Safe
Eligh & Jo Lyrics

I was in your little belly
I existed within you during your pregnancy with me

You were in Kansas in a hotelly
While pregnant with me, you were staying in a hotel in Kansas

You were worried cause you were late and he didn't know
You were anxious because you were running late and he was unaware

You paced back and forth looking out the window
You walked back and forth anxiously, watching out of the window

Make sure he's not around when you make the phone call
Ensure that he is not present when you make the phone call

Your hands shaky you don't know if it's the wrong call
Your hands tremble, uncertain if this call is the right decision

Already got one angel sleeping quiet on the bed
There is already one innocent child peacefully sleeping on the bed

Innocent child, curly hair on his little head
The child is innocent, with curly hair on their small head

And you were once one, didn't know you still were in all
You were once an innocent child as well, and that essence still resides within you

A daughter of a king sitting in a dark ball
As the daughter of royalty, you find yourself in a dark and isolated state

Your silhouette shines thin through the curtain
Your faint figure casts a dim light through the curtain

The phone's to your ear, nothing's for certain
You hold the phone against your ear, unsure of the outcome

You got the number, got the plan, hear the dial tone
You have the phone number and the plan, now you hear the dial tone

It sounds loud and it rings through your thin bones
The sound is intense and vibrates through your fragile bones

7 digits and the whole deal's fixed quick
With just 7 digits, the entire situation is resolved quickly

But you're froze cold, and you feel sick
However, you are frozen with coldness and plagued by sickness

You looked at your angel again
You gaze at your innocent child once more

You slowly put the phone back on its hinge
Gradually, you return the phone to its resting place

You lie down right next to my big brother
You lay down beside my older sibling

You try not to cry when you got under covers
You attempt to hold back tears as you get under the covers

You had no money, had no plan, barely had a call
You were lacking finances, a solid plan, and had scarce communication

But it was funny you didn't worry about it all
Strangely, you did not stress about any of those factors

You fell asleep in your bed with your new son
You eventually drifted off to sleep in your bed with your newborn child

I felt your hand on my head
I sensed the touch of your hand on my head

It was all done
Everything was complete

Momma, momma, your boy tipped over
Mother, mother, your son has stumbled or fallen

But this cross ain't your burden to shoulder
However, this burden or responsibility is not yours to bear

It's not your fault that the joker
It is not your fault that the foolish or reckless person

Can't find his own way home when he's sober
Cannot find his way back home when he is not under the influence

Most minutes, strictly business
In most instances, it is purely business

Wanna do great, wanna make a difference
I desire to achieve greatness and make a positive impact

But when the liquor hits, shifted
However, when influenced by alcohol, my behavior changes

Gonna put this any where that it fits
I will use or place it wherever it seems appropriate

No respect for love and safety
There is no regard for love and the importance of being safe

Gave face as a place to hate me
I presented myself in a way that allowed others to despise me

You made me and named me, but have you seen me lately?
You brought me into this world and gave me a name, but have you truly seen who I have become?

I'm not the same baby
I am no longer the innocent child I once was

Nah
No

I take the whole blame, I made the choice to try to play this old game
I fully accept the blame, as I chose to attempt to play this familiar yet damaging game

Soul got wet from cold rain
My soul became drenched from the chilly rain

When I meet the devil, I'mma say my full name
When I encounter evil, I will proudly state my complete name

Free fell, ain't a thing to tell
I plummeted without restraint, and there is nothing to disclose

You know this world, and you've seen its hell
You are aware of the harsh realities and horrors of this world

Chin up, kinda like yourself
Lift your head high, similar to how you carry yourself

Too much pride inside this ain't a cry for help
There is an excess of pride within me, and this is not an appeal for assistance

I wanna be comfortably numb
I desire to reach a state of emotional detachment or indifference

And I'm in the cycle with the life I run from
Yet, I find myself caught in a repetitive pattern with the life I try to avoid

Can't speak on the crimes I've done
I am unable to discuss the wrongdoings I have committed

I'm afraid that you won't recognize your son
I fear that you will no longer recognize me, your own son

Even if I lost my life a million miles from home
Even if I were to perish a great distance away from home

My heart would hold you like a locket encrusted in diamonds and chrome
My love for you would embrace you tightly, like a precious locket adorned with diamonds and chrome

That's the way I keep from depression under pressure
This is how I prevent myself from succumbing to depression in the face of overwhelming stress

With bullets whizzing past my ears in this battle zone I'm alone
While bullets buzz by my ears in this war zone, I am left feeling isolated

I love you like the wind, and yes we've just begun
My love for you is like the wind, and our journey together has only just started

The wind because it blows me close to you when I'm on the run
The wind represents my proximity to you when I am trying to escape

I'm moving through this desert, the sun is chapping my back
I am traversing this barren desert, and the sun is scorching my back

Iraq is no joke, I lack, no hope
Iraq is a serious and challenging situation, and I feel hopeless

I'm playing my part, you're safe in my heart
I am fulfilling my role, and you are secure within my heart

So keep me on your mind, I'll keep you in my thoughts
Please remember me, and I will constantly think of you

Pipelines pumping oil or smack
Pipelines are transporting either oil or drugs

You get rich off my kid's back
You benefit financially from exploiting my child

You take my son and make him pay
You seize my son and force him to face consequences

Keep him harnessed either way
You restrain or control him regardless

Drugs, booze, your dirty war
The presence of drugs, alcohol, and the immoral wars you engage in

He's not sure what life is for
He is uncertain about the purpose or meaning of life

With your greed you keep him bound
Due to your greed, you keep him trapped or restricted

He's so lost he can't be found
He is so deeply lost that he cannot be located or saved

A mother knows her child's true worth
A mother understands the genuine value of her child

From the very moment she gives birth
Starting from the instant of birth

The only choice I ever made
The sole decision I ever made

To give you life, now how you've paid
Was to give you life, and now you have faced the consequences of your actions

A mother's love runs deeper still
A mother's love goes even deeper

Than all the oil in all the drills
It surpasses the abundance of oil in all the drilling operations

They may take your body, not your soul
They may seize your physical being, but they cannot touch your soul

You're safe in my heart
You are secure within my heart

I won't let go...
I will not relinquish my grip on you