Stan
Eminem(에미넴) Lyrics

My tea's gone cold I'm wondering why I Got out of bed at all
Feeling depressed and unproductive, questioning why I even bothered getting out of bed

The morning rain clouds up my window And I can't see at all And even if I could it'll all be gray
The weather outside matches my mood, everything seems dreary and bleak

Put your picture on my wall It reminds me, that it's not so bad It's not so bad
Looking at a picture of someone that brings some comfort, reminding me that life isn't all bad

Dear Slim, I wrote you but still ain't callin' I left my cell, my pager, and my home phone at the bottom I sent two letters back in autumn, you must not-a got 'em There probably was a problem at the post office or somethin'
Expressing frustration that a letter to Eminem was not answered, speculating on why (perhaps lost in the mail)

Sometimes I scribble addresses too sloppy when I jot 'em But anyways, fuck it, what's been up? Man how's your daughter?
Admitting fault in possibly sending a bad address, then asking about Eminem's daughter as a way of reaching out and showing interest

My girlfriend's pregnant too, I'm bout to be a father If I have a daughter, guess what I'm a call her? I'm a name her Bonnie
Sharing his own exciting news of becoming a father, and expressing excitement over the idea of naming his daughter after a character in Eminem's song

I had a friend kill himself over some bitch who didn't want him I know you probably hear this everyday, but I'm your biggest fan I even got the underground shit that you did with Skam
Sharing a heartbreaking personal story and emphasizing how much he looks up to Eminem, including the underground music he made before he became famous

Anyways, I hope you get this man, hit me back, Just to chat, truly yours, your biggest fan This is Stan
Ending the letter with a request for Eminem to call him back simply to talk, and signing off with his name and a reference to Eminem's song

Dear Slim, you still ain't called or wrote, I hope you have a chance I ain't mad, I just think it's fucked up you don't answer fans If you didn't wanna talk to me outside your concert You didn't have to, but you coulda signed an autograph for Matthew
Writing a second letter, expressing disappointment that Eminem still hasn't responded, but trying to stay respectful and reasonable about it

That's pretty shitty man, you're like his fuckin' idol He wants to be just like you man, he likes you more than I do I ain't that mad though, I just don't like bein' lied to
Feeling let down by someone he looks up to, but still trying to keep his emotions in check and express how much Eminem means to his little brother

'Cause I don't really got shit else so that shit helps when I'm depressed I even got a tattoo of your name across the chest
Explaining how much Eminem's music means to him, even to the point of getting a tattoo in his honor

See everything you say is real, and I respect you cause you tell it My girlfriend's jealous 'cause I talk about you 24/7 But she don't know you like I know you Slim, no one does
Expressing admiration for Eminem's authenticity and honesty in his music, and sharing how much he talks about Eminem to others in his life

She don't know what it was like for people like us growin' up, you gotta call me man I'll be the biggest fan you'll ever lose Sincerely yours, Stan, P.S. we should be together too
Trying to connect with Eminem on a personal level, suggesting that they understand each other and should form a closer bond

Dear Mister "I'm Too Good To Call Or Write My Fans" This will be the last package I ever send your ass It's been six months and still no word, I don't deserve it?
Losing patience and sending a final angry letter, frustrated with Eminem's lack of response

Hey Slim, I drank a fifth of vodka You dare me to drive? You know the song by Phil Collins, "In the Air of the Night"
Showing signs of mental instability and possibly dangerous behavior, referencing a song about revenge and questioning the consequences of drinking and driving

That's kinda how this is, you could a rescued me from drowning Now it's too late, I'm on a thousand downers now, I'm drowsy And all I wanted was a lousy letter or a call
Drawing a parallel between his situation and the song, feeling like Eminem could have helped him in some way but didn't, now feeling hopeless and desperate for a response

I love you Slim, we coulda been together, think about it You ruined it now, I hope you can't sleep and you dream about it And when you dream I hope you can't sleep and you scream about it
Becoming delusional and obsessive, imagining a romantic relationship with Eminem and blaming him for ruining it, hoping he feels guilty and punished in his dreams

I hope your conscience eats at you and you can't breathe without me See Slim, shut up bitch! I'm tryin' to talk! Hey Slim, that's my girlfriend screamin' in the trunk
Continuing to spiral out of control and possibly even confessing a crime (keeping his girlfriend captive in the trunk), displaying violent behavior

But I didn't slit her throat, I just tied her up, see I ain't like you 'Cause if she suffocates she'll suffer more, and then she'll die too Well, gotta go, I'm almost at the bridge now Oh shit, I forgot, how am I supposed to send this shit out?
Justifying his actions as not being as bad as what he thinks Eminem might do, then revealing that he appears to be on his way to kill himself (and possibly his girlfriend as well), demonstrating a complete loss of control and mental stability

Dear Stan, I meant to write you sooner but I just been busy You said your girlfriend's pregnant now, how far along is she?
Finally responding, Eminem sounds somewhat apologetic but also dismissive of Stan's extreme behavior, asking a question about Stan's girlfriend

But what's this shit you said about you like to cut your wrists too? I say that shit just clownin' dog, come on, how fucked up is you?
Expressing disbelief and making light of Stan's claim that he also cuts himself, implying that this behavior is extreme and unnecessary

You got some issues Stan, I think you need some counseling To help your ass from bouncing off the walls when you get down some
Offering advice and support in the form of counseling, acknowledging that Stan clearly has some serious issues to work through

I hope you get to read this letter, I just hope it reaches you in time Before you hurt yourself, I think that you'll be doin' just fine If you relax a little, I'm glad I inspire you but Stan Why are you so mad? Try to understand, that I do want you as a fan I just don't want you to do some crazy shit
Wrapping up the letter with a hopeful message of support and a reminder that Eminem still values Stan as a fan, but cautioning him against dangerous or harmful behavior

I seen this one shit on the news a couple weeks ago that made me sick Some dude was drunk and drove his car over a bridge And had his girlfriend in the trunk, and she was pregnant with his kid And in the car they found a tape, but they didn't say who it was to Come to think about, his name was, it was you Damn!
Revealing that the story of the man who drove over a bridge with his pregnant girlfriend in the trunk was actually about Stan, reflecting on the tragedy and ending on a startling note