I Want to Vanish
Elvis Costello Lyrics


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I want to vanish
This is my fondest wish
To go where I cannot be captured
Laid on a decorated dish
Even in splendor, this curious fate
Is more than I care to surrender
Now, it's too late
Whether in wonder or indecent haste
You arrange the mirrors and the spools
To snare the rare and precious jewels
That were only made of paste

If you should stumble upon my last remark
I'm crying in the wilderness
I'm trying my best to make it dark
How can I tell you I'm rarer than most
I'm certain as a lost dog
Pondering a sign post

Whether in wonder or indecent haste
You arrange the mirrors and the spools
To snare the rare and precious jewels
That were only made of paste

I want to vanish
This is my last request




I've given you the awful truth
Now give me my rest

Overall Meaning

In Elvis Costello's song "I Want to Vanish," the singer expresses a wish to disappear completely, away from the prying eyes of the world. He desires a place where he cannot be captured or displayed like a decorative item. The song hints at a sense of being trapped or feeling like an object to be admired, but never truly seen. Even in moments of splendor, he feels as if he is surrendering too much of himself, and he prefers to hold on to his individuality instead of being caught up in others' expectations.


The second verse highlights the fickle nature of the entertainment industry, where something or someone of little worth can be presented as valuable and rare. The singer realizes that this is a dangerous game, and he doesn't want to be a part of it. He would rather vanish than be caught up in the web of lies and illusions that are created to ensnare people.


The final verse highlights the singer's desperation to disappear, almost as if it is his last resort. He wants to make it clear to the world that he has given them the truth, and now he desires his rest. The song's overall theme seems to be one of individualism and the desire for personal space and freedom, which can be tough to attain in a world that constantly expects us to conform.


Line by Line Meaning

I want to vanish
I desire to disappear from existence


This is my fondest wish
It's my deepest yearning


To go where I cannot be captured
I want to escape from being caught


Laid on a decorated dish
I don't want to be shown off as if I'm special


Even in splendor, this curious fate
Even if it's an unusual destiny despite looking great


Is more than I care to surrender
I don't want to give up on it, no matter how difficult it might be


Now, it's too late
I fear that my chance has passed, and I can't do anything about it


Whether in wonder or indecent haste
No matter if it's in amazement or lack of patience


You arrange the mirrors and the spools
You set up traps and deceits


To snare the rare and precious jewels
In order to catch unique and valuable things


That were only made of paste
But in reality, those things were fake or not genuine


If you should stumble upon my last remark
If you should come across my final message


I'm crying in the wilderness
I'm calling out loud alone, with no response


I'm trying my best to make it dark
I'm attempting to hide my true intentions


How can I tell you I'm rarer than most
How can I communicate that I'm exceptional, unusual compared to others?


I'm certain as a lost dog
I'm as sure of myself as a confused and abandoned dog


Pondering a sign post
Contemplating a direction, unsure of where to go


This is my last request
This is what I want before I'm gone


I've given you the awful truth
I presented you with a terrible reality


Now give me my rest
Now let me be at peace




Lyrics © BMG Rights Management, Universal Music Publishing Group
Written by: DECLAN MACMANUS

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