Rant Rushmore
Fantastic Negrito Lyrics

Most of my fear, is sittin' right here withcu for the rest of my life
I am afraid that my past traumas will define my entire life.

All this pain came from the games that your mama
Your mother caused me pain.

And your daddy played and abuse
And your father also played a role in causing that pain, abusing me.

So you try to get away try to break free from the twenty first century
I'm trying to escape the modern world's problems.

Slave ship drama mmmm
Like the slaves on a ship, I am trying to escape my past.

And therefore dreams it seems tied to a bitter scene
But my dreams are still connected to those traumatic memories.

I'm eating gold macaronI for dinner
I may have some luxuries now, but it doesn't erase my past.

I'm a lifelong sinner
I have done things I'm not proud of, and will carry that guilt with me forever.

Amen, Amen
I'm calling out to a higher power, asking for help and forgiveness.

I could be that change coming
I want to be a catalyst for positive change.

Still feel that change coming
I am confident that change is on the horizon.

Yeah she my cancer now that we're really dancing
This relationship is toxic, even though it seems fun and exciting.

Yeah she my cancer then I know we taking chances
I am aware that this relationship could be dangerous.

Most of my guilt all of my tears flow like a river
I carry immense guilt and shame, and it often brings me to tears.

'Cause I failed and I couldn't deliver
I have let people down in the past.

I said fuck the whole world I'm a little girl
I may seem tough, but really I am still vulnerable.

I'm a little girl I'm a big black dog I'm a killer
I am a complex mixture of emotions and experiences.

All over the place
I feel lost and confused.

I'm trying to rehabilitate
I am working on healing and bettering myself.

From the self hate from the self rape
I am trying to overcome my own self-destructive tendencies.

I begin for you mother (oh life)
I am trying to live my life for myself, not just to please others.

Got down on my knees pray it out without shame
I am not ashamed to express my vulnerability and ask for help through prayer.

For all the things I did wrong (oh!)
I am asking for forgiveness for the mistakes I have made.

Oh oh Amen
I am continuing to call out for help and guidance.

Yeah she my cancer then I know we're really dancing
Despite the risks, I am still dancing with danger.

Yeah she my cancer then I know we taking chances
I am aware of the risks, but still want to take a chance on this relationship.