nothing else i could do
Ella Jane Lyrics

I waited up for your call
I was hoping you would call me even though you didn't promise to.

You never told me you would
You did not specifically promise to call me back.

But the way that you smiled was a promise, I swear
Your smile made me believe that you would call me back.

Fell asleep by the phone
I was waiting so long that I eventually fell asleep with the phone in my hand.

I missed a message or two
I might have missed your message while I was sleeping.

Deleted them 'cause they weren't you
I deleted any message I received that wasn't from you because I didn't want any other person's message to interfere with our connection.

I wrecked my house a hundred times just to see you walk into a room
I imagined destroying my house in anticipation of your arrival so that you could come in and rescue me.

But there was money in your laugh, so babe
You laughed so heartily that it made me forget any worries I had about our relationship because it was like currency to me.

There's nothing else I could do
Despite my circumstances, I am powerless to change my emotions towards you.

I miss the shape of your voice
I yearn for the sound of your distinct voice.

I miss the nape of your neck
I long for the touch of your skin on the back of your neck.

I miss the weight of your words
I miss the heaviness of your words and the effect it had on me.

I miss the bruises they left
I miss the emotional scars that your words caused me because they remind me of our connection.

Started reading the Times
I began to read the newspaper in order to find any mention of you.

Just to look for your name
I specifically searched for your name in newspapers.

I couldn't find it
I didn't find your name or any mention of you in the newspaper.

They must have made a mistake
I assumed that the newspaper made an error by not mentioning you.

I broke my knuckles in a fight
I got into a physical altercation because of you.

You were crying in the back of the room
You were crying as a result of the fight I got into because of our relationship.

And now the world is on fire, but babe
The world seems like it's falling apart, but my feelings for you are still strong.

And they can dance to the songs
Other people can enjoy music and dance, but I am consumed with my feelings for you.

And they can drink all the wine
Other people can enjoy their drinks, but I am too obsessed with you to enjoy anything else.

Because the high might be theirs
Other people might experience a sense of euphoria or joy, but my happiness is dependent on you.

But all the bottles were mine
All the things that I thought would make me happy or distract me from my obsession with you only belonged to me.

And then you're crashing my car
You caused damage to my property because of our relationship.

And now I'm taking the blame
I am willing to accept responsibility for any harm done to me as a result of my obsession with you and our relationship.

Babe, they must have made a mistake, oh
I still believe that the world has made an error by not recognizing our relationship.

There's nothing else I could do
Despite the chaos and harm caused by my obsession with you, I am unable to control my feelings or actions.