Emilie Autumn Liddell (born on September 22, 1979), better known by her sta… Read Full Bio ↴Emilie Autumn Liddell (born on September 22, 1979), better known by her stage name Emilie Autumn, is an American singer-songwriter, poet, and violinist. Autumn draws influence for her music—the style of which she has alternatively labeled as "Victoriandustrial" and glam rock—from plays, novels, and history, particularly the Victorian era. Performing with her all-female backing band The Bloody Crumpets, Autumn incorporates elements of classical music, cabaret, electronica, and glam rock with theatrics, and burlesque.

Growing up in Malibu, California, she began learning the violin at the age of four and left regular school five years later with the goal of becoming a world-class violinist; she practiced eight or nine hours a day and read a wide range of literature. Progressing to writing her own music, she studied under various teachers and went to Indiana University, which she left over issues regarding the relationship between classical music and the appearance of the performer. Through her own independent label Traitor Records, Autumn debuted with her classical album On a Day: Music for Violin & Continuo, followed by the release in 2003 of her album Enchant.

She appeared in singer Courtney Love's backing band on her 2004 America's Sweetheart tour and returned to Europe. She released the 2006 album Opheliac with the German label Trisol Music Group. In 2007, she released Laced/Unlaced; the re-release of On a Day... appeared as Laced with songs on the electric violin as Unlaced. She later left Trisol to join New York-based The End Records in 2009 and release Opheliac in the United States, where previously it had only been available as an import. Currently she is on tour to promote her newest album Fight Like A Girl. She played the role of Painted Doll in Darren Lynn Bousman's 2012 film The Devil's Carnival.

If You Feel Better
Emilie Autumn Lyrics

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If you feel better
Telling me I'm cruel
Saying I'm unfeeling
I don't mind
If it's necessary
If it helps you out
Crying that I'm heartless
It's alright

[Chorus]
And I'm sorry to cause you so much pain
And I'm sorry to bring you down again
'Cause I've reached the end and I won't fight anymore
I don't know what you really want from me
But I don't fit in your reality
How can any man be so blind
But if you feel better
I don't mind

If you feel safer
Keeping to yourself
Placing trust in no one
I won't cry
If it calms your conscience
Making me the guilty one
Take my reputation
Ain't worth much
And it's alright

[Chorus]

Won't make me sorry 'cause I'm cruel
Won't hurt the feelings I don't have
Won't break the heart that isn't there you'll find
But if you feel better
Telling me I'm cruel
Saying I'm unfeeling
I don't mind

I don't mind
I don't mind

Overall Meaning

The song "If You Feel Better" by Emilie Autumn talks about someone who is willing to take the blame for someone else's pain to help them feel better. They are aware of how the other person perceives them as a cruel and unfeeling person, and they do not mind being seen that way if it will make things easier for the other person. The lyrics in the chorus suggest that the singer has reached a breaking point and has stopped fighting. They apologize for causing pain but they also recognize that they do not fit in the other person's reality.

The song could be interpreted as a commentary on relationships where one person is always made to feel like the villain, even if they are not intentionally trying to hurt the other person. It could also be seen as a plea for someone to acknowledge the singer's side of the story and not just place all the blame on them. Some even interpret the song as a reflection on the toxic nature of some abusive relationships where victims take on the blame and responsibility for everything that goes wrong.

Line by Line Meaning

If you feel better
If it makes you feel better

Telling me I'm cruel
To call me cruel

Saying I'm unfeeling
To say that I lack emotion

I don't mind
It doesn't bother me

If it's necessary
If it helps you in some way

If it helps you out
If it makes things easier for you

Crying that I'm heartless
To weep that I am cold-hearted

It's alright
It's okay

And I'm sorry to cause you so much pain
I apologize for causing you so much suffering

And I'm sorry to bring you down again
I regret causing you disappointment once more

'Cause I've reached the end and I won't fight anymore
I've come to the end of my will to fight