House Of Pain
Faster Pussycat Lyrics

A little past supper-time
It's getting late in the evening.

I'm still out on the porch step sitting on my behind,
I'm sitting on the porch waiting for you to come home.

Waiting for you.
I'm expecting you to come home soon.

Wondering if everything is alright.
I'm concerned that something might be wrong.

Momma said, "Come in boy, don't waste your time." I said, "I've got time.
My mother told me to come inside, but I refused because I'm waiting for someone.

Well, he'll be here soon."
I'm hoping that the person I'm waiting for will arrive shortly.

Five years old and talking to myself.
I was a young child left alone and had to rely on myself for comfort.

Where were you? Where'd you go?
I'm wondering where my father was when I needed him.

Daddy, can't you tell?
I'm asking my father to explain his absence to me.

I'm not trying to fake it
I'm not pretending that everything is okay.

And I ain't the one to blame.
I'm not responsible for being abandoned or neglected.

There's no one home In my house of pain.
I feel lonely and hurt inside myself.

I didn't write these pages And my script's been rearranged.
I didn't choose to have a life without a father, and my life was impacted by that absence.

No, there's no one home In my house of pain
I still feel alone even though I've grown up.

Wasn't I worth the time?
I'm asking if my father didn't care enough to be there for me.

A boy needs a daddy like a dance to mime and all the time I looked up to you.
I needed a positive male role model in my life, and I had hoped my father would be that for me.

I paced my room a million times.
I was anxious and frustrated waiting for something that never came.

And all I ever got was one big lie, the same old lie.
I never got the truth or any real explanation for my father's absence.

How could you?
I can't understand how my father could abandon me.

Well, I was eighteen and still talking to myself.
I was older but still struggling with the hurt of my father's neglect.

Where were you? Where'd you go?
I'm still wondering where my father went and why he never came back.

Daddy can't you tell?
I still don't have any answers or explanations from my father.

And I'm alone again
I'm still struggling with being neglected and feeling isolated.

Well, if I learned anything from this... It's how to live on my own.
I had to learn how to depend on myself and survive without my father's support.