Find Yourself
Eligh Lyrics
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Used to bat his eyelashes smile at the ladies
Sit a [?] round single file like a crazy
Boy with a small frame parents called him lazy
Used to entertain himself his drawings were amazing
Come up in the backyard trees for a gazing
At the skies over Echo Park a live education
Gunshots blazin he would hide in his [?]
When it involved his interest and pride with no patience
Kid couldn't wait used to steal what he wanted
Learned Karma quick he could feel when he fronted
Didn't feel good but he wanted to part of
Didn't know behavior like this would be the start of
Low self-esteem and a dream deferred
Started makin stories didn't mean the word
Writing became the art that he preferred
He liked to assemble manipulate verbs
He was shy and sprung
Got took advantage of and didn't mind once
Just a little boy feelin hurt like a man
Played like a toy violin in her hand
Mom used to take him to buy them some gifts
Never once got him a kiss on the lips
Homie got smashed on the floor when they dissed
He liked girls young and he didn't know why
Couldn't know himself yet couldn't even try...
Teenager of the 90's
Talent getting bigger but self-esteem tiny
Found himself a little, squad or brigade
Odd man out on the quad in the shade
Started growin dreads cause he wanted to be different
Didn't give a shit about the classes he was missin
Sprung on a bad girl tension on a mission
Life in peril on the path of addiction
Started smokin cigarettes and weed out in [?]
Walkman bumpin didn't think he needed to listen
To the teachers who gave him a ride home after school
Tried to talk to him he was actin like a fool
Wanted to be cool didn't want to be a mule
All around wuss gettin told what to do
Stupid young dude with his nuts in a vice
Ended up having death threats on his life
Fuckin homies girlfriends never felt worse
So he dropped out of school started drinkin and at first
It was fun felt good he was brave writed fast
Rapped on a crew in a cabin in a path
Livin in a studio not makin any cash
Mom kicked him out straight dumped on his ass
Smoking weed all day 16 on a fast
Track to the grave couldn't know himself yet
Now it's 96
Started puttin acid on his tongue to take a trip
Made his first tape home made made a trip
Was the hustle he was taught by his homies on the strip
Telegraph laugh had a vibe you could feel
Long island iced teas to survive with the steel
In his hand on the stage he was scared to be real
[?] with a page he would hide on the field
On the stage no yield
Started poppin ecstasy beginning of the pills
Killin of his energy it mentally appealed
They were all experimenting but he thought he was healed
Travelin the world in and out of any girl
Livin like a rockstar at home he would curl
In a ball on the floor could he fall any further
Hell yeah heroin called and he heard emmm
Now he didn't give a fuck
Wasn't makin music cause he didn't give a fuck
Had to get a fix or his body would be stuck
More than down on his luck to the drug he was enslaved
Didn't give a damn what his friends say
Wanted to be done so he bowed to the sensai
Surrendering rendering faith
Found himself a program to pay for the dates
Did his first show that was free of the drank
Felt so proud self-esteem in the tank
3 years later putted music in the bank
Tryin to make due for the God that he thanks
Went through hell and he didn't know why
Couldn't know himself yet now he's gonna try...
Eligh's song "Find Yourself" is a deeply personal and introspective exploration of the artist's life, from his childhood in the 80s to his struggles with addiction in the 90s and eventual recovery. The song tells the story of a young boy who was creative but lacked confidence and direction, turning to theft and other destructive behaviors in search of a sense of purpose. As he grew older, he struggled to find his place in the world and battled addiction, ultimately finding hope in a program of recovery and a renewed dedication to his music.
The first verse begins with a portrait of the artist as a child, a boy who is shy and introverted but also gifted with a vivid imagination and talent for drawing. The lyrics speak to the conflict within him between his desire for independence and his fear of rejection, as well as the alienation he feels from the world around him. Despite his struggles, however, the boy's creativity and determination ultimately lead him to discover his passion for writing and music.
In the second verse, the song shifts to focus on the artist's teenage years, as he continues to grapple with issues of self-esteem and identity while also confronting the temptations and dangers of drugs and alcohol. With a sense of disillusionment and disconnection from the world, the young man turns to substances as a way of escaping his pain and finding a sense of belonging. It is only through the intervention of a recovery program that he is able to break free from the grip of addiction and reconnect with his true self.
Overall, "Find Yourself" is a powerful and poignant testimony to the human capacity for growth and transformation in the face of hardship and adversity. Through his lyrics, Eligh reminds us that although the journey to self-discovery may be fraught with difficulty and pain, it is ultimately worth the struggle to find our true selves and live authentically.
Line by Line Meaning
He was a child of the 80's
The persona was born in the 1980s
Used to bat his eyelashes smile at the ladies
The persona used to flirt with girls when younger
Sit a [?] round single file like a crazy
The persona was a little eccentric and unfocused at times
Boy with a small frame parents called him lazy
The persona was seen as lazy by his parents due to his smaller physical appearance
Used to entertain himself his drawings were amazing
The persona used to draw for amusement and he was quite talented at it
Come up in the backyard trees for a gazing
The persona would gaze at the skies from his backyard
At the skies over Echo Park a live education
The persona learned from observing the environment of Echo Park
Gunshots blazin he would hide in his [?]
During gunshots, the persona would hide in something (possibly in his imagination)
Called imagination he would rise to occasion
The persona would use his imagination to overcome challenging situations
When it involved his interest and pride with no patience
The persona would work hard when it was something he was interested in, but he lacked patience
Kid couldn't wait used to steal what he wanted
The persona lacked patience and would steal what he wanted
Learned Karma quick he could feel when he fronted
The persona soon realized the consequences of his actions and their impact on his future
Didn't feel good but he wanted to part of
The persona was aware that what he was doing was wrong, but he wanted to be a part of it anyway
Didn't know behavior like this would be the start of
The persona did not know that his behavior would lead him to trouble in the future
Low self-esteem and a dream deferred
The persona had low self-esteem and put his dreams aside
Started makin stories didn't mean the word
The persona began creating stories but didn't fully believe in them
Writing became the art that he preferred
The persona found solace in writing and it became his preferred form of art
He liked to assemble manipulate verbs
The persona enjoyed putting together and changing words
He was shy and sprung
The persona was shy, but he had a crush on someone
Got took advantage of and didn't mind once
The persona was taken advantage of but didn't seem to mind
Just a little boy feelin hurt like a man
The persona felt hurt like an adult, although he was still a young boy
Played like a toy violin in her hand
The persona felt like a toy in his crush's hand
Mom used to take him to buy them some gifts
The persona's mother would take him to buy gifts for his crush
Never once got him a kiss on the lips
Despite buying gifts, the persona never received a kiss on the lips from his crush
Homie got smashed on the floor when they dissed
The persona's friend got beaten up when someone disrespect them
He liked girls young and he didn't know why
The persona was attracted to young girls but did not understand why
Couldn't know himself yet couldn't even try...
The persona did not fully understand himself and was unable to explore himself
Teenager of the 90's
The persona was a teenager in the 1990s
Talent getting bigger but self-esteem tiny
As the persona's talent grew, his self-esteem remained low
Found himself a little, squad or brigade
The persona found a group of friends he identified with
Odd man out on the quad in the shade
The persona was the outsider within his friend group, often left out of activities
Started growin dreads cause he wanted to be different
The persona decided to grow dreadlocks as a way of standing out
Didn't give a shit about the classes he was missin
The persona did not care about missing classes
Sprung on a bad girl tension on a mission
The persona was infatuated with a problematic girl
Life in peril on the path of addiction
The persona's life was at risk due to his growing addiction
Started smokin cigarettes and weed out in [?]
The persona started smoking cigarettes and weed, possibly outside his school
Walkman bumpin didn't think he needed to listen
The persona walked around with a music player, not caring to listen to others
To the teachers who gave him a ride home after school
The teachers who gave him rides home after school tried to communicate with him
Tried to talk to him he was actin like a fool
The persona did not listen to the teachers and behaved foolishly
Wanted to be cool didn't want to be a mule
The persona wanted to be perceived as cool and didn't want to be seen as a pushover
All around wuss gettin told what to do
The persona was seen as weak and was told what to do by others
Stupid young dude with his nuts in a vice
The persona was a foolish, young person, entrapped within his own decisions
Ended up having death threats on his life
The persona received threats to his life due to his behavior
Fuckin homies girlfriends never felt worse
The persona engaged in sexual activity with his friends' girlfriends, which led to regret
So he dropped out of school started drinkin and at first
To avoid his problems, the persona dropped out of school and began drinking
It was fun felt good he was brave writed fast
Drinking felt good, and he was writing quicker, possibly as a result of the alcohol
Rapped on a crew in a cabin in a path
The persona started rapping with a group in a cabin
Livin in a studio not makin any cash
The persona was living in a studio and not making any money
Mom kicked him out straight dumped on his ass
The persona's mother kicked him out of their home
Smoking weed all day 16 on a fast
The persona was smoking weed all day and his life was moving quickly
Track to the grave couldn't know himself yet
The persona's path in life was dangerous, and he still did not understand himself
Now it's 96
The story continues in the year 1996
Started puttin acid on his tongue to take a trip
The persona started to use acid as a way to experience a trip-like high
Made his first tape home made made a trip
The persona made his first homemade music tape while on a trip
Was the hustle he was taught by his homies on the strip
The persona was taught music hustle tactics by his friends on the streets
Telegraph laugh had a vibe you could feel
Telegraph had a special feeling, which could be sensed
Long island iced teas to survive with the steel
To survive, the persona drank Long Island Iced Tea and possibly used some sort of weapon
In his hand on the stage he was scared to be real
On stage, the persona was scared to be his true self
[?] with a page he would hide on the field
The persona was possibly hiding behind a page and writing on the field
On the stage no yield
On stage, the persona would not back down
Started poppin ecstasy beginning of the pills
The persona started using ecstasy, the beginning of his pill usage
Killin of his energy it mentally appealed
The persona was attracted to the mental appeal of ecstasy, despite its draining effects on his body
They were all experimenting but he thought he was healed
Although it was experimentation, the persona thought he had found a solution
Travelin the world in and out of any girl
The persona was traveling the world and engaging with countless women
Livin like a rockstar at home he would curl
Even though he was living like a rockstar, at home, the persona would curl up
In a ball on the floor could he fall any further
The persona felt like he couldn't fall any further down
Hell yeah heroin called and he heard emmm
Heroin called, and the persona was drawn to it
Now he didn't give a fuck
At this point, the persona did not care about anything
Wasn't makin music cause he didn't give a fuck
The persona had stopped making music because he did not care
Had to get a fix or his body would be stuck
To avoid withdrawal symptoms, the persona had to use heroin
More than down on his luck to the drug he was enslaved
The persona was addicted to drugs and had lost control
Didn't give a damn what his friends say
The persona did not care about what his friends were telling him
Wanted to be done so he bowed to the sensai
The persona wanted to be done with drugs, so he sought out a mentor
Surrendering rendering faith
By surrendering himself, the persona found faith
Found himself a program to pay for the dates
The persona joined a treatment program to find and pay for dates
Did his first show that was free of the drank
The persona performed his first show while being sober
Felt so proud self-esteem in the tank
Performing sober made the persona proud, but his self-esteem was still low
3 years later putted music in the bank
Three years later, the persona was finally making money through his music
Tryin to make due for the God that he thanks
The persona put in work to support his beliefs and show gratitude
Went through hell and he didn't know why
The persona had gone through a lot of hardship without fully understanding why
Couldn't know himself yet now he's gonna try...
Despite his struggles, now the persona is willing to try to understand himself better
Contributed by Scarlett L. Suggest a correction in the comments below.