Epilogue: What If
Emilie Autumn Lyrics

Here you sit in your high-backed chair
You may have a position of power or authority, but it doesn't make you any better or smarter than anyone else.

Wonder how the view is from there
You might think you have a better view of the world, but you're missing important aspects of reality.

I wouldn't know 'cause I like to sit upon the floor, yeah upon the floor
I don't believe in hierarchies, so I choose to sit at the same level as everyone else, even if it is on the ground.

If you like we could play a game
I'm willing to engage with you, but only if you're willing to play fair.

Let's pretend that we are the same
We can imagine that we have the same experiences and that we are equals, despite our differences.

But you will have to look much closer than you do, closer than you do
You have yet to truly understand who I am and what I stand for. You need to take a closer look and listen harder.

And I'm far too tired to stay here anymore
I'm tired of pretending and playing nice. It's time for me to move on.

And I don't care what you think anyway
Your opinion doesn't define me or my worth as a person.

‘Cause I think you were wrong about me
You've made assumptions about me that are incorrect or don't tell the full story.

Yeah what if you were, what if you were
What if your assumptions or beliefs about who I am are completely off-base?

And what if I'm a snowstorm burning
What if I'm a paradox or something that doesn't fit into conventional categories or definitions?

What if I'm a world unturning
What if I'm something that defies expectations or challenges the status quo?

What if I'm an ocean, far too shallow, much too deep
What if I'm a complex and multifaceted individual, with layers and depths that are not immediately apparent?

What if I'm the kindest demon
What if I'm someone or something that is often associated with evil or darkness, but I have a kind and compassionate nature?

Something you may not believe in
I might challenge your beliefs or expectations, but that doesn't make me any less valid or real.

What if I'm a siren singing gentlemen to sleep
What if I have a power or allure that attracts others, but it's not necessarily a good thing for them?

I know you've got it figured out
You think you understand who I am and what I'm about, but you don't have all the answers.

Tell me what I am all about
You're curious or maybe even judgmental about my identity and motivations.

And I just might learn a thing or two
I'm open to new ideas and perspectives, even if they challenge my own assumptions.

Hundred about you, maybe about you
I might learn something about you in the process, but that's not the main goal of this interaction.

I'm the end of your telescope
I'm just a tiny part of your world, but I might be more significant than you realize.

I don't change just to suit your vision
I'm not going to conform to your expectations or desires, especially if they compromise who I am as a person.

‘Cause I am bound by a fraying rope around my hands, tied around my hands
I might feel trapped or restricted by societal norms or personal circumstances, but I'm trying to break free.

And you close your eyes when I say I'm breaking free
You don't want to acknowledge or accept that I'm trying to change or grow as a person.

And put your hands over both your ears
You're resistant to hearing anything that might challenge your worldview or beliefs.

Because you cannot stand to believe I'm not the perfect girl you thought
You had an idealized or unrealistic image of who I was, and it's difficult for you to let go of that.

Well what have I got to lose
I have nothing left to lose by challenging your assumptions or proving you wrong.

And what if I'm a weeping willow
What if I'm someone who appears sad or fragile, but I have a deep inner strength and resilience?

Laughing tears upon my pillow
I might experience emotions that seem contradictory or inexplicable, but that's just a part of being human.

What if I'm a socialite who wants to be alone
What if I'm someone who seems to have it all, but I'm actually struggling with loneliness or a lack of genuine connections?

What if I'm a toothless leopard
What if I'm someone who might seem dangerous or intimidating, but I'm actually harmless or vulnerable?

What if I'm a sheepless shepherd
What if I'm someone who is supposed to know what to do, but I'm lost or uncertain myself?

What if I'm an angel without wings to take me home
What if I'm someone who feels out of place or misunderstood, and I don't know where I truly belong?

You don't know me
You might think you understand me, but you don't have the whole picture.

Never will, never will
I'm always evolving and changing, so it's impossible for anyone to truly know me.

I'm outside your picture frame
You have a limited scope or perception of who I am, and it doesn't capture my full essence.

And the glass is breaking now
I'm starting to break out of your narrow expectations and definitions of who I am.

You can't see me
You might still be looking for the old version of me that fit into your expectations, but that person doesn't exist anymore.

Never will, never will
You might never fully understand or accept me, but that's okay.

If you're never gonna see
If you're not willing to open your mind or expand your perspective, then you might never truly see who I am.

What if I'm a crowded desert
What if I'm a place that is full of contradictions, complexity, and confusion?

Too much pain with little pleasure
I might experience more pain than joy, but that doesn't mean my life is completely devoid of pleasure or meaning.

What if I'm the nicest place you never want to go
What if I'm somewhere that might seem unappealing or uncomfortable at first, but it ends up being a transformative and rewarding experience?

What if I don't know who I am
What if I'm still figuring things out and exploring my identity and purpose in life?

Will that keep us both from trying
Even if I'm uncertain about myself, I'm still willing to connect and engage with you in a meaningful way.

To find out and when you have
Together, we can discover more about ourselves and each other, but it's a journey that never truly ends.

Be sure to let me know
By sharing our insights and discoveries, we can deepen our understanding of ourselves and the world around us.

Sleep…
Sometimes we need to rest and let our minds and souls recover from the challenges of life.

Sleep…
By taking time for ourselves and being gentle with our needs, we can find the strength to face another day.