Waiting for
F.B.O.D. Lyrics

You just stepped out my car for the last time
We have just parted ways after a long time together.

I didn’t know it then and I’m not sure that it would matter
At the time I wasn't aware this would be the last time we would see each other and I'm uncertain if knowing would've changed anything.

I'm just being honest, always guilty of that crime
I have a tendency to be truthful even when it's uncomfortable.

Cause you always want advice but couldn’t hear above the chatter
You frequently ask for my opinion, but it's difficult for you to hear me over the noise in your life.

And look, I wanna tell it like it was
I want to be truthful about our relationship.

Cause every time we kissed you was just chasin a buzz
When we were intimate, your intention was to find a temporary escape from reality.

And you were lookin in my eyes but I was lookin above
You were focused on the moment, but I was thinking about the future.

Yeah you had butterflies in your gut think I swallowed a dove
You were nervous around me, while I was overwhelmed with emotions.

See we wanted to be together way more than most
Both of us desired a deeper connection than what is commonly found.

But the times that were together felt like holdin a ghost
When we were together, it felt as if something intangible was separating us.

And if I’m being honest we fucked way more than we spoke
Our physical intimacy was stronger than our emotional intimacy.

So you’ll find I have some trouble stepping away from that trope
I have a difficult time moving on from this pattern of behavior.

Which is why a week later I’ll find you back in my bed
Our physical attraction continues to bring us back together.

And then a week after that you’re still giving me head
Our physical intimacy is still a large part of our relationship.

And my mom starts to wonder if I should get back with my ex
Even my mother is questioning whether it's time to try to reconcile with my previous partner.

And normally my mom is right but I think I’d rather be dead
Usually, I trust my mother's advice, but in this instance, I have made up my mind.

You see I think I mostly just needed someone to talk to
Above all, I needed a confidant who I could talk to about my experiences.

And sure occasionally I’d like someone to fuck too
At times, I also desired physical intimacy.

But you were the first one of us to say that I love you
You were the first person in our relationship to express love.

So that’s why I’m having trouble figuring out that that’s not true
However, I'm struggling to accept that this love wasn't real.

Oh I know Somethings must come and go But I was hoping I might find something sure to hold And I know That It’s time for you to go So I’ll just be the boy in Houston waiting for the snow
I understand that relationships can be temporary, but I was hoping to find stability with you. It's time for you to move on, and now I'll wait for something new to come into my life.

Look I know that you heard me Just leaving me on read like you want to desert me
I understand that you received my message but decided not to respond, as if you're trying to leave me behind.

But this wasn’t one sided I don’t care what they said
Our relationship wasn't one-sided, despite what others might say.

That’s why I’m in someone else’s bed even though things were working
Despite the fact that our relationship was somewhat successful, I'm now being intimate with someone else.

In a change of a frame things were flipped on their head
Things have taken an abrupt change of direction.

And like a moth to a flame this was soon to be dead
Our relationship was destined to end, like a moth drawn to a flame.

And the moth sure enough did everything right
Despite following the correct path, our relationship still failed.

It just had no way of knowing that it chased the wrong light
Our relationship was destined to fail no matter how hard we tried, as if chasing the wrong light.

You couldn’t wait to see what 2018 had up her sleeve
You were excited to see what the new year had in store for us.

And less then a month later turns out you would leave
Unfortunately, you left less than a month into the new year.

But it’s fine and I mean it
I'm at peace with the end of our relationship.

Cause ultimately these things would be the things to inspire me
The ups and downs of our relationship will inspire my future self.

And growing up in the south I’m prepared for the heat
I was raised in the southern United States, where the summers are hot and humid.

Yet we complain every summer a cycle doomed to repeat
Despite being accustomed to the summer heat, we still complain about it every year.

Then the wind caught your door as you got up from the seat
As you were leaving, the wind caught your car door.

And we took it as a sign a final sigh of relief
We took this occurrence as a symbol that our relationship has come to an end.