Sober
Emily Valentine Lyrics

I don't wanna be the girl who laughs the loudest
I don't want to be someone who covers up their true emotions by laughing excessively

Or the girl who never wants to be alone
I don't want to have a fear of being alone

I don't wanna be there calling 4 o'clock in the morning
I don't want to be someone who is always calling others in the middle of the night because of loneliness or insecurities

'Cause I'm the only one you know in the world that won't be home
I don't want to be the only person you can turn to when you feel alone or abandoned

Ah, the sun is blinding
I am seeing the reality of my situation, even though it is uncomfortable or unpleasant

I stayed up again
I am losing sleep over my troubles or worries

Oh, I am finding
I am realizing

That that's not the way I want my story to end
I do not want my life to be defined by these negative circumstances

I'm safe
I am in a safe physical space

Up high
I am in a higher emotional state where I feel in control

Nothing can touch me
I feel untouchable and invincible

But why do I feel this party's over?
But why do I feel like the happiness I'm experiencing is fleeting and will soon come to an end?

No pain
I am not experiencing any emotional pain

Inside
I am able to maintain a positive attitude and inner peace

You're my protection
You help protect me from my inner demons

But how do I feel this good sober?
But how can I feel so good without the use of substances?

I don't wanna be the girl that has to fill the silence
I don't want to feel the need to fill an awkward silence

The quiet scares me 'cause it screams the truth
Silence makes me uncomfortable because it reveals the truth I may be trying to avoid

Please don't tell me that we had that conversation
Please don't tell me things that reveal the depth of my emotional distress

Cause I won't remember, save your breath, 'cause what's the use?
Because I won't be able to retain that information and it won't be helpful to hear it again

The night is calling?
The allure of nighttime and its hedonistic pleasures is tempting

And it whispers to me softly come and play
I am being lured into a cycle of unhealthy behavior

But I, I am falling
I am losing control and succumbing to temptation

And If I let myself go I'm the only one to blame
If I give into my desires, I only have myself to hold accountable

Coming down, coming down, coming down
Coming down from a state of happiness or euphoria

Spinning 'round, spinning 'round, spinning 'round
Feeling dizzy or disoriented from the ups and downs of life

I'm looking for myself, sober
I am trying to find my true self without the need for substances

When it's good, then it's good, it's so good 'till it goes bad
When things are going well, they can be extremely enjoyable, but that feeling can quickly sour

'Till you're trying to find the you that you once had
Until you start to search for the part of yourself that was happy and fulfilled without dependency on substances

I have heard myself cry, never again
I have experienced the heartache and pain of addiction and never want to go through it again

Broken down in agony just tryin' to find a friend
Experiencing unbearable emotional pain while desperately searching for someone to help ease the burden

I'm safe
I am in a safe physical space

Up high
I am in a higher emotional state where I feel in control

Nothing can touch me
I feel untouchable and invincible

But why do I feel this party's over?
But why do I feel like the happiness I'm experiencing is fleeting and will soon come to an end?

No pain
I am not experiencing any emotional pain

Inside
I am able to maintain a positive attitude and inner peace

You're like perfection
You help me feel a sense of emotional stability and completeness

But how do I feel this good sober?
But how can I feel so good without the use of substances?