To Live a Life
First Aid Kit Lyrics


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I wrote you a letter
To make myself feel better
To redeem some part of me
I thought I had lost
And we were a lost cause
Long before we fell apart
'Cause honey, I was too eager
And you were too smart
And I look for you
In this empty room
You're a phone call away
I'm on the inner state
And I've been drinking cheap wine
Just to pass the time
I'm falling behind
And it doesn't matter
Who you are to me

I'm just like my mother
We both love to run
Chasing impossible things
Or unreachable dreams
Lie awake in the night
Thinking this can't be right
But there is no other way
To live a life alone
I'm alone now

Then suddenly we wake from this dream that we have made
It beats all at once and then
It slowly fades
I'm raising in
To nothing I
It all falls away
I know it now




For my own sake
That I cannot stay

Overall Meaning

The lyrics of "To Live a Life" by First Aid Kit is a heart-wrenching song about lost love and personal redemption. The song is an introspection of the singer's past mistakes and how the pain of the past has left them feeling lost and alone. The line "I wrote you a letter, to make myself feel better, to redeem some part of me I thought I had lost" suggests that the singer is trying to move on from a failed relationship but is unable to find closure. She expresses regret for being "too eager" and acknowledges that her former partner was "too smart" for the relationship to work.


The chorus again highlights the singer's search for her former lover. She's alone and looking for comfort in empty spaces, thinking of the phone call that could bring her some relief. The song continues with the singer drawing comparisons between her life and her mother's, finding similarities in a shared desire for chasing impossible things and dreams that are out of reach. The final verse concludes with a realization that the dream of a life together has ended, and the relationship cannot be fixed.


In summary, "To Live a Life" by First Aid Kit is a poignant song that delves deep into lost love and personal struggle. It's a beautiful song that many can connect to, finding solace in shared experiences of sadness and loss.


Line by Line Meaning

I wrote you a letter
I wrote a letter to express my feelings and thoughts to you


To make myself feel better
I wrote the letter to relieve myself from negative feelings


To redeem some part of me I thought I had lost
By writing the letter, I hoped to regain a lost part of myself


And we were a lost cause Long before we fell apart
Our relationship was doomed even before it ended


'Cause honey, I was too eager And you were too smart
Our personalities clashed and led to the failure of our relationship


And I look for you In this empty room
I search for your presence even when you're not around


You're a phone call away I'm on the inner state
You're not physically present but can be reached through a phone call while I'm driving on the highway


And I've been drinking cheap wine Just to pass the time I'm falling behind
I drink cheap wine as a way to pass the time but it's not helping me keep up with life's demands


And it doesn't matter Who you are to me
Our relationship status doesn't affect your worth to me as a person


I'm just like my mother We both love to run Chasing impossible things Or unreachable dreams
I inherited the same trait from my mother - the tendency to run after impossible things or dreams


Lie awake in the night Thinking this can't be right But there is no other way To live a life alone
I'm questioning my decision to live a solitary life but think that there's no other way for me


I'm alone now
I've ended up alone despite my efforts to connect with others


Then suddenly we wake from this dream that we have made It beats all at once and then It slowly fades
We realize the unrealistic nature of our dreams and how they quickly dissolve


I'm raising in To nothing I It all falls away I know it now For my own sake That I cannot stay
I'm letting go of unrealistic dreams and understanding that I cannot cling onto something that's not within reach




Lyrics © Kobalt Music Publishing Ltd.
Written by: Johanna Soderberg, Klara Soderberg

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