Live Me Long
Fiend Lyrics

All I follow is the Jones as I reminisce
I often think of the past and how I used to chase what everyone else was doing.

Reminisce take chance as I remember this
Looking back, I took risks in pursuit of my dreams.

I was fifteen, anti fiend
When I was fifteen, I was against becoming involved with drugs.

Never thought I'd make it to music as a dream
At that time, I never imagined I would become a musician.

All I had was Kevin and my momma Jackie
At that time, my brother Kevin and my mother Jackie were everything to me.

The pen and pad, and I have a papi
All I had to help me process my emotions were a pen and paper, and a supportive father figure.

Taught up from the world, that you gots to be hard
Growing up, I was taught that I needed to be tough to survive in this world.

Shit, New Orleans is the city, I remember fightin over wars
New Orleans, where I grew up, was a violent place and I found myself involved in disagreements that felt like wars.

See, long before you give me the charge I beat my cause
Before I was judged or accused of anything, I had already fought for what I believed in.

I'm a nigga no more or less surrounded by flaws
I am just a person, no better or worse than anyone else, with my own imperfections and struggles.

I'm all yours but understand my future thoughts a few
I am willing to give myself completely to something, but I do have doubts and uncertainties about the future.

My days could be navy blue, and I'm a believe in you
My days could be full of sadness, but I am still willing to have faith and believe in something greater than myself.

See I'm TRU, because my niggas keep me goin as well
I am loyal to my friends and they are what keeps me motivated and moving forward.

Droppin tears cause I'm the only one alive to tell
The fact that I am still alive to share my story brings tears to my eyes.

And if I'm goin to hell, at least my life is enriched
Even if I am destined for a bad fate, I can take comfort in knowing that I have lived a full life.

By keepin family beside me, and they accepted me as click
Having supportive family that accepts me for who I am is crucial to my well-being.

I entertains my brain with a cloud of smoke
I use smoking as a way to cope with my thoughts and emotions.

My brother been gone for five years, and this is how I cope
My brother has been gone for a long time and smoking helps me deal with the pain.

I hope, wishing and praying that myself be next
At times, I feel like I don't want to live anymore and just want to be with my brother again.

My girl die straight innocent but because of a ex
My girlfriend was killed by a former partner, even though she did nothing wrong.

Got me vex drinkin, totin my gun under the moon
I am angry and drinking while carrying a gun at night.

And no matter how many bullets, bring her back no time soon
Even if I used my gun to avenge my girlfriend's death, it wouldn't bring her back and I would still be left with the pain.

I'm tired of departing with killing, all of my dogs bleedin
I am exhausted from losing friends to violence.

Bodies every other day, on Washington and ?????
There are frequent instances of violence and death in my city, specifically in certain areas like Washington street.

Oh lord, I'm even scary to open obituaries
I am fearful of reading obituaries because I don't want to come across the names of people I know who have died.

Gettin mail from cemeteries stating that I'm buried
The constant death in my community makes me feel like I am already dead.

Pain varies, to tell the truth it all hurts the same
No matter how someone dies or how much it affects me personally, it still hurts just as much.

If I don't to see some rain, cause life is a strange pain
If I don't see any positive change, life will continue to be a difficult and confusing experience.

Bullets don't carry names, but me, it's like short
Bullets may not be intended for anyone in particular, but they often seem to target my community and my friends.

Now here on life support, from not the right support
I am struggling and need help to keep going, but I am not getting the support I need.

I hold your quote like the killer, but lose a G
I put a lot of importance on a piece of advice, just as a criminal might hold on to a weapon, but I still lose money or other valuable things.

A small fee for what that nigga did to a family
No amount of money or compensation could ever make up for the harm caused by someone's violent actions.

Shit, I'm a reminisce like this while I'm in a good state of mind
I often look back and reflect when I am feeling clear-headed and not overwhelmed with negative emotions.

Now I'll never low, truly knows in no greater time
I feel like I have grown and am more aware of myself, even though there may never be a perfect time for it.

Down line, I've a lost some of my best partners
Over time, I have lost some of my closest friends.

Bullets pop us got em cause the rhyme, was it the coppers
Sometimes, my friends were killed because of their association with me and my music, and it's unclear if the police contributed to their deaths.

Now who is to blame, the hunted or the hunter
It's hard to say who is at fault for all the violence in my community.

Cope on his mind, much as I can and wonder
I am constantly trying to find ways to cope and move forward, but it's difficult.

Was my prayers to god injected or neglected
Sometimes, I wonder if my prayers are ever heard or if God has abandoned me.

Question the man if I can or respect it
I have questions and doubts about religion and the existence of a higher power, but I still hold some level of respect for the idea.

Serious, if just by my minutes, if us gone as beginners
I realize that life is short and unpredictable, and we never know when it might end.

Split em, we piss on the ground, screamin bury me with em
When someone close to us dies, we often act out in violent and emotional ways, even to the point of wanting to be buried with them.

My lord, you never suffer newborn, I'll guard your daughter
I find comfort in the idea of a God who doesn't cause suffering intentionally, and I vow to protect my own daughter.

Killing in my city like there's something in the water
The amount of violence and death in my community is so high that it feels like there must be something in the water causing it.

Why bother? Because Fiend's strandin heads then I'm gone
I continue to make music that touches people's lives because it feels like it's the only way I can leave a lasting impact.

And a soldier gonna survive till it's time to go home
I see myself as a fighter and a survivor who will keep going until my time is up.

Now notice I'm a survivor
Through all the pain and loss, I am still standing and still fighting.

My feelings go out to the families of G Slim, and Miss Michelle Tyler
I send my condolences to the families of these individuals who have likely been lost to violence in my community.