Shadowplay
Fish Lyrics

Hunched foetal in the corner of my soul
Feeling helpless and curled up in the depths of my emotions

My fingernails are bleeding from climbing up the wall
Feeling helpless and trying everything to escape the pain

This time you really hurt me right down to the core
This time you've caused me intense pain that feels like it's at the very center of my being

And I'm desperately trying to find a reason to forgive you for it all
Despite the intense pain, I'm still searching for a way to forgive you

I saw your life as a shadowplay
I viewed your life as a show, a mere shadow of reality

In a trance I was held by the shadowplay
I was so absorbed and captivated by the spectacle of your life that I was in a trance

In the spell of the shadowplay
I was under the enchantment of the shadowplay

From Celtic illumination
Through Celtic art and design

I see the Celtic illumination
I can see the intricate and beautiful Celtic designs

I never realized just how far we'd gone
I didn't realize the extent of our relationship until it was too late

I turned around and all that I saw was distance
Once I looked back, everything seemed so distant and far away

Through an anger that burned every time
Anger consumed me every time someone brought up your name

That someone mentioned your name
Every time someone talked about you

I should have noticed, should have read the signs
I should have seen the warnings, the signs that our relationship was going sour

We could have talked it out if there was a problem
If there was a problem, we could have spoken and resolved it

It wasn't obvious then
It wasn't apparent back then

But then it isn't really obvious now
Even now, it's not very clear

I could have changed I could have settled down
I could have changed my ways and settled down for you

I could have been whatever you wanted me to be
I could have adjusted to be whatever you desired

If you gave me the chance
If you had given me the opportunity

But it seems that it's too late for that now
That chance has now passed us by

I thought I knew you thought we had it made
I thought I had you all figured out and believed we were perfect together

I'd thought it out, thought I had the answers
I believed I had answers to any problems that may arise in the relationship

After all is said and done
When everything is considered

The only thing I really know is your name
The only thing I truly know about you is your name

I sit and wait for the shadowplay
I wait for the next act of the show, the shadowplay

Let me in into the world of the shadowplay
Allow me to be a part of your life show, your world of the shadowplay

I'll follow you to the shadowplay
I'll go where you go, follow you wherever your life show takes you

Give me the Celtic illumination
Show me the beauty of the Celtic art and design

Illumination
Reveal the truth to me

If I'd only had the patience, if I'd only had the time
If only I had more time and patience

If I'd only known the moment when you'd chosen to decide
If only I had known when you were going to make those decisions

If I'd only ever listened, if you'd only ever asked
If only I had listened more and if only you had conveyed your thoughts more effectively

If I'd known it was important, if I'd known it wouldn't last
If I had valued it more and realized that it would not be permanent

Maybe if I'd noticed, maybe if I'd tried
Perhaps if I had seen what was happening and attempted to do something to stop it

Maybe if I'd worked at it, it never would have died
If only I had put more effort into our relationship, maybe it wouldn't have ended

Maybe I was selfish, maybe I was blind
Perhaps I was self-centered or perhaps I was unaware of what was happening around me

Maybe I was in the wrong and you were in the right
Maybe I was at fault and you were correct in your decisions

Could I have been a better man, was I really all to blame?
Could I have been a better partner, is this all my fault?

Was it me that was the problem, was it me that dealt the pain?
Did I cause the issues, was I the one that caused the hurt?

Did you never mean to hurt me, did you only try to show
Was your intention never to hurt me, and instead to express your love?

That you really, truly loved me, that together we're alone
That your love for me was genuine, and that we were together in our own world

I see my life as a shadowplay
My life is also like a show, a mere shadow of reality

All around is the magic of shadowplay
My life is surrounded by the beauty and illusion of the shadowplay

In the world of the shadowplay is where I belong
I feel like I belong in this world of illusion and darkness

Where all that I feared is how it is and will be
This is where all my fears are confirmed and where they will manifest

All that was hidden
Everything that was concealed

Now you will see
Now it will be revealed to you

All I could dream
Everything that I could wish for

You'll find now is real
You'll soon realize that this is the reality

All I could touch
Everything that I could reach out to

Now you can feel
Now you will be able to experience it for yourself

And the light that I follow
The guiding light that I follow

Is where the madness will end
This is where the insanity will cease

Illumination, illumination
Enlightenment, enlightenment

Shine on, shine on, shine on.
Keep shining your light for me