At the young age of 17, Ellise graduated from high school two years early and moved to Los Angeles to pursue her dreams of becoming a professional singer and recording artist. The process, however, was not an easy one. In order to graduate at the end of her sophomore year, Ellise was required to double up on classes for two years, and complete a lengthy exam which determined whether she would be able to continue on with her dream, or spend another year in high school before being able to graduate. Once she got the positive test results back over the summer, she was beyond excited to start her transition to Los Angeles.
Once in LA, Ellise decided to start posting covers on her YouTube channel in order to utilize her voice and have it out in the open for people to hear. Her first cover, “Hello” by Adele, gained immediate attention, as did her weekly covers following which included covers of Justin Bieber’s “Love Yourself”, Zayn Malik’s “Pillow Talk”, Adele’s “Hello” and more. Her Youtube channel quickly began to grow, bringing her fans who loved her purely for her voice. She created her YouTube channel in November of 2015, and quickly reached over 9,000 subscribers, and is grateful for each and every one.
Since moving in October, Ellise has been solely focused on one thing: music. She began the year writing with Grammy Award Winning Producer, Chris Seefried (Lana Del Rey, Andra Day and Fitz & the Tantrums) for Uproxx & Honda Stage’s “Uncharted”. The duo wrote and produced her first original single, “Breakdown”, which can be seen on the Uproxx website as well as sites such as Complex.com, Honda’s Facebook page and more. She spent the next 6 months in the studio recording her now scrapped EP release, before releasing the first single from the EP, titled “Dominoes”, in June 2016.
Following this, starting in 2018, she independently released music, releasing a string of single, each with music videos, showing her creative drive and talent, leading up to her debut extended play, "Can You Keep a Secret?" The opening track from the Halloween EP, "911", trended, become Ellise's biggest song. After this, she continued to release independently with her new darker pop sound, releasing another few singles before in October of 2019, releasing her sophomore Halloween extended play, "Under My Bed".
Through all of 2020, she spent lockdown productively working on her debut studio album, "Chaotic", releasing the first single - "Bubblegum Brain", a punchy vibrant pop song with contrastingly dark lyrics - early 2021, followed by the next single, "Feeling Something Bad...", taking a more experimental tone as Ellise (and the album's executive producer, Micah Gordon) experiment with pitched vocals and a stranger sound. It was followed by the album's last single, "Over Breakfast", an introspective sad song, stripped back to just Ellise calling for one last night with her soon-to-be-ex, accompanied by only an acoustic guitar. After this, "Chaotic" was released, with a live show to accompany it, and a deluxe edition planned, along with a video for one of the album's standout tracks, "Bruises".
Under My Bed
Ellise Lyrics
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A smile on your face you rip out my heart
Just to watch how it breaks
You choose me to use me
And take out your pain
Your mistakes put me in my grave
How am I supposed to feel when
Stitches where my wounds will heal
A scar that has your memory
I keep the eyes in the back
Of my head open 24 7, remembering
Darker days, the Devil's real
I've been to Hell and back again
Help
There's a monster under my bed (Ha ha ha ha)
And I think that he might want me dead
He said, if I let him go I'll regret
All of the damage he's done to my head help
There's a monster under my bed
And I think that he might want me dead
He said, if I let him go I'll regret
All of the damage he's done to my head
My bones won't stop breaking
You're throwing me stones
My teardrops are bloody i'm here all alone
Your words are a sickness
They're stuck to my soul
On my own, with your lonely soul
How am I supposed to feel when
No one's keepin' track of me?
Stitches where my wounds will heal
A scar that has your memory
I keep the eyes in the back
Of my head open 24 7
Remembering, darker days, the Devil's real
I've been to Hell and back again
Help
There's a monster under my bed (Ha ha ha ha)
And I think that he might want me dead
He said, if I let him go I'll regret
All of the damage he's done to my head help
There's a monster under my bed
And I think that he might want me dead
He said, if I let him go I'll regret
All of the damage he's done to my head
Help
There's a monster under my bed (Ha ha ha ha)
And I think that he might want me dead
He said, if I let him go I'll regret
All of the damage he's done to my head help
There's a monster under my bed
And I think that he might want me dead
He said, if I let him go I'll regret
All of the damage he's done to my head
The lyrics of Ellise's song "Under My Bed" depict a tumultuous and abusive relationship, using metaphorical references to a monster under the bed. The first verse describes the destructive nature of the relationship, with phrases like "slash me and stab me" symbolizing the emotional and physical pain inflicted by the other person. The abuser seems to take pleasure in causing harm, deriving satisfaction from ripping apart the singer's heart just to witness their devastation. The abuser deliberately selects the singer to exploit and unleash their own pain, while the consequences of their actions push the singer towards a metaphorical grave.
The chorus portrays a sense of isolation and neglect, with the singer feeling invisible and unnoticed. The absence of anyone "keeping track" of them suggests a lack of support or acknowledgment from others. The singer seeks healing and closure, metaphorically represented by stitches and wound healing, but the scar that remains serves as a constant reminder of the pain and trauma inflicted by the abuser. The singer remains vigilant and watchful, with the eyes in the back of their head symbolizing their awareness and readiness to protect themselves. The reference to darker days and the existence of the Devil further emphasizes the depth of suffering the singer has experienced.
In the second verse, the lyrics delve into the physical and emotional toll the abuse has taken on the singer. The image of bones breaking and stones being thrown symbolizes the relentless and systematic destruction perpetrated by the abuser. The tears shed by the singer are now bloodied, highlighting the anguish and isolation they feel. The abuser's words are described as a sickness, deeply ingrained in the singer's soul, underscoring the long-lasting impact of their emotional manipulation. The singer finds themselves left alone, carrying the heavy burden of the abuser's actions.
The chorus is repeated, reinforcing the singer's desperate cry for help and the fear that the monster under their bed may want them dead. The abuser's warning about the regret that will accompany their release suggests a manipulative attempt to control and intimidate the singer. The damage inflicted on the singer's head represents the psychological harm caused by the abuser.
Overall, "Under My Bed" explores the themes of abuse, manipulation, isolation, and the haunting impact of toxic relationships. The lyrics paint a vivid picture of the singer's suffering and their desperate plea for support and escape from the torment inflicted upon them.
Line by Line Meaning
You slash me and stab me
You deliberately hurt me, causing physical and emotional pain
A smile on your face you rip out my heart
You derive pleasure from tearing apart my emotions and leaving me broken
Just to watch how it breaks
You find entertainment in witnessing the destruction you cause
You choose me to use me
You select me to exploit and manipulate for your own benefit
And take out your pain
You unload your own suffering onto me
Your mistakes put me in my grave
Your actions and errors lead to my metaphorical demise and emotional burial
How am I supposed to feel when
In what way am I expected to experience emotions when
No one's keepin' track of me?
Nobody is monitoring and paying attention to my well-being
Stitches where my wounds will heal
I find temporary relief and healing from my emotional scars
A scar that has your memory
The mark left by your actions serves as a painful reminder of you
I keep the eyes in the back
I remain vigilant and aware
Of my head open 24 7, remembering
My mind is always alert, recalling
Darker days, the Devil's real
Times of despair and torment, the presence of evil is tangible
I've been to Hell and back again
I have endured immense suffering and emerged stronger
Help
I am desperately seeking assistance and support
There's a monster under my bed (Ha ha ha ha)
I metaphorically perceive a terrifying presence that haunts me
And I think that he might want me dead
I believe this entity desires my demise
He said, if I let him go I'll regret
The entity warns me that I will experience deep remorse if I try to escape
All of the damage he's done to my head help
The entity has caused severe psychological harm, and I am pleading for assistance
My bones won't stop breaking
The torment I endure keeps breaking me emotionally and physically
You're throwing me stones
You continuously harm and afflict me
My teardrops are bloody i'm here all alone
My tears are stained with pain, and I am left feeling isolated
Your words are a sickness
Your words have a detrimental effect on my mental and emotional well-being
They're stuck to my soul
The impact of your words lingers and becomes ingrained within me
On my own, with your lonely soul
I am left to face the consequences of your actions and suffer in solitude
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