Shadows Of My Name
Emma Ruth Rundle Lyrics


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I've come here wasted and with selfish, saddened things
So that they'd de arrange the shadows of my name
unfazed that I'm unfazed
unveiled that I unveiled

what you've gone and done
what you've gone and done
what I've gone and done

I lay back in salt
Please forgive my name
I wont speak at all
Just to sing again

what you've gone and done
what you've gone and done
what I've gone and done

I lay back in salt
Please forgive my name
I won't speak at all
Just to sing again

I lay back in salt
Please forgive my name




I won't speak at all
Just to sing again

Overall Meaning

In this song, Emma Ruth Rundle conveys the emotions of being lost and struggling, and seeking redemption. The opening lines, "I've come here wasted and with selfish, saddened things / So that they'd de-arrange the shadows of my name," speak to her desire to shed her past and start anew. She feels that her name has taken on a negative connotation, and so she hopes that by deconstructing it, she can rebuild it in a more positive light.


The repetition of the lines "what you've gone and done / what I've gone and done" suggest that there is a sense of shared responsibility for the current state of things, though it is not clear who the other party might be. The refrain, "I lay back in salt / Please forgive my name / I won't speak at all / Just to sing again" speaks to this desire to rebuild, but also suggests a sense of resignation and a willingness to bear the weight of her aforementioned mistakes.


Overall, the song seems to be about the struggle to move on and find hope in the midst of pain and regret.


Line by Line Meaning

I've come here wasted and with selfish, saddened things
I arrived at this place while under the influence and carrying my own personal demons and troubles.


So that they'd de arrange the shadows of my name
Hoping that this experience will help erase or alter the negative perceptions people have about me.


unfazed that I'm unfazed
I am not bothered or affected by the fact that people are not interested in or don't understand me.


unveiled that I unveiled
I have exposed my true self and revealed my identity, regardless of what others may think.


what you've gone and done
The actions of others have affected me in some way, even if it's not clear exactly how or why.


I lay back in salt
I am taking a break and immersing myself in a calming or healing environment to ease my emotional pain.


Please forgive my name
I am asking for others to overlook my mistakes or negative reputation and judge me based on who I am now.


I won't speak at all
I am choosing not to communicate verbally, perhaps because of fear or insecurity, but I still want to express myself in other ways.


Just to sing again
Music is my preferred method of self-expression and I want to sing or create music as a way of sharing my feelings and thoughts with others.




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I've come here wasted and with selfish, saddened things
So that they'd de arrange the shadows of my name
Unfazed that I'm unfazed
Unveiled that I unveiled

What you've gone and done
What you've gone and done
What I've gone and done

I lay back in salt
Please forgive my name
I wont speak at all
Just to sing again

What you've gone and done
What you've gone and done
What I've gone and done

I lay back in salt
Please forgive my name
I won't speak at all
Just to sing again

I lay back in salt
Please forgive my name
I won't speak at all
Just to sing again



All comments from YouTube:

Emme Cee

I keep coming back to this version. It is so haunting and beautifully dark.

Max Lavoie

Same here! Incredible!!!

Jane Connelly

This embodies a shame I relate to. Her haunting portrayal of her spirit suffering through this human experience is so gorgeous. Thank you for transmuting this pain into such a raw and beautiful reality. <3

Mr. Echo

The studio version is so lovely n polished...and this one is so raw and vulnerable. it blows the studio version out of the water. for a moment, i forgot i was not in the same room as Emma.

Dance_with_me

This voice.... I can't get enough of it.

Tony Wyman

It is haunting, isn't it? I hear her singing in my head all the time.

Disgraceland UK

Emma is on a whole other level. She and Chelsea Wolfe need to do something together...

Maybe throw some PJ in there too. 

Jared Laser

@TheHaxanCloak this aged nicely

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Geoffroy GV

Your wishes have been fulfilled :)

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