The Monster
Emimem feat. Rihanna Lyrics

I'm friends with the monster that's under my bed
I have accepted my inner demons and my struggles as a part of who I am.

Get along with the voices inside of my head
I have learned to coexist with the thoughts and doubts that plague my mind.

You're tryin' to save me, stop holding your breath
You cannot change me or my situation, so please do not exhaust yourself trying to fix me.

And you think I'm crazy, yeah, you think I'm crazy (crazy)
You perceive me as unstable or irrational, but that label does not bother me.

I wanted the fame but not the cover of Newsweek
I desired recognition for my talent, but not the scrutiny and criticism that often accompanies success.

Oh well, guess beggars can't be choosey
I cannot be picky about how my fame is received, as I had little control over it in the first place.

Wanted to receive attention for my music
I craved positive recognition and validation for my artistic expression.

Wanted to be left alone in public, excuse me
I desired privacy and autonomy despite my public persona, but I am aware that such a desire may seem contradictory.

For wantin' my cake, and eat it too, and wantin' it both ways
I am aware that my desires may seem contradictory or impossible, but I still strive for them nonetheless.

Fame made me a balloon 'cause my ego inflated
My success has caused me to become egotistical and self-centered, which I acknowledge is a negative consequence of fame.

When I blew, see, but it was confusing
When I became successful, I felt overwhelmed and conflicted about the consequences of my fame.

'Cause all I wanted to do's be the Bruce Lee of loose leaf
My ultimate goal was to be a legendary and masterful rapper, like Bruce Lee was a legendary martial artist.

Abused ink, used it as a tool when I blew steam (ooh)
I channeled my negative emotions and frustrations into my music as a coping mechanism.

Hit the lottery, ooh-wee
My success and fame felt like winning the lottery, a rare and remarkable accomplishment.

But with what I gave up to get, it was bittersweet
Although I have achieved success, I have made sacrifices in order to do so, leaving me with mixed feelings about my accomplishments.

It was like winnin' a used mink
Although I have achieved success, I cannot help but feel like it is a little underwhelming or shallow given the efforts I have put in.

Ironic 'cause I think I'm gettin' so huge I need a shrink
Despite my fame and success, I still feel like I am struggling to cope with my own emotional demons, and I am aware of the need for professional help.

I'm beginnin' to lose sleep, one sheep, two sheep
My struggles and pressures are beginning to affect my ability to sleep and rest.

Going coo-coo and kooky as Kool Keith
My behavior and mindset are becoming more and more erratic, like the unconventional rapper Kool Keith.

But I'm actually weirder than you think, 'cause I'm
Despite my public persona, I am even stranger and more unconventional than people may realize.

Now, I ain't much of a poet
I do not consider myself to be a skilled writer or wordsmith.

But I know somebody once told me to seize the moment
Despite my doubts, I know that it is important to take advantage of my success and opportunities while they last.

And don't squander it
I must make sure I use my success and opportunities wisely, and not waste them.

'Cause you never know when it all could be over tomorrow
Success is fleeting and unpredictable, so I must make the most of it while I have it.

So I keep conjurin'
I continue to create and write music, despite the challenges and doubts I face.

Sometimes I wonder where these thoughts spawn from
I am occasionally unsure of the origins and motivations behind my creative thoughts and impulses.

Yeah, ponderin'll do you wonders
Deep introspection and consideration can lead to valuable insights and understandings.

No wonder you're losing your mind, the way it wanders
My wandering mind and thoughts may be causing me stress or confusion.

Yodel-odel-ay-hee-hoo
An expression of frustration or despair, akin to yelling or sighing.

I think it went wanderin' off down yonder
My mind may have wandered too far or in an unproductive direction.

And stumbled onto Jeff VanVonderen
A reference to the interventionist Jeff VanVonderen, implying that I need someone to help me overcome my struggles.

'Cause I need an interventionist
I am aware that I need someone to intervene in my personal struggles and help me overcome them.

To intervene between me and this monster
I need someone to help me overcome the inner demons and struggles that I am facing.

And save me from myself and all this conflict
I need help overcoming the negative patterns of behavior and thinking that are causing me stress and conflict.

'Cause the very thing that I love's killing me
My passion for music and success is causing me stress and strife, and may be detrimental to my mental health.

And I can't conquer it
Despite my efforts and desire to overcome my struggles, I am currently unable to do so.

My OCD is conkin' me in the head, keep knockin'
My obsessive-compulsive tendencies are causing me distress and making it difficult to focus or rest.

Nobody's home, I'm sleepwalkin'
I feel like I am going through the motions and struggling to connect with my own thoughts and emotions.

I'm just relayin' what the voice in my head's sayin'
My music is inspired by and reflective of the thoughts and emotions that I am currently experiencing.

Don't shoot the messenger, I'm just friends with the
Do not blame me or hold me responsible for the thoughts and emotions that I am expressing in my music.

Call me crazy, but I have this vision
I have a unique and unconventional vision for my music and my life as a whole, even if it may seem strange to others.

One day that I'll walk amongst you a regular civilian
I hope to someday be able to live a normal and mundane life, free of the pressures and scrutiny of fame and success.

But until then, drums get killed and
Until that day comes, I will continue to produce and rap, pouring my emotions and struggle into my music.

I'm comin' straight at MC's, blood gets spilled and
I am ready and willing to take on other rappers in battles and competitions, putting all of my energy and passion into the fight.

I'll take it back to the days that I'd get on a Dre track
I reminisce on the early days of my career, when I worked closely with Dr. Dre and made some of my most iconic music.

Give every kid who got played that pumped-up feelin'
I hope to inspire and empower young people, especially those who have been underestimated or marginalized, by giving them a sense of energy and excitement through my music.

And shit to say back to the kids who played him
I want to give my listeners the tools and confidence they need to stand up for themselves and fight back against those who have wronged them.

I ain't here to save the fuckin' children
I do not see myself as a savior or role model for young people, but I do hope to connect with them and inspire them through my music.

But if one kid out of a hundred million
Even if my music only inspires or empowers a small percentage of my listeners, it is still worth it and makes a difference.

Who are going through a struggle feels it and relates, that's great
If even one person who is struggling or facing challenges can connect with my music and find comfort or inspiration in it, then my work is worthwhile.

It's payback, Russell Wilson
A reference to NFL quarterback Russell Wilson, implying that my success and accomplishments are a form of payback or revenge for those who doubted or underestimated me.

Falling way back in the draft
A reference to Wilson's draft status and the fact that he was not initially highly valued or touted as a successful athlete.

Turn nothin' into somethin', still can
I was able to turn my own struggles and challenges into a source of inspiration and creativity, and I encourage others to do the same.

Make that, straw into gold, chump, I will spin
I am able to take even the most negative or mundane experiences and transform them into something valuable and meaningful through my music.

Rumpelstiltskin in a haystack
A reference to the fairy tale character Rumpelstiltskin, implying that I possess a similar ability to turn ordinary objects or experiences into something valuable or miraculous.

Maybe I need a straight jacket, face facts
I acknowledge that my behavior and mindset may seem unconventional or unhinged to outsiders, and I am even open to the possibility that I may need professional help or intervention.

I am nuts for real, but I'm okay with that
I acknowledge that I may seem strange or unconventional to others, but I am comfortable with who I am and proud of my own uniqueness.

It's nothin', I'm still friends with the
Despite my struggles and challenges, I remain connected to my inner demons and negative thoughts and emotions, even accepting them as a part of who I am.