The Last Song I'm Wasting on You
Evanescence Lyrics

Sparkling grey
The singer is feeling numb and empty, represented by the color grey.

There my own veins
The singer is so disconnected from their emotions that even their own veins seem foreign to them.

Any more than a whisper
The singer is so fragile that even the slightest disturbance can cause them to break.

Any sudden movement of my heart
The artist is so guarded that any expression of emotion feels like a threat.

And I know
The artist is aware of how fragile they are and what they need to do to protect themselves.

I know I'll have to watch them pass away
The singer is resigned to the fact that everything they care about will eventually be lost.

Just get through this day
The singer is focusing on surviving in the present moment, rather than worrying about the future.

Give up your way
The artist is giving up on the idea of being in control and accepting that things may not go their way.

You could be anything
The artist is acknowledging the potential for growth and change if they let go of their need for control.

Give up my way
The artist is acknowledging that their own need for control is holding them back.

And lose myself?
The singer is afraid of losing their identity if they give up control, but realizes that it may be necessary for growth.

Not today
The artist is not ready to let go of control yet.

That's too much guilt to pay
The singer is aware that holding onto their need for control comes with a cost - guilt and pain.

Sickened in the sun
The singer is feeling disoriented and overwhelmed by the light and warmth of the outside world.

You dare tell me you love me
The singer is frustrated that someone would claim to love them while simultaneously hurting them.

But you held me down and screamed you wanted me to die,
The artist is reflecting on past trauma, where someone they loved hurt them in a profound way.

Honey, you know
The artist is addressing their abuser, using sarcasm to express their true feelings of anger and betrayal.

You know, I'd never hurt you that way
The singer is emphasizing that they would never intentionally hurt someone the way they were hurt.

You're just so pretty in your pain
The singer is acknowledging that their abuser may enjoy causing pain, but is refusing to be a part of that dynamic any longer.

I'll make my own way
The artist is taking control of their life and refusing to let their abuser define their future.

Without your senseless hate
The artist is rejecting the negative emotions their abuser directed towards them and choosing to move forward with love.

Hate
The artist is reflecting on the destructive nature of hate and its role in their past trauma.

Hate
The singer is emphasizing the point that hate is not a part of their future.

Hate
The artist is rejecting the idea that hate has any place in their life in any form.

So run, run, run
The singer is suggesting that their abuser leave them alone and move on with their life.

And hate me if it feels good
The singer is acknowledging that their abuser may still hold negative feelings towards them and that they can't control that.

I can't hear your screams anymore
The singer is refusing to let their abuser's pain and negativity affect them any longer.

You lied to me
The artist is addressing the past lies and deceit of their abuser.

But I'm older now
The artist is reflecting on how much they have grown since the trauma occurred.

And I'm not buyin' baby
The singer is refusing to believe in the lies and deceit of their abuser any longer.

Demanding my response
The singer acknowledges that their abuser may be trying to provoke a response or reaction.

Don't bother breaking the door down
The artist is no longer afraid of their abuser and doesn't feel the need to protect themselves from them anymore.

I've found my way out
The artist has moved on from their past trauma and is no longer held back by it.

And you'll never hurt me again
The artist is making a bold declaration that their abuser no longer has power over them and that they are free from their past trauma.