Testimony
Fiend Lyrics

I have a testimony
I have a personal account of my experiences that I want to share

I must watch every rectangle triangle my front sides and back
I have to be extremely vigilant and cautious, watching all angles to avoid danger

Niggas try to take me on a ride and leave me stranded black
People attempt to deceive me and leave me in a vulnerable situation

Leave me in spots where I can't fly jack
They abandon me in places where I am stuck and unable to escape

Ain't that some shit how niggas come and fuck the game up quick
It's disappointing how easily people can disrupt the harmony of the situation

I was there when G got popped uh dead in the neck
I witnessed the violent death of someone named G

Around the corner when Melvin got teked up in the chest
I was close by when Melvin was shot in the chest

I was up the block when my compadre Coolie Black got shot
Coolie Black, a friend of mine, was shot while I was nearby

All up on Second and Clara Blocks now check it
There is a lot of violence and danger in the area of Second and Clara Blocks

New change was burnin inside motherfuckers like hell
There was a strong desire for change or progress among people, which caused tension and conflict

The only precautionary measure was to take care of self
The best way to stay safe was to prioritize one's own well-being

And that's the only way you can survive in the game
In this dangerous environment, self-preservation is the key to survival

And enhance in the game but lord I really must say
While it's important to excel in this context, I have to acknowledge...

Everything has got a message and a meaning to it
Every event or experience has some sort of lesson or significance

A purpose, if you don't believe then your day is coming
There is a reason for everything, and those who don't recognize it will eventually face consequences

Now I'm a tell you Lord, you've gotta overstand me
I want to make sure God understands my perspective

Only thing I'm screamin see, uh
The main point I want to emphasize is...

My testimony starts losin a homie behind somethin phony
My story of personal experience begins with losing a friend due to something deceitful or insincere

Flippin those zonie's for Rice A Roni
Selling drugs to support oneself, but only being able to afford a cheap, instant food brand

Lifted by my lonely for only brother to take, well look at his kid
Feeling alone and burdened by the responsibility of taking care of a deceased friend's child

You can have my life instead of his, I'm serious
I would rather sacrifice my own life than let something bad happen to my friend's child

The fear in me is I never felt this much pain in my body
The thought of something happening to the child causes immense emotional and physical pain within me

But you know what, I never drank that much bracardi, lovin his shorty
Despite the pain, I haven't turned to excessive drinking, and I have also been supportive of my friend's partner

Like she was mine and times I showed that baby the path
I have treated the child as if they were my own, guiding them and being a positive influence in their life

And teach it, ain't no such thing just aim it when you blast
I have also taught the child that there is no skill or strategy needed to shoot a gun, which is a dangerous thing to believe

Please be crazy bout your cash and learn to stash that last dollar
I advise the child to be careful and strategic with their money, as it is a valuable resource

We be like you kenfolk when your broke, a No Limit rider
Even when the child is struggling financially, they can always rely on us and our loyalty to the No Limit record label

So god, when you hear me hollar please grant my request
I am praying to God and asking for a specific favor or wish to be granted

Cause killers behind anybody with a tank on their chest
There are dangerous people out there targeting anyone associated with No Limit, as symbolized by the label's logo

In 1970 a hoodlum was born on this earth
I, Skull Duggery, was born in 1970 and have always had a troubled history

Didn't ask to come here but when I landed it sure did hurt
I didn't choose to be born into the difficult circumstances of my life, but it has caused me a lot of pain

It was a trip to see my life split in half
My life has had many ups and downs and has gone in unexpected directions

From the drug game on the street to the love I showed my mom and dad
I have been involved in selling drugs as well as having deep love and respect for my parents

The pain run deep, ha, nigga can't you tell
I am deeply affected by the painful experiences in my life, as is evident in my demeanor

Look at the expression on my face, nigga it hurts like hell
Based on my facial expression, you can see how much pain I am in

I have a testimony to tell, this life I will never forget
I want to share my story and experiences with others, and they have had a profound impact on me

Let me hit this life boy, rearrange my whole shit
My experiences have completely altered the course of my life and my perspective on things

Look, I was riding up Third Street as usual
I was going about my normal routine, riding on Third Street

I was gonna bust a left buck I'm on a cell but I left shampoo hotel
I was planning to turn left, but I got distracted by a phone call and ended up leaving a hotel called Shampoo

Man it hurts me, scene it horrified me
I am deeply pained and disturbed by what I witnessed

I seen a group of little kids having fun ya dig
I saw a group of young children enjoying themselves

nobody botherin them see
No one was bothering or disturbing them

Until this chump drove up with his big shot gun
Suddenly, a man arrived in a car with a large gun

And he shot a round of kids, I say boy
He opened fire on the group of children, and I was shocked and angered by this action

what this nigga did (what this nigga did)
I express disbelief and frustration at the shooter's actions

And the little kid that he shot boy on the block, end his life
One of the children was killed in the attack

And the kid's name was James ??? right, and that's my testimony
The child who lost their life was named James, and this tragic event has become a part of my story to tell

Now see in my life, it ain't never been what it's supposed to be
My life has never gone according to plan or expectation

Sometimes my tank dogs feel like they losing me
Sometimes my close friends and allies worry that they are losing me to the struggles and challenges I face

Sometimes I just feel they don't understand me
I feel misunderstood by those closest to me

Cause in my life you never tell me life will bring so much harm
I was not prepared for the amount of pain and difficulty that life would bring

I never thought to see my homie ??? die with needles in his arm
I never expected to witness my friend's death due to drug use

And like my homie Derrell Fuller, he never got to see his twins born
Another friend of mine named Derrell Fuller was not able to witness the birth of his children before he passed away

And by the way they couldn't see it because they bullets they took they couldn't take it
Sadly, due to the violence and danger of our environment, some people were killed before they could experience the joys of life

And you couldn't tell me that these days in my life
I never could have predicted the struggles and hardships that I would face in my life

That I believe in the things that I saw
I have witnessed many difficult and painful events that have shaped my beliefs and perspective

Shit, I never knew I had this testimony
I never realized that all of my experiences would come together to form a powerful personal testimony

I have a testimony
I have a significant and powerful story to share through my experiences

I have a testimony
I have overcome challenges and can inspire others with my personal account

I have a testimony
My life and experiences have given me a voice and a message to share with others

I have a testimony
My story is unique and powerful, and I want to use it to make a positive impact

I have a testimony
My testimony has been shaped by the events and experiences throughout my life