Lose Control
Elijah Waters Lyrics

It's hard to focus when you always rollin' dope up
It's difficult to concentrate when smoking takes center stage.

I lost it all in the moment
Everything went wrong in a blink of an eye.

Imaginary opponents
The mind creates enemies out of nowhere.

I lost my mind one time
There was a time when sanity disappeared.

And now I never show up to the places
Avoiding the places where reminders of hurt linger.

That I know, it's not the same, I need a blunt
The familiar places are not the same anymore and the only solace is weed.

I cannot breathe, I cannot see my eyes are bleeding, baby
The anxiety is suffocating and tears flow uncontrollably.

I don't reach out, I don't got reasons
Withdrawing from everything and everyone without a logical explanation

I don't see you lately
Not physically seeing someone for a long time.

I been inside looking for ways to say I can't make it
Trying to come up with ways to bow out of commitments.

It's way too much back then, I took it and now, I can't take it
The past had too much pain, and one cannot take any more agony.

Take me by the hand
Asking for reassurance, friendship and guidance.

Can you make me understand?
Seeking someone's help to comprehend what's going on.

Can you take me back to earth?
Asking someone to bring him back to reality.

Can you show me what it's worth?
Thinking of what's valuable in life and seeking for a glimpse of value.

Can you make me go reverse?
Wishing for a chance to go back to a time when things were alright

This fast forward shit don't work
Rushing things won't make things better

Break my heart, touch my soul
Pleading to get hurt, for the sake of feeling anything.

Take it all, let it go
Offering everything to not hold on to anything.

Lose it all, lose control
Letting go of everything and losing control is the only path.

Lose control
Submit to the confusion and chaos.

It's hard to see it
Being blinded by one's misfortunes.

Doesn't matter when it's animated
Worries are still worries, even if it's in the imagination.

Afraid to lose it, I can't do
Fearful of losing what's important so staying put.

I can't move on, I hate it
Unable to let go of the past which is painful.

I can't control it (control it)
One cannot dictate what happens in life.

How I portrayed it (portrayed it)
Regretting how one showed bare emotion.

She broke my heart and stepped up on it
Hurting so much that it feels like the person deliberately made it worse.

And she's still my favorite
Loving the person who caused pain the most.

I'm not safe, it's coming at all times
There is no refuge from anxiety and it comes when it wants.

Fast pace, if I lose me outside
Living life too quickly has the danger of losing oneself in the process.

Full force, go
There is no other option but to go all-in with life.

Finally open when I'm home and close the door
Feeling like oneself only at home when everything else is shut outside.

Oh, oh, oh, oh, oh
Ad-lib to express a feeling of agony.