After a solo tour in the fall of 2003, Alexakis decided to continue with Everclear, organizing a new band that made its debut in March of 2004. The new lineup consisted of bass player Sam Hudson, guitarist Dave French, and drummer Eric Bretl. In the summer of 2004, the band added keyboard player Josh Crawley, and swapped Bretl for former Everclear drum tech Brett Snyder. The new lineup released its first recording, a cover of Woody Guthrie's This Land Is Your Land, that summer. A self-released EP of performances recorded for XM Satellite Radio called Closure was given out at shows in the fall of 2004.
Free of a major label, Alexakis spent the ensuing year and half slowly recording material for a new Everclear release. He admitted that the time after the breakup of the original lineup served as a "wake up call", during which he suffered his third divorce and a filing for bankruptcy. Alexakis announced the completion of the album in early 2006,titled Welcome To The Drama Club. The new band is now on Eleven Seven Music.
In August of 2008, drummer Brett Snyder left the band after four years. He was then replaced by Tommy Stewart, who previously played in bands Fuel and Godsmack.
You
Everclear Lyrics
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All the trouble I've known
All the evil things that I'll say and do
All comes back to
Little boy, back when life was new to me
Hiding in my room, waiting for my mom to leave
I learned to lie, to save her from the truth
On a sunny afternoon
I fall back to the black and white of here and now
I need to come down, I think I need to come down
I'm on my old street, a past that is so hard for me
Looking for a place that I really do not ever want to see
All the scars on my body and soul
All the trouble I've known
All the evil things I'll say and do
It all brings me closer to you
The house is empty, as I walk inside
I don't want to be here, I want to stay in denial
I see my demons, smiling in the gloom
I have to face this thing or I will never leave this room
See me, playing with the older boys
In a house where my mama told me not to go
They started hurting me, laughing as they held me down
They put me in (?) awful sound
All the scars on my body and soul
All the trouble I have ever known
All the fucked up things I'll say and do
It all brings me closer to you
To you
I'm screaming in the mirror
Looking in the eyes of you
Yeah you
I give my joy and my shame
All the (?) and the pain
To you
Now I am addicted to pain
Yeah I am addicted to everything
Now I know what I have to do
I have to kill the monsters from you
For you
I will forgive those damaged boys
They did this all for (?) to you
I have to fix this broken heart
I need to be just like a father to you
To you
I have to fix this broken heart
Or I'll be a sickness with you
For you
I'll will always be your champion
I will always tear the monsters from you
For you
I give my joy and my shame
All the?? and the pain
To you
Twisted, broken, and free
I am twisted broken, angry and free
Twisted, broken, angry and free
The lyrics to Everclear's song You are deeply personal, and tell the story of the singer's past traumas and struggles. The recurring refrain, "All the scars on my body and soul / All the trouble I've known / All the evil things I'll say and do / It all brings me closer to you," suggests that these experiences have somehow brought the singer closer to someone, or perhaps to a higher power.
The first verse reveals that the singer was raped at the age of eight, a traumatic experience which has clearly had a profound impact on their life. The lyrics go on to describe the singer's attempts to cope with these memories, from lying to their mother to playing with older boys in a dangerous setting. The second verse finds the singer returning to the scene of the abuse, facing their demons and hoping to finally move on.
The final verse hints at a sort of redemption, as the singer promises to "fix this broken heart" and "tear the monsters" from someone they care about deeply. Although the song deals with heavier subject matter than some of Everclear's earlier hits, it is a powerful and moving piece that showcases their ability to tackle complex emotions with honesty and skill.
Line by Line Meaning
All the scars on my body and soul
The physical and emotional scars that I carry with me from my past experiences
All the trouble I've known
The difficulties I've encountered throughout my life
All the evil things that I'll say and do
The negative actions and words that I may project out to others
All comes back to
All of these factors are rooted in a particular event that has had a lasting impact on me
Little boy, back when life was new to me
A younger version of myself, still innocent and naive, unaware of the challenges that lay ahead
Hiding in my room, waiting for my mom to leave
Taking refuge in my safe place, waiting until the coast is clear
I learned to lie, to save her from the truth
I adopted the practice of dishonesty as a means of protecting my mother from the harsh realities of my situation
I was raped when I was eight years old
The traumatic event that has forever altered my sense of self and view of the world
On a sunny afternoon
The disturbing contrast between the outward appearance of the day and the traumatic event that occurred during that time
I fall back to the black and white of here and now
Returning to the present moment, where things are clear and distinct
I need to come down, I think I need to come down
Feeling overwhelmed and needing to settle my emotions
I'm on my old street, a past that is so hard for me
Returning to the location of a traumatic event, where difficult memories resurface
Looking for a place that I really do not ever want to see
Searching for something that I don't truly want to find
The house is empty, as I walk inside
Returning to a location that has since been abandoned or left vacant
I don't want to be here, I want to stay in denial
Feeling uncomfortable and disoriented, wishing that things could still be different
I see my demons, smiling in the gloom
Being confronted by internal conflicts that continue to haunt me
I have to face this thing or I will never leave this room
Making the difficult decision to confront my fears and begin to work through my trauma
See me, playing with the older boys
Reflecting on an earlier time in life, when I was still a child and vulnerable to manipulation and abuse
In a house where my mama told me not to go
Going against my mother's warnings and finding myself in a dangerous situation
They started hurting me, laughing as they held me down
Being physically overpowered and sexually assaulted during a traumatic event
They put me in (?) awful sound
The lingering effects of the traumatic event that continue to have an impact on me
To you
Directly addressing the person who is the focus of the song's narrative
I'm screaming in the mirror
Engaging in a cathartic release by shouting out loud or channeling emotions through one's reflection
Looking in the eyes of you
Gazing directly or metaphorically into the subject's eyes as a means of holding them accountable or connecting with them on a deeper level
I give my joy and my shame
Offering up both the positive and negative aspects of my being
All the (?) and the pain
Everything that I have experienced and will continue to experience
Now I am addicted to pain
The residual psychological effects of the traumatic event, manifesting in self-destructive behaviors or patterns of thought
Yeah I am addicted to everything
Being consumed by negative emotions or destructive patterns of behavior
Now I know what I have to do
Having a clear sense of purpose or direction, despite the challenges ahead
I have to kill the monsters from you
Confronting people or aspects of oneself that have perpetuated the cycle of trauma
I will forgive those damaged boys
Extending compassion or understanding to those who have caused pain or harm
They did this all for (?) to you
Reflecting on the motivations or driving factors behind the actions of those who have caused harm
I have to fix this broken heart
Putting in the emotional work necessary to address past unresolved hurt and trauma
I need to be just like a father to you
Providing support, protection, and stability to help mitigate the damaging effects of past trauma
Or I'll be a sickness with you
Acknowledging that the lasting impacts of trauma have the potential to negatively impact oneself as well as others
I'll will always be your champion
Committing to being a source of strength and support for the other person
I am twisted broken, angry and free
The current state of being, reflecting a mix of emotions and internal conflicts
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