To My Lover
Erin Kaith Lyrics

6'4 with those brown eyes
You are a tall man with beautiful brown eyes, a physical attribute that catches my attention.

And those sweet words of yours
Your words are kind, gentle, and full of love, words that are bittersweet because I cannot forget them but must let you go.

I can't get you outta my mind
Your presence, your voice, your image, and your memory linger in my thoughts and actions all the time.

So I had to let you go
Despite my love and longing for you, I decided to end our relationship to protect my emotional health and avoid inflicting my pain on you.

I'm way too hurt
I'm deeply wounded by my past experiences and emotional baggage, which make it hard for me to trust or invest in a new relationship.

And I can't give you the burden
I cannot impose my emotional burden and scars on you, even if I love you, because it might hurt you or push you away.

Do you really wanna wait
Are you willing to put your love and patience on hold while I heal and grow as a person, which could take a long time?

On a girl that's way too broken
Am I worth your effort and trust, given that I feel broken, insecure, and flawed inside, which could affect us both negatively?

See I was gonna let you go
Initially, I decided to end our relationship and move on, hoping to find peace and closure, but it was not easy.

Til your ass showed up on my front door
Until you unexpectedly appeared at my house, maybe to reconcile or apologize, making me feel conflicted and confused about my feelings and desires.

I never really saw myself
I never imagined that I could fall in love again after my past heartbreaks and struggles with intimacy and vulnerability.

Trying all over again
Giving ourselves another chance to start fresh and build a deeper and healthier relationship, based on trust, communication, and mutual respect.

And even til this day
Even after spending time with you, getting to know you better, and sharing moments of joy and intimacy, I'm still wary and anxious about the future.

I'm scared of what'll happen
I'm afraid that I might lose you, hurt you, disappoint you, or relapse into my old patterns of self-doubt and avoidance, sabotaging our love and bond.

But you're telling me that you're still here
You reassure me that you're committed to me, despite my flaws and fears, that you're patient and kind, and that you love me for who I am.

Even with my fear
You acknowledge my fear of intimacy and uncertainty, which prevents me from trusting you fully, but you don't judge me or push me too hard.

You'll hold me near
You comfort me physically and emotionally, holding me close and reminding me that we're in this together, and that you're not going anywhere.

Maybe I should give it a try
I'm considering taking a leap of faith, trusting my heart and my intuition, and giving our relationship another chance, hoping for the best.

But I really don't wanna hurt you
I'm aware that my decision to stay with you might involve risks and compromises, and that I might still struggle with my inner demons, but I don't want to cause you pain or disappointment.