I'm Havin' A Relapse
Eminem Lyrics


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Torture chambers, secret passageways
Vats of acid, and deadly vaults

Oh
Oh
(Guess who's back?)
I said, oh
I said, oh
(Guess who's back?)
I said, man
Damn
(Guess who's back?) Oh
(Guess who's back?) Damn, it feels good to be back
(Guess who's back?) I'm having a relapse

How the hell did he manage to get more felony charges?
He's already got life in jail, man, what the hell is his problem?
Well, to be honest, the smell of these chronic leaves make me hella demonic
They've compelled me to kill this elderly man
And I get these panic attacks, pop a Xanax, relax
Trying to stick my fucking dick inside a mannequin's ass
Then I get manic-depressed, see the orthodontist, get gassed
Man, it's kick-ass, the first thing I put on is the mask
Speaking of masks, man, it ain't too late to have a change of pace
And take it off and show my face, so you can see the things you face
And slice you up and cook you after you're murdered by strangulation
That's bacon souffle you making, ain't you? Well, thank you, Jason
There goes one more coma due to blunt force trauma
Just give me one more Soma and I'll be done for, mama
Go in the damn broom closet, another Valium, lost it
Shoving the vacuum nozzle, down the bathroom faucet
It seems like every day, I get a little flakier
The medication is making my hands a little shakier
Hand me that eighteen-month-old baby to shake him up
It'll only take me a second to choke his trachea
Breaking his neck in eighty-some places, baby, here Shady comes, lady
He's got the razor b-blades and the ch-ch-chainsa-saw, baby
You b-b-blundering, bumbling, m-m-mumbling dum-dums
Yeah, here I come-come, you hear the rumbling? Vrumm-vrumm
There's something inside of that blue tub and that drum-drum
A head and torso of someone, where'd it come from?
Who's it belong to? Maybe the girl with the long blonde hair
Who disappeared and left her cheerleader pom-poms
Clearly, there's somethin' wrong, 'cause she didn't come home
She's missing, where is she? Something fishy is going on




I guess he stuck the bitch with the pitchfork with the long prongs
Now, everybody get your dance on to my damn song, come on

Overall Meaning

The song "I'm Havin' A Relapse" by Eminem depicts the rapper's struggles with addiction, mental health issues, and violent tendencies. In the first verse, Em asks how someone with a life sentence manages to get more charges, and then immediately confesses to his own desire to commit murder due to his drug addiction. He also admits to experiencing panic attacks and manic depression but using medication to cope, which leads him down a spiral of increasingly disturbing thoughts and actions, including sexual deviance and the desire to commit homicide.


The second verse of the song takes a dark turn as Em describes his willingness to commit violent acts, such as choking a baby and breaking its neck, as well as the discovery of a human head and torso in a tarp. He also alludes to a missing girl with blonde hair, implying that she may have met a violent end at his hands. Throughout the song, Eminem's lyrics paint a picture of a troubled and unstable individual, struggling to control his urges and impulses as he spirals further into addiction and mental illness.


Line by Line Meaning

Damn it feels good to be back
I'm feeling good to be back, like I'm ready to take on the world again


I'm having a relapse
But I'm also having a relapse, going back to my old ways


How the hell did he manage
People are wondering how I could possibly get into even more trouble


To get more felony charges?
After all, I'm already facing life in jail


Man, what the hell is his problem?
People are questioning my sanity and my motivations


Well to be honest the smell of these chronic leaves make me hella demonic
The drugs make me crazy and impulsive


They compelled me
I feel like I don't have control over my actions


To kill this elderly man
Which led me to commit a horrific act of violence


And I get these panic attacks
I also suffer from anxiety, which is why I take Xanax


Pop a xanax, relax
To calm myself down and try to regain some control


Try to stick my fucking dick
But then I get these disturbing sexual urges


Inside a mannequins ass
Which leads me to some very disturbing behavior


Then I get manic depressed
These extreme mood swings are affecting me physically and emotionally


And the orthodontist get gas masked
I also have violent fantasies, which is why I wear a gas mask


Kick ass
I'm ready to take on the world, with or without the mask


The first thing I'll put on is the mask
Because I'm ready to unleash my violent tendencies


Speaking of masks, man
Let's talk about the masks we all wear


It ain't too late to have a change of pace
It's not too late to change who you are and how you act


And take it off and show my face
To reveal the true self that lies beneath the mask


So you can see the things you face
To confront the challenges and hurdles that lie ahead


And slice you up
But for me, violence is always lurking beneath the surface


And cook you after your murder
And I have disturbing, even cannibalistic tendencies


By strangulation, that's bacon souffle
I'm so demented, I make jokes about it


You making ain't you
I'm sick, and I know it


Well thank you jason
But I still feel like no one understands me


There goes one more coma
Another victim has fallen victim to my violent tendencies


Due to blunt force trauma
I'm capable of inflicting some serious damage


Just give me one more soma
But I can't stop, I need more drugs to keep going


And I'll be done for it mama
I know I'm headed for disaster, but I can't stop


Go in the damn broom closet
I'm hiding, trying to escape the world and my own demons


Another valium lost it
I've lost control, I can't find my pills


Shovin the vacuums nozzle
But I'll find anything to take my mind off my problems


Down the bathroom faucet
Even if it's just shoving a vacuum nozzle down a drain


It seems like every day I get a little flakier
My mental state is deteriorating


The medication is making my hands a little shakier
Even the drugs can't help me anymore


Hand me that 18 month old baby
I'm so desperate for a distraction, I'll resort even to harming a child


To shake him up
I'm completely detached from reality


It'll only take me a second to choke his trachea
I'm capable of unspeakable acts of violence, even against children


Breaking his neck in 80 some places
I'm ruthless and merciless, capable of inflicting the most severe pain imaginable


Baby here shady comes lady
I'm warning everyone that I'm here and I'm not to be messed with


He's got the razor ba-blades and the cha-cha-chainsaw-saw baby
I'm armed and dangerous, and I'll use whatever I can get my hands on


You be-be-blundering bumbling m-m-mumbling dumm dumms
To those who try to stop me, I'm just a crazy menace


Yeah, here I come come you hear the rumbling, vrum vrum
But to me, it's all a game, and I'm the winner


There's something inside of that blue tarp
What I'm hiding is a violent secret


And that drum drum
And I'm ready to unleash it on the world


A head and torso of someone
It's the remains of someone I've killed


Where'd it come from?
And I'm not going to tell, it's my secret


Who's it belong to
But rest assured, whoever it is, they're not coming back


Maybe that girl with the long blond hair
I'm so twisted and deranged, who knows who I could have killed


Who disappeared and left her cheerleader pom poms
I'll take anything as a trophy or reminder of my sick deeds


Clearly there's some'n wrong
But I don't care, I'm too far gone


'Cause she didn't come home
And I'm the reason why


She's missing
I'm a monster, and I'm getting away with it


Where is she
But I'm also tormented by my own actions, and the lives I've ruined


Something fishy is going on
I'm paranoid, and I feel like everyone is out to get me


I guess he stuck the bitch with the pitchfork with the long prongs
But it's really me who's the monster, and I know it


Now everybody get your dance on
So I'm just going to keep doing what I'm doing, because I'm a sick, twisted person


To my damn song
And I don't care who I hurt along the way




Lyrics © O/B/O APRA AMCOS
Written by: Marshall B. III Mathers

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@ondrejkupec1400

I'm gettin' goose bumbs as soon as the verse starts.. using the accent helps him to bend the words, the flow's brutal, the beat is sick, the cadence...oh gee, it's perfect to hear these relapse unreleased tracks !

@shelbymick1616

Omg SAME HERE HE IS UNBELIEVABLE

@donashskell6763

You know this is old af

@cosminczifra120

this was the promo for relapse

@brunokappesmalmann1127

not unreleased, just a promo.

@HollyMcCormackBeresh-ht7ex

Reminds me bin fires doing what we do ❤❤❤😊

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@Travistabickle

The fact this was released after 5 years waiting for him and having rumors about him dying and having a bad time makes it SOOO special. Relapse was a good “comeback” era we will never forget. Love you ‘Em so much!

@xito9094

agreed😃😃😃

@Dave1991.

The man is a lyrical genius! In his opinoin, relapse was his worst album. I personally think there are some unbelievable tracks on relapse album. Never heard this until the other day and i think it's brilliant (as someone who struggles daily with addiction) i really admire how far he's come since the days he was abusing valium and whatever else he was taking. Much love ✌️

@addy7445

It's always cool to hear unheard Shady songs😇

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