Recondite
Farmakon Lyrics


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I can't seem to penetrate the shadow
That's hanging over my past
In vain I search for the truth of what I was

Like surfaced from a dream
Guided back from my cage of seclusion
Nevertheless, I'm not going to turn away now
After the years blindness

I remember
But I can't recognize the feelings
Was that really me?
Was that really my voice?

I host memories that only speak when I sleep
I chase the times and the places
And sometimes I find
Yet never all there is

Imprisonment came from beyond my vision
But somewhere it still breaths
Even if it would never be revived again
It will not leave me alone

I at the same time struggle to retain and to forget

But even if I remembered
I would only keep it inside me




For sometimes it is hard to see
Any light at all

Overall Meaning

Farmakon's song Recondite is a haunting description of a deep emotional struggle with the past. The lyrics convey a sense of not being able to fully comprehend or penetrate the shadow that hangs over the singer's past. Despite their search for truth and understanding, memories and feelings are difficult to recognize or attribute to their former self. The sense of imprisonment and struggle to retain and forget loom large and shadowy over the lyrics, giving a sense of pain and discomfort that cannot be shaken off.


As the singer delves deeper into the lyrics, the past emerges like a dream, a vision of a time forgotten. The haunting images and sounds of memories only speak to the singer when they are asleep, further adding to the sense of unreality and confusion. They are lost, and yet sometimes they find hints of the truth. The past imprisons them beyond their current experience, and they struggle to come to terms with it, even as they confront the possibility of letting go.


Ultimately, Recondite portrays the difficulty of reconciling the past with the present, and the struggle to find peace amid the chaos of memory and emotion.


Line by Line Meaning

I can't seem to penetrate the shadow
I am unable to overcome the darkness of my past


That's hanging over my past
The shadow is a constant reminder of my past


In vain I search for the truth of what I was
Despite my efforts, I am unable to find answers about my past


Like surfaced from a dream
Memories from my past feel surreal, as though they were from a dream


Guided back from my cage of seclusion
I am trying to come out of isolation and engage with the world


Nevertheless, I'm not going to turn away now
I won't give up even though it's challenging


After the years blindness
After being lost for years


I remember
I have memories of my past


But I can't recognize the feelings
I am not sure what emotions these memories evoke


Was that really me?
I am unsure if those memories are truly mine


Was that really my voice?
I am unsure if the words I remember speaking were actually said by me


I host memories that only speak when I sleep
My memories are dormant unless I dream about them


I chase the times and the places
I am trying to find details about my past


And sometimes I find
Sometimes I am able to recall specific details


Yet never all there is
But I always feel like I'm missing something important


Imprisonment came from beyond my vision
The cause of my trauma is beyond my comprehension


But somewhere it still breaths
My trauma still exists, even if I don't fully understand it


Even if it would never be revived again
Even if it's impossible to go back to my past


It will not leave me alone
My trauma continues to haunt me


I at the same time struggle to retain and to forget
I'm struggling to come to terms with my past and also trying to forget it


But even if I remembered
But if my memories ever return


I would only keep it inside me
I would keep it to myself and not discuss it


For sometimes it is hard to see
Sometimes the trauma is too overwhelming to confront


Any light at all
I struggle to find any hope in my past or present




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Comments from YouTube:

Iskander Ranstead

I love these guys. Everything fits together, which is difficult to pull off when incorporating such diverse influences and styles.

Kain Lust

strange...different... but interesting and amazing good upload!

Steven Perret

Hahaha! I am in a band and we are called Recondite since 2005, I think our next song will be called Farmakon hahaha! they seem to have the same crazy "I don't give a fuck what genre is in the song" mentality we have now. Thank you for the post of this song, I would have never found them without your help.

Thagirion Lethe

@reconditeband great! I'd like to hear some stuff from your band! I'm also on the music business hehe (I'm in two bands) and I like to take influences from everywhere, from the plain 60's rock to the actual brutal death metal and stuff like that; anyways, give me your band's myspace and I'll add you on the myspace of my bands so we share some cool stuff! take care and see you on the road! saludos desde México \m/

Ghost Rider 666

🇫🇮 FinlanDay Beautiful 🇫🇮 🤘 Thank You 🤘

thedrumandbassace

@reconditeband here the lead singer's side project called spitleak

flpndrds

The ending sucked.

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