but I still miss you and want to reconcile. Let's start fresh, with gestures of love like flowers and romantic dates.
We'll never settle down... No never... even now...
We'll never be able to completely relax and settle into a stable routine, even in the present.
But still the fire's burning. It's burning just for you.
My love for you is still strong and passionate, and it's directed solely at you.
Is it burning for me too, even now?
Do you still share those intense feelings for me, even in the present?
We're locked-up for eternity.. locked together, even now...
Our connection is unbreakable and we're fated to be bound together, even in the present.
Contributed by Dominic E. Suggest a correction in the comments below.
@bdazzled08
Poet and broken saint—this is Edward Ka-Spel at his best! Minimal, sweet and haunting. This song *could not* be any better! A masterpiece. I think I only have this on "Heartbreak & Needles 3". I can dream of what it sounds like on vinyl...ahhh.
@stoxno1
This song is my top 3 of all music Ive ever heard, strange strange song....I cant help lovin' it
@NWforager
love to hear the other 2
@KarenAtkinson
Hello, amazed to find this on here, 'tis I, Lilly Ak, aka Karen, singing with Edward on this track. Some of my more recent music can be heard under the name Waveism1 here on Youtube. Still singing, Even Now. Still lovin' Ed's voice and talent :-)
@spoontheeuntitled
The thumbnail that you used I had recently witnessed that people on the other side of pictures and videos who respond in a loving way to me look at the same light where it is located on her chest... heart chakra, real thing!
@mobyboy
i didnt expexted this song to be here. wow ! great surprise
@Achtungmiche
Yes, truly a gem!
@prsachsen5110
Finde das es Brian von Velvet Acid Christ besser hinbekommen und gesungen hat und deutlich bessere performance und vocals als hier das original ;) Brian kann halt mit Synthesizer und Equalizer sehr sehr gut umgehen . VAC for ever !!
@odedfried-gaon2880
hypnotizing, mesmerizing.... woah!
@hannyvanhaase3067
Durchbricht die Oberfläche, gräbt sich ins Unbewusste.... so soll es sein. Danke, Edward.