If I Had A Choice
Fiend Lyrics


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(Chorus-Fiend)
If I had a choice, I would choose to live as long as you
Roll with ??? you, that's my word
If I had a choice, I would choose to live as long as you
Roll with ??? you, that's my word

(Fiend)
I yet have'nt learned enough words to explain
Can't figure what it is star, please listen to my heart
I ain't never been dedicated to nothin other than blunt snuffin
Your women cuttin and pistol bustin, we all grow
Ask my cousin whether his stubborn ass responded
He doesn't, it ain't a lie, we all came from nothin
But that ain't a reason to love Fiend no lesser
And this ain't for the pity, whatever
For the ones that lick it together
Look, I really ain't gon' be here, drinkin and smokin
Maybe not see clear
But dog I sobered up
Still survive a Fiend, gone, soldier what
Ain't nothin changed ask Tre, still feel with those ???
Numb, can't feel whether it's cold or what
Kept a not-not, but what a time, look, it rolled me up
Don't wanna hold ya up, keep ya knees so covered
And I'm a tell her everyday her uncle love her

(Chorus)

(David Banner)
Lord I'm sorry I didn't pray last night, I was tired
Runnin through the porch tryna' get on the Red Eye
Lately I ain't prayed for a minute, man I'm fallin
These demons they got cell phones and lately they been callin
And lately I been listenin
Lord, does it really matter if I'm Muslim or Christian
Juan's case he didn't win, is he out, or in
Sometimes I wish he wasn't born in this world of sin
Bless his soul, but now my soul is on wait
Lord I'm askin, now I'm beggin, please don't close the gate
Lord I'm comin, I'm tired but my soul keeps runnin
I told him you were comin but my people did nothin
Little Justin, tell 'em I love him, I didn't rub him or hug him
And tell him don't start thuggin like his big brother Lavell
Ain't no price in this world for your soul to sell
It's gettin warm around here, am I in Heaven or Hell





(Chorus-to fade)

Overall Meaning

The song "If I Had a Choice" by Fiend is about contemplating mortality and expressing love for the people in the artist's life. The chorus is a declaration that if given a choice, Fiend would choose to live as long as the person he cares about. He acknowledges that he hasn't yet learned enough words to truly explain what he's feeling but asks the listener to listen to his heart.


Fiend goes on to reflect on his life and the things that matter to him. He confesses that he has never been dedicated to anything other than smoking and cutting women, and that he and his family came from nothing. However, this doesn't diminish the love he has for the people in his life. He speaks about surviving challenges and continuing to love his family, even though he may not always be present with them.


David Banner's verse adds to the theme of the song by expressing regret for not praying recently and voicing concerns about the state of the world. He asks God whether being Muslim or Christian matters and expresses sadness for the plight of those in difficult situations. He tells his son that he loves him and implores him not to turn to a life of thuggery like his older brother. The song ends with the chorus repeating as a fadeout.


Overall, the lyrics of "If I Had a Choice" reflect a raw emotion about the human condition and the fragility of life. It touches on themes of family, regret, and the struggle to make sense of the world we live in.


Line by Line Meaning

If I had a choice, I would choose to live as long as you
I wish to live as long as you do


Roll with ??? you, that's my word
I pledge loyalty to you


I yet have'nt learned enough words to explain
I lack the vocabulary to express what I feel


Can't figure what it is star, please listen to my heart
I don't understand my emotions but my heart speaks the truth


I ain't never been dedicated to nothin other than blunt snuffin
I've never been committed to anything except smoking marijuana


Your women cuttin and pistol bustin, we all grow
Violence and promiscuity are things we all experience as we grow up


Ask my cousin whether his stubborn ass responded
My cousin is too stubborn to answer


He doesn't, it ain't a lie, we all came from nothin
He doesn't respond but it's true that we all came from humble beginnings


But that ain't a reason to love Fiend no lesser
Our difficult past shouldn't diminish our love and loyalty to one another


And this ain't for the pity, whatever
I'm not seeking sympathy


For the ones that lick it together
For those of us who share similar experiences


Look, I really ain't gon' be here, drinkin and smokin
I won't be around forever, engaging in vices


Maybe not see clear
Perhaps my mind won't be clear


But dog I sobered up
But I'm sober now


Still survive a Fiend, gone, soldier what
I'm still going strong despite my addiction


Ain't nothin changed ask Tre, still feel with those ???
Things haven't changed, ask Tre, I still feel deeply


Numb, can't feel whether it's cold or what
I'm numb and can't even tell whether it's cold


Kept a not-not, but what a time, look, it rolled me up
I held on to a note but it only reminded me of my past


Don't wanna hold ya up, keep ya knees so covered
I don't want to keep you any longer, stay safe and protected


And I'm a tell her everyday her uncle love her
I will tell my niece every day how much I love her


Lord I'm sorry I didn't pray last night, I was tired
I apologize for not praying last night, I was exhausted


Runnin through the porch tryna' get on the Red Eye
I was in a hurry to catch a flight


Lately I ain't prayed for a minute, man I'm fallin
I haven't prayed much recently and feel like I'm slipping


These demons they got cell phones and lately they been callin
I feel like I'm being tempted by negative influences


And lately I been listenin
I've been paying attention to those temptations


Lord, does it really matter if I'm Muslim or Christian
Does my religion really matter?


Juan's case he didn't win, is he out, or in
Juan didn't win his court case, is he in jail?


Sometimes I wish he wasn't born in this world of sin
I regret that Juan was born into a world full of sin


Bless his soul, but now my soul is on wait
I pray for Juan's soul, but now my own soul is at risk


Lord I'm askin, now I'm beggin, please don't close the gate
I'm asking and begging God not to condemn me to hell


Lord I'm comin, I'm tired but my soul keeps runnin
I'm exhausted but I keep striving to improve my soul


I told him you were comin but my people did nothin
I told Juan that God would come, but my loved ones didn't help him


Little Justin, tell 'em I love him, I didn't rub him or hug him
Tell my nephew Justin that I love him even though I didn't show him physical affection


And tell him don't start thuggin like his big brother Lavell
Warn Justin not to follow in Lavell's criminal footsteps


Ain't no price in this world for your soul to sell
Your soul is priceless and should not be sold


It's gettin warm around here, am I in Heaven or Hell
Things are changing, am I going to heaven or hell?




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