Ever
Emilie Autumn Lyrics


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I've been racing for you honey
But you take your love
From under my feet
The very moment I arrive
I hold the invitation in my hand
You smile and I don't understand
When you tell me the writing ain't yours
You were the one thing I could count on
Even if your apathy was what I expected
Oh darling I waited and waited to feel your footsteps
And to hear your breath
But maybe I just wanted someone to wait for

[Chorus]
You were ever in my mind
You were behind my soul each time
I held it to the flame
You were ever in my precious thoughts
I'd leave a room of angels
Just to be alone
If only to say your name
I never told you I needed you darling
Like a rose needs the rain
How could you possibly know how much
So I reach for your love
Like the moon and the stars
Ever in my sight
Ever out of touch

There's a spotlight of a holy kind
Think it comes from somewhere
Up in the sky or from some far off lovely place
But this light never ever ever shone on me
At least as far as I could see
So I sat in the dark and I watched you
Now I just cry to myself
When there's no one around
And I teach myself to walk backwards
Out of any given situation
Yes I can be graceful and try
Not to step on my train and
You don't have to say goodbye
But I'll be right here if you want to

[Chorus]

Now I could paint your portrait
If I never saw you again
When I am old someone may ask me
If I ever loved
And I will speak but they won't recognize
My words, they'll say I'm telling lies
And maybe I am
Maybe I am
All I know is





[Chorus]

Overall Meaning

The lyrics of Emilie Autumn's song "Ever" depict the singer's feelings of frustration, confusion, and unrequited love. It seems that the singer has been chasing after a lover who keeps slipping away from her. Despite holding an invitation to meet, the lover never shows up or undermines the singer's expectations. The singer expresses her pain and disappointment by saying that she has been waiting for her lover's footsteps and breath, but maybe it was all in her head, and she just wanted someone to wait for. The chorus reinforces the idea that the lover was always on the singer's mind and in her thoughts, even though they were never really together. The final verse shows that the singer has accepted that her love may never be reciprocated and that, in hindsight, she may have been fooling herself into thinking that she was ever loved back.


Line by Line Meaning

I've been racing for you honey
I've been in a hurry to be with you


But you take your love
But you withdraw your affection


From under my feet
When I'm at my closest to you


The very moment I arrive
As soon as I see you


I hold the invitation in my hand
I hold your written request to be with you


You smile and I don't understand
You smile and I can't make sense of it


When you tell me the writing ain't yours
When you deny writing the note


You were the one thing I could count on
I relied on you


Even if your apathy was what I expected
Even if it was no surprise when you were indifferent


Oh darling I waited and waited to feel your footsteps
I longed for you to come to me


And to hear your breath
And to hear you breathe near me


But maybe I just wanted someone to wait for
But maybe I just wanted something to look forward to


You were ever in my mind
You were always on my mind


You were behind my soul each time
You were deep inside of me each time


I held it to the flame
I tested it to its very limits


You were ever in my precious thoughts
You occupied my most cherished thoughts


I'd leave a room of angels
I'd depart from the most peaceful setting


Just to be alone
Just to be by myself with you in my thoughts


If only to say your name
If only to whisper your name to myself


I never told you I needed you darling
I never told you how much I needed you


Like a rose needs the rain
Like a rose requires water to survive


How could you possibly know how much
How could you have any idea of how much


So I reach for your love
So I try to obtain your love


Like the moon and the stars
Like the celestial objects in the sky


Ever in my sight
Always visible to me


Ever out of touch
Yet always out of reach


There's a spotlight of a holy kind
There is a divine kind of light


Think it comes from somewhere
I believe it originates from somewhere


Up in the sky or from some far off lovely place
Either from the heavens or an idyllic location far away


But this light never ever ever shone on me
But this light never illuminated me


At least as far as I could see
As far as I was aware


So I sat in the dark and I watched you
So I sat and watched you in the darkness


Now I just cry to myself
Now I only weep in private


When there's no one around
When there's nobody nearby


And I teach myself to walk backwards
And I train myself to walk backwards


Out of any given situation
Out of any circumstance


Yes I can be graceful and try
Yes, I can try to appear calm and collected


Not to step on my train and
To avoid stepping on my gown


You don't have to say goodbye
You don't have to part ways with me


But I'll be right here if you want to
But I'll be here if you decide to stay


Now I could paint your portrait
Now I have the ability to paint your likeness


If I never saw you again
If I never saw you another time


When I am old someone may ask me
In my old age someone might inquire


If I ever loved
If I ever experienced love


And I will speak but they won't recognize
And I'll tell them, but they won't accept


My words, they'll say I'm telling lies
They'll assert I'm not speaking the truth


And maybe I am
And perhaps they are correct


Maybe I am
Perhaps it is true


All I know is
All I'm certain of is


You were ever in my mind
You were always on my mind


You were behind my soul each time
You were deep inside of me each time


I held it to the flame
I tested it to its very limits


You were ever in my precious thoughts
You occupied my most cherished thoughts


I'd leave a room of angels
I'd depart from the most peaceful setting


Just to be alone
Just to be by myself with you in my thoughts


If only to say your name
If only to whisper your name to myself


I never told you I needed you darling
I never told you how much I needed you


Like a rose needs the rain
Like a rose requires water to survive


How could you possibly know how much
How could you have any idea of how much


So I reach for your love
So I try to obtain your love


Like the moon and the stars
Like the celestial objects in the sky


Ever in my sight
Always visible to me


Ever out of touch
Yet always out of reach




Lyrics © Universal Music Publishing Group
Written by: EMILIE AUTUMN

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