Paper Bag
Fiona Apple Lyrics
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Just looking for a star
To pray on or wish on or something like that
I was having a sweet fix
Of a daydream of a boy
Whose reality I knew was a hopeless to be had
But then the dove of hope began its downward slope
And I believed for a moment
But as it came down near
So did a weary tear
I thought it was a bird but it was just a paper bag
Hunger hurts and I want him so bad, oh it kills
'Cause I know I'm a mess he don't want to clean up
I've got to fold 'cause these hands are too shaky to hold
Hunger hurts but starving works when it costs too much to love
And I went crazy again today
Looking for a strand to climb
Looking for a little hope
Baby said he couldn't stay
Wouldn't put his lips to mine
A fail to kiss is a fail to cope
I said "honey, I don't feel so good
Don't feel justified
Come on put a little love here in my void"
He said "it's all in your head"
And I said "so's everything" but he didn't get it
I thought he was a man but he was just a little boy
Hunger hurts and I want him so bad, oh it kills
'Cause I know I'm a mess he don't want to clean up
I've got to fold 'cause these hands are too shaky to hold
Hunger hurts but starving works when it costs too much to love
Hunger hurts but I want him so bad, oh it kills
'Cause I know I'm a mess that he don't want to clean up
I've got to fold because these hands are just too shaky to hold
Hunger hurts but starving works when it costs too much to love
Hunger hurts but I want him so bad, oh it kills
Because I know that I'm a mess he don't want to clean up
I've got to fold 'cause these hands are just too shaky to hold
Hunger hurts but starving, it works when it costs too much to love
Mm-mm
The lyrics of Fiona Apple's song Paper Bag capture the feeling of hopelessness and unfulfilled longing. The singer is daydreaming of a boy, someone who she knows is unattainable but continues to hold onto hope anyway. However, when that hope is shattered, and reality comes crashing down on her, she feels disappointed and let down. The metaphor of the dove of hope descending, only to be revealed as a paper bag, is a powerful image of the singer's dashed dreams. She is left feeling empty and lost, as if the object of her desire was never really there in the first place.
The second verse reveals the source of the singer's desire: hunger. She wants this boy so badly it hurts, but she knows she is a mess that he doesn't want to "clean up." The singer feels unworthy of love and attention, and that the only solution is to starve herself emotionally. She is willing to endure the pain of this unrequited love because the thought of putting herself out there again and risking being hurt is too much to bear. The chorus repeats the idea that hunger hurts, both physically and emotionally, but sometimes it is easier to starve oneself when love becomes too costly.
Line by Line Meaning
I was staring at the sky
I was lost in thought, looking at nothing in particular
Just looking for a star
I was trying to find something to wish upon or pray to
To pray on or wish on or something like that
I was hoping to find something to give me a sense of hope or direction
I was having a sweet fix
I was indulging in a pleasant daydream
Of a daydream of a boy
I was imagining a romantic scenario with a boy I knew I could never have
Whose reality I knew was a hopeless to be had
I knew that the boy was out of reach and it was a foolish thought to have
But then the dove of hope began its downward slope
I briefly felt a sense of optimism
And I believed for a moment
I allowed myself to feel hopeful
That my chances were approaching to be grabbed
I thought that I had a chance to get what I wanted
But as it came down near
The hope disappeared as quickly as it appeared
So did a weary tear
I began to cry, feeling sad and hopeless again
I thought it was a bird but it was just a paper bag
I mistook a falling object as a sign of hope, but it turned out to be a meaningless object
Hunger hurts and I want him so bad, oh it kills
I am deeply yearning for the boy I can't have, and the feeling is painful
'Cause I know I'm a mess he don't want to clean up
I believe that I am a burden to him and he would not want to be with me
I've got to fold 'cause these hands are too shaky to hold
I feel too unstable emotionally to pursue the relationship any further
Hunger hurts but starving works when it costs too much to love
It is less painful to starve oneself of affection than to endure the costs and pain of loving someone who cannot or will not reciprocate
And I went crazy again today
I lost my composure and sanity, overcome by my emotions
Looking for a strand to climb
I was searching for some sort of hope or solution to my problems
Looking for a little hope
I was searching for any sign of optimism
Baby said he couldn't stay
The boy I wanted to be with couldn't or wouldn't reciprocate my feelings
Wouldn't put his lips to mine
He did not want to be physically intimate with me
A fail to kiss is a fail to cope
The lack of physical affection makes my emotional problems worse
I said 'honey, I don't feel so good
I expressed my emotional distress to him
Don't feel justified
I do not feel that my feelings and emotions are valid or reasonable
Come on put a little love here in my void'
I asked him to show me some affection and fill the emptiness I feel inside
He said 'it's all in your head'
He dismissed my feelings and suggested that they are not real or legitimate
And I said 'so's everything' but he didn't get it
I meant that everything we experience is subjective and perceived differently by each person, but he did not understand
I thought he was a man but he was just a little boy
I believed that he was emotionally mature enough to handle a relationship, but he proved otherwise
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Written by: Fiona Apple Maggart
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Lyrics
I was staring at the sky,Ā
Just looking for a star
To pray on,Ā
Or wish on,Ā
Or something like that
I was having a sweet fixĀ
Of a daydream of a boy
Whose reality I knew,Ā
Was a hopeless to be had
But then the dove of hopeĀ
Began its downward slope
And I believed for aĀ
Moment that my chances
Were approaching to be grabbed
But as it came down near,Ā
So did a weary tear
I thought it was a bird,Ā
But it was just a paper bag
Hunger hurts,Ā
And I want him so bad,Ā
Oh it kills
CauseĀ
I know I'm a messĀ
He don't wanna clean up
I got to fold cause these handsĀ
Are too shaky to hold
Hunger hurts,Ā
But starving works,Ā
When it costs too much to love
And I went crazy again today
Looking for a strand to climb,Ā
Looking for a little hope
Baby said he couldn't stay
Wouldn't put his lips to mine andĀ
AĀ fail to kiss is a fail to cope
I said,Ā
"Honey,Ā
I don't feel so good,Ā
Don't feel justified
Come on put a littleĀ
Love here in my void,"
He saidĀ
"It's all in your head,"
And I said,Ā
"So's everything"
But he didn't get it
I thought he was a man butĀ
He was just a little boy
Hunger hurts,Ā
And I want him so bad,Ā
Oh it kills
CauseĀ
I know I'm a messĀ
He don't wanna clean up
I got to fold cause these handsĀ
Are too shaky to hold
Hunger hurts,Ā
But starving works,Ā
When it costs too much to love
Hunger hurts,Ā
And I want him so bad,Ā
Oh it kills
CauseĀ
I know I'm a messĀ
He don't wanna clean up
I got to fold cause these handsĀ
Are too shaky to hold
Hunger hurts,Ā
But starving works,Ā
When it costs too much to love
Hunger hurts,Ā
And I want him so bad,Ā
Oh it kills
CauseĀ
I know I'm a messĀ
He don't wanna clean up
I got to fold cause these handsĀ
Are too shaky to hold
Hunger hurts,Ā
But starving works,Ā
When it costs too much to love
Hmm
@randonlando418
[Verse 1]
I was staring at the sky, just looking for a star
To pray on, or wish on, or something like that
I was having a sweet fix of a daydream of a boy
Whose reality I knew, was a-hopeless to be had
But then the dove of hope began its downward slope
And I believed for a moment that my chances
Were approaching to be grabbed
But as it came down near, so did a weary tear
I thought it was a bird, but it was just a paper bag
[Chorus]
Hunger hurts, and I want him so bad, oh it kills
'Cause I know I'm a mess he don't wanna clean up
I got to fold cause these hands are too shaky to hold
Hunger hurts, but starving works, when it costs too much to love
[Verse 2]
And I went crazy again today
Looking for a strand to climb, looking for a little hope
Baby said he couldn't stay
Wouldn't put his lips to mine and a fail to kiss is a fail to cope
I said, "Honey, I don't feel so good, don't feel justified
Come on put a little love here in my void,"
He said "It's all in your head,"
And I said, "So's everything" but he didn't get it
I thought he was a man but he was just a little boy
[Chorus]
Hunger hurts, and I want him so bad, oh it kills
'Cause I know I'm a mess he don't wanna clean up
I got to fold cause these hands are too shaky to hold
Hunger hurts, but starving works
When it costs too much to love
Hunger hurts but I want him so bad, oh it kills
'Cause I know I'm a mess that he don't wanna clean up
I got to fold because these hands are just too shaky to hold
Hunger hurts, but starving works me
When it costs too much to love
Oh, hunger hurts but I want him so bad, oh it kills
'Cause I know I'm a mess that he don't wanna clean up
I got to fold because these hands are just too shaky to hold
Hunger hurts, but starving, it works
When it costs too much to love, hmm hmm
@StageNameSnowLeopard
"Hunger hurts, but starving works when it costs too much to love" that line makes me cry
@gloriadiaz6400
i love it. I think it describes being lonely (hunger) hurts but having a relationship is just not worth it, hence the starving (for love).
@ana.5687
ā@@gloriadiaz6400 As raw as it sounds there's not metaphor, she's just talking about starving yourself for the emptiness, for the lack of love for yourself and others
@YeetusTheFetus
I listened to this song all the time when I was anorexic
@ana.5687
@@YeetusTheFetus That's what I'm talking about, these lines were all over tumblr on the vlogs, as far as I know Fiona struggled with the same so it just make sense that the lines make sense with the literal meaning
@niraea
@@ana.5687 nah i think it intentionally can be read both ways.
@dixieflatline8750
"He said 'it's just in your head' and I said 'so'severything'buthedidn'tgetit." Is one of my top 10 favorite song lines.
@jasongillum5763
this isn't pop music
@falonlane4282
You fondle my trigger then you blame my gun ranks high with me also
@aradiafaire2462
@@jasongillum5763 This song was nominated for a grammy, its catchy and easily accessible. There's even kitschy dancers. This is the MOST pop. Pop music changes a lot over the years. There were a lot of popular artists in the '90s that had a sound similar to this.