That same year he teamed up with Detroit natives TnT and Mastamind and formed the group Natas, whose controversial debut Life After Death has been blamed for the suicide of a Tennessee youth. After another EP released in 1992 entitled Hellter Skkkelter dropped, Esham's most recognized and most controversial album 1993's KKKill the Fetus hit stores. The cover of this album depicted an unborn fetus and the title track was a song explaining why unfit, drug addicted mothers should chose abortion over birth. Esham followed up with Natas' Blaz4me and another solo Closed Casket. This was all a prelude to another controversial release, Doubelievengod. Tracks such as "Pop Pop", "Sunday School", and "Heaven" set an unprecedented mark for evilness in rap music. Esham later released his final album on RLP, Dead Flowerz. This was a transitional period into Esham's new Gothom label. Bruce Wayne/Gothom City introduced the world to the new age Esham. After this release the head nodding, trunk rattling Multikillionaire was released.
After a 2-year break, E hit the scene with the colorful Mail Dominance CD. This CD had everything from slow jams, retrospectives on lost ones, wickedness, to 50's samples. The next release is what many feel was the critically acclaimed WWW.com. In 2001, Esham released what would become his smoothest album, Tongues. Followed by Natas 6th release Godlike. Esham resume of albums includes 10 full albums, 4 EPs, 3 greatest hits compilations, and 6 releases with Natas. Not to mention working with and producing for Bone Thugs-N-Harmony, Ghetto E, Kool Keith, Insane Clown Posse, and the Dayton Family. From 1989 to 2005, Esham has given fans his heavy doses of Reel Life, Heavy Mental music. Esham truly revolutionized Detroit's rap sound and is a local legend.
Eminem has listed Esham as an influence, as he mentions on his debut album, The Slim Shady LP. Esham's next album, A1 Yola, was released April 19th, 2005 by Psychopathic Records. Included with the album was also a DVD with videos to every song, making Esham the first artist to make a music video for every song on an album. Towards the end of 2005 Esham could no longer be a part of Psychopathic Records. His last concert under the label was at the 5th Annual Gathering of the Juggalos. He contributed to the Soopa Villainz project and later left. The split was on bad terms according to acidrap.com. The reason, also according to acidrap.com, was that Psychopathic Records did not allow him to use the name The Unholy,The Black Devil or the group NATAS. Athough bitterness was expressed by both parties directly after the split, Esham and Psychopathic have since publicly apoligized to one another, and stated that any past grievances are water under the bridge.
On June 6, 2006 (6/6/06) Esham released the Judgement Day box set, Rap's first $100 box set, available only through the Natas website. This set includes Judgement Day Vol.1 and 2, the previously unreleased Judgement Day Vol.3 and 4, a new 6 track Esham EP, and a DVD featuring concert footage from '04. Only 1,000 have been produced.
Reload
Esham Lyrics
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Killer instinct mode so I always stay calico
In the battlezone I hold the phatter chrome
I'm tellin' every MC in the galaxy
That it's on, but I gots love for all the ones who's got love
Packed back, we got slugs,I got slugs for thugs back
For the dope deal
And a motherfuckin' a piece a crack
Fuck all of that
Nigga matter fact ball is whack
If you don't know what to do to stack and takes your cash
If you don't know the game cause you's a biatch
Reload, reload, reload, reload
Reloadin' ain't no thang, it's all gon' spin
I'm time in the wind, I don't make friends
Motherfucker what you thought? Red rum is my talk
Wicket shit is what I spit, patin to acid
The fallen angel means I strangle and bang ya
Take ya hat off
Esham's out cold like Adolf
Hitler, slit ya, boy I'm out ta get cha
Ya never shoulda fucked with me
Eternally, imperpituity
I'm out to end your exsistence
I last forever
I will endure whatever, where ever
And reload
I'm perpitatin' while you perptratin' I go on forever
Misload more pebbles you can speak 5 words for thee
Farrel forevermore, forever and a day
Forever and ever in all ages
The nebula is segular
On a cellular, on a regular
Last syllabyl of recorded time
Till death till doomsday Esham
I'm death, Mr. Fortuneteller watch me television peete my capella
Get fucked and get your groove back like Stella
And you ain't even gotta go to Jamaica
In Esham's song "Reload," he starts off by boasting about his skills and the fact that he can decode anyone's lines. He is ready for any battle as his killer instinct mode is on and he always carries a calico gun. "Phatter chrome" refers to his weapon and he challenges all MCs in the galaxy to come at him. Despite all of this, he still has love for those who love him and are loyal. He reveals that he has slugs for those who try to interfere in dope deals and he finds it pointless to twist diamonds if someone doesn't have a sense of time. He believes that if you don't know how to stack and make money, then you're just whack.
Later in the song, Esham continues to talk about his strength and prowess - he says that reloading is no issue for him and he will always keep going. He feels that his raps are wicked and powerful and he can easily strangle anyone with them. He is perpetuating and timeless, and will endure no matter what. Even if someone misleads him or tries to harm him, he will always come back stronger. He ends the song by referencing a popular movie "How Stella Got Her Groove Back" and encouraging people to watch him get his groove back without actually having to go to Jamaica.
Line by Line Meaning
Reload, explode, I'm a crack ya fuckin' code
I am going to overpower and conquer anything that comes my way
Killer instinct mode so I always stay calico
I am always in attack mode and am always prepared to defend myself with guns when needed
In the battlezone I hold the phatter chrome
When in conflict, I make sure to have the most powerful weapon
I'm tellin' every MC in the galaxy that it's on
I am challenging all rappers in the universe
but I gots love for all the ones who's got love
I respect and have love for the rappers who show me the same
Packed back, we got slugs,I got slugs for thugs back
I have weapons (slugs) to protect my gangster friends
For the dope deal
I am willing to kill for illegal drug transactions
And a motherfuckin' a piece a crack
I will go to any extent, even sell or use crack cocaine, to profit from illegal drugs
Fuck a ronin twissin diamonds if you don't know the time
I don't care about flashy material things if you are ignorant and unaware of the reality of life
Fuck all of that, Nigga matter fact ball is whack
I am unimpressed with people who live a luxurious lifestyle without knowledge and strategy to keep their wealth
If you don't know what to do to stack and takes your cash
If you don't know how to save and invest your money, you will soon lose it
If you don't know the game cause you's a biatch
If you don't know the rules of the game, you are weak and will easily lose
Reload, reload, reload, reload
I am re-equipping my weapons
Reloadin' ain't no thang, it's all gon' spin
Reloading my weapons is so routine to me, it's like second nature
I'm time in the wind, I don't make friends
I am like an abstract concept, an unstoppable force that cannot be befriended
Motherfucker what you thought? Red rum is my talk
I speak of the color red and murder because it's part of my persona
Wicket shit is what I spit, patin to acid
My lyrics are distorted and corrosive
The fallen angel means I strangle and bang ya
The angel that has fallen from heaven represents me, and I will strangle and harm you if you cross me
Take ya hat off, Esham's out cold like Adolf
Hats off in respect to me, as I am strong and powerful like Adolf Hitler
Hitler, slit ya, boy I'm out ta get cha
Like Hitler, I will destroy my enemies
Ya never shoulda fucked with me, Eternally, imperpituity I'm out to end your exsistence
You made a mistake by challenging me, and I will make sure you suffer indefinitely
I last forever, I will endure whatever, where ever
My legacy and power will never fade, no matter what happens
And reload
I am still re-equipping my weapons
I'm perpitatin' while you perptratin' I go on forever
I am constantly making moves while others are merely planning, and I will keep going on endlessly
Misload more pebbles you can speak 5 words for thee
Even if you try to throw rocks at me, your words will mean nothing in the face of my power
Farrel forevermore, forever and a day
My legacy will be remembered forever
Forever and ever in all ages
My power and influence will be felt in every era
The nebula is segular, on a cellular, on a regular
I am larger than life, as powerful and complex as a nebula - on the cellular level, and regular basis
Last syllabyl of recorded time, Till death till doomsday Esham
I will make a lasting impression on the history of music, until the end of the world
I'm death, Mr. Fortuneteller watch me television peete my capella
I am a powerful figure, even more so than death itself, and people should pay attention to my artistry
Get fucked and get your groove back like Stella
Have sex and enjoy yourself, like the character in the movie "How Stella Got Her Groove Back"
And you ain't even gotta go to Jamaica
You don't need to go far to experience pleasure and happiness, it can be found within yourself
Lyrics © Cloud9, Warner Chappell Music, Inc.
Written by: DANTIEZ DEANDRE SAUNDERSON, PAUL OLSSON, SEAN SMITH
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