hide and seek
Exaile Lyrics

嫌われる事が怖くて 僕は僕は僕を隠した
I was afraid of being hated, so I hid myself.

誰かの陰口が痛くて 僕は耳を耳を塞いだ
I covered my ears because the gossip of others hurt.

本当の僕は汚くって きっとみんな僕を嫌うから
The real me is ugly, so I'm sure everyone hates me.

本当の僕は隠しちゃって 綺麗なとこだけ見せてたんだ
I hid the real me and only showed the pretty parts.

ある日誰の言葉も全部 嘘に聞こえて悲しくなった
One day, every word I heard sounded like a lie and it made me sad.

そうだ僕の事を嫌うのは 誰かじゃなくて 見せたくない方の僕だ
It's not someone who hates me, it's the side of me that doesn't want to be shown that hates me.

今君に もういいかい ねえまだだよ 本当の僕が恋しくなって
Do you understand now? No, not yet. I'm starting to yearn for the real me.

もう一回 呼びかけてみるけどまだ 見つからないよ
I'll call out once more, but I still can't find it.

ほら もういいかい ねえまだだよ その内声も届かなくなって
There, do you understand? No, not yet. Soon, my voice won't even be heard.

もう一体 僕は僕が誰なのか 分からないんだ
I don't even know who I am anymore.

鬼さんこちら手の鳴る方へ 君は此処にいちゃいけないから
Mr. Oni, come this way! You can't be here, you know.

そんな事告げる僕の方が よっぽど君より鬼みたいだ
I who am telling you that sound more like an Oni than you do.

遠く暗い世界に落ちた 君が最後に一言言った
You, who fell into a distant, dark world, said one last thing.

君が僕を捨てて手に入れる 誰かの愛は 見せかけだけの愛だ
The love you get by throwing me away is just a facade of love.

今君に もういいかい ねえまだだよ 僕は誰かに愛されたくって
Do you understand now? No, not yet. I want to be loved by somebody.

もう何回 嘘に嘘を重ねれば 救われるかな
How many more lies do I have to pile up to be saved?

ほら もういいかい ねえまだだよ その内僕が僕じゃなくなって
There, do you understand? No, not yet. Soon, I won't even be myself anymore.

もう一体 何がしたいのかさえも 分からないんだ
I don't even know what I want anymore.

明日君に打ち明けるんだ 僕は卑怯で臆病だって
Tomorrow, I'll tell you. I'm cowardly and afraid.

誰かに嫌われる事よりも 何十倍も辛い事に気付いたよ
I realized that being in pain is much worse than being hated by someone.

今僕に もういいかい ねえまだだよ 本当の君はどこにいますか
Do you understand me now? No, not yet. Where is the real you?

もう何回 君の事を信じれば 断ち切れるかな
How many times do I have to believe in you before I can move on?

今君に もういいかい ねえもうちょっと 僕の世界が君に近付いて
Do you finally understand? Almost there. My world is getting closer to yours.

もう一回 呼びかけてみたら 君の声が聞こえた
When I called out one more time, I heard your voice.

ほら もういいかい ねえもういいよ その内空も少し色付いて
There, do you understand? It's okay now. Soon, the sky will be a little more colorful.

もう一歩 足を踏み出したら ほらね やっと君を見つけた
When I took one more step forward, finally, I found you.

愛される事を望んで 僕は僕は僕を隠した
Hoping to be loved, I hid myself.

痛んだ傷口を塞いで 僕は君を君を愛した
By closing up the wounded wound, I loved you.