The Hell Back Home
Every Avenue Lyrics

It all was a dream
The events that led to the present moment feel like they were just a dream.

And it was worth the memories
Although it might have been difficult, everything that happened was worth remembering.

If i make it out alive
If I am able to overcome this struggle and survive.

Then know that this got the best of me
If I don't make it, know that the situation I'm in right now was too much for me to handle.

My nuckles are white
I'm gripping so tightly that my knuckles have turned white from the pressure.

But i can't get a grip
Despite my best efforts, I can't seem to get a handle on the situation.

If it's the last song i write
This might be the last chance I have to express myself through music.

I'll make the words fit
I'll do my best to make the lyrics of this song express everything I'm feeling.

From the roof of this house
Looking down on everything from a higher vantage point.

I watch the sun go down
Witnessing the sun setting, marking the end of a day.

On the time that i cursed
Reflecting on the times when I cursed everything that was happening.

Since i turned sixteen
From the time when I was sixteen years old.

A set of keys i was california dreaming
I had a set of keys and was dreaming of driving to California.

Drive just drive
Without a clear destination, just drive aimlessly.

I've been saying that ill change my ways
I have been telling myself that I will make positive changes in my life.

But someday seems to be
I never seem to actually start making those changes.

My favorite word lately
I keep using the word 'someday' as an excuse to delay taking action.

He lent out his hand,
Someone offered to help me.

But i pushed it away
I refused the help that was offered to me.

Now i damned myself from the words
I regret not accepting the help, and now feel trapped by my own words and actions.

I didn't say
I wish I had expressed my feelings and thoughts more clearly in the past.

And all the things i said i wouldn't do i've done
I have done all the things that I promised myself I wouldn't do.

Things get hard all i think to do is run
When things get tough, my first instinct is to run away.

But all i want is something i call my own
Despite everything, all I really want is to have something that is entirely mine.

I let my heart woah
I allowed my emotions to take over and make all my decisions for me.

Get the best of me this time
This time, my emotions completely overwhelmed me.

I lost myself
I no longer recognize who I am or what I stand for.

And all that mattered most to me
I have lost everything that was important to me.

One thing doesnt make a man
Having only one thing in life does not define who I am as a person.

I cant believe all the things ive seen
I can't comprehend everything that has happened in my life.

I was moving so fast i forgot to take it all in
I was so focused on moving forward that I didn't take the time to appreciate what was happening around me.

As i sat down in tears afraid and alone
When I finally slowed down, I realized how scared and lonely I truly was.

Makes you think of the times
This moment causes one to retrospect and think about the past.

That mattered the most
Reflecting on the moments in life that were the most important.

And now its five years later
Looking back on the events that happened five years ago.

And I'm still all alone
Despite everything that has happened, I am still by myself.

My closest thing to a friend
The one person who was closest to me like a friend.

Put a dime in a pay phone
Used a pay phone to call someone.

And now I'm feeling all the pain that i could
Now I am experiencing all the pain and suffering that I possibly can.

Behind this broken down piano
Sitting behind a piano that is in a state of disrepair.

At the back of this bar
In a dark, dingy corner of a bar establishment.

So this is california
This is what California is really like.

The sun still sets the exact same way as back home
Despite being in a new place, some things are still the same.

On the roof top the sun still sets the same
Even though my physical location has changed, the sun still sets in the same way it did back home.

The lies i told the hearts i broke
All the lies I've told and the hearts I've broken in the past.

The things i had i never told
All the things in my life that I never shared with anyone.

The tip of my tongue my finger tips penciled every word i missed
Recalling all the words that were never said, but desperately needed to be expressed.

And i for got to mention i when i move back home
I failed to say the one thing that was most important to me when I left to move away from home.

And now I'm going back to the only thing i've ever known
Returning to the one place that has always been familiar to me.

One thing doesn't make a man
One thing in life, no matter how important, does not define a person's entire identity.