Going Through Changes
Eminem Lyrics

Lately, I really feel like I'm rollin' for delf like Philly
Eminem feels like he's losing control of himself.

Feel like I'm losing control of myself
Eminem feels like he's losing control of himself.

I sincerely apologize if all that I sound like Is I'm complainin', but life keeps on complicatin' and I'm debatin' on leavin' this world this evenin'
Eminem is apologizing in advance if he sounds like he's complaining, even though he's dealing with many problems and considering suicide.

Even my girls can see I'm grievin'
Even Eminem's loved ones can see that he's grieving.

I try and hide it but I can't
Eminem tries to hide his grief but can't.

Why do I act like I'm all high and mighty When inside I'm dyin'?
Eminem wonders why he tries to act confident when he's actually suffering inside.

I am finally realizin' I need Help, can't do it myself, too weak
Eminem acknowledges that he needs help and that he's too weak to handle his problems alone.

Two weeks, I've been havin' ups and downs Goin' through peaks and valleys Dilly-dallyin' 'round with the idea Of endin' this shit right here
Eminem has been struggling with ups and downs for two weeks, and has been seriously considering suicide.

I'm hatin' my reflection I walk around the house tryna fight mirrors I can't stand what I look like, yeah I look fat, but what do I care? I give a fuck Only thing I fear's Hailie I'm afraid if I close my eyes That I might see her, shit
Eminem hates what he sees in the mirror, is afraid of his daughter seeing him this way, and is afraid of seeing his deceased friend when he closes his eyes.

I lock myself in the bedroom, bathroom, nappin' at noon Yeah, dad's in a bad mood, he's always snappin' at you Marshall, what happened that you can't stop with these pills? And you've fallen off with your skills and your own fans are laughin' at you
Eminem locks himself in rooms and sleeps at odd hours due to his depression, his father is always angry, and people are criticizing him and his decline in musical ability.

It become a problem you're too pussy to tackle? Get up Be a man, stand, a real man woulda had this shit handled Know you just had your heart ripped out and crushed They say Proof just flipped out, homie just whipped out and bust Nah, it ain't like Doody to do that He wouldn't fuckin' shoot at nobody, he'd fight first But dwellin' on it only makes the night worse Now I'm poppin' Vics, Percs and Methadone pills "Yeah, Em, tight verse, you killed it" Fuckin' drug dealers hangin' 'round me like yes men And they gon' do whatever I says when I says it It's in their best interest to protect their investment And I just lost my fuckin' best friend, so fuck it, I guess then
Eminem talks about his addiction to drugs, the death of his friend Proof, and the people who enable him despite knowing that he has a problem.

My friends can't understand this new me, that's understandable Man, but think how bananas you'd be, you'd be an animal too If you were trapped in this fame and caged in it like a zoo And everybody's lookin' at you, what you want me to do?
Eminem reflects on the pressure of fame and how it has changed him, and how others would feel in his position.

I'm startin' to live like a recluse And the truth is, fame's startin' to give me an excuse To be at a all-time low, I sit alone in my home theater Watchin' the same damn DVD of the first tour The last tour he was still alive
Eminem is isolating himself due to his fame and has been watching the same DVD of his first tour, which reminds him of the past when his friend was still alive.

And it hurts so I fast forward, sleeping pills'll make me feel alright And if I'm still awake in the middle of the night I'll just take a couple more, yeah, you're motherfuckin' right I ain't slowin' down for no one, I am almost homeward bound Almost in a coma, yeah, homie, come on, dole 'em out "Daddy, don't you die on me, Daddy, better hold your ground" Fuck, don't I know the sound of that voice? Yeah, baby, hold me down (daddy)
Eminem talks about his addiction to sleeping pills and his fear of dying, but he also acknowledges the support of his daughter and asks her to hold him down.

Wake up in the hospital, full of tubes But somehow I'm pullin' through Swear when I come back I'ma be bulletproof I'ma do it just for Proof, I think I should state a few facts 'Cause I may not get a chance again to say the truth Shit, it just hit me that what if I would not've made it through? I think about the things I woulda never got to say to you I'd never get to make it right, so here's what I came to do Hailie, this one is for you, Whitney and Alaina too I still love your mother, that'll never change Think about her every day We just could never get it together, hey Wish there was a better way for me to say it But I swear on everything, I'd do anything for her on any day There are just too many things to explain, when it rains Guess it pours, yes, it does, wish there wasn't any pain But I can't pretend there ain't, I ain't placin' any blame I ain't pointin' fingers, Heaven knows I never been a saint I know that it feels like we just pissed away our history And just today I looked at your picture, almost if to say I miss you subconsciously, wish it didn't end this way But I just had to get away, don't know why I don't know what else to say, I guess I'm
Eminem reflects on his near-death experience and talks about his love for his daughter, her mother, and his deceased friend Proof. He acknowledges the mistakes he's made and the pain he's caused, but still wishes there was a better way to express his feelings. He misses his loved ones and wishes things could've ended differently, but doesn't know how else to cope.