Counting Sheep
Flatsound Lyrics

Summer time was not a lie, but
Summer was real, but it was just a temporary feeling

Just a feeling that we got
We were just experiencing emotions that we cannot rely on for long term stability

And I know you feel alone too
I understand that you are also experiencing loneliness and confusion

But this heat is not for us
This temporary feeling is not enough to build a lasting relationship on

I know I wanted to go
I had a desire to leave my current situation

Into the valley where it snows
I wanted to go somewhere colder and more isolated

But I realized
But I came to the conclusion

This place is too cold to live my life
That my current location is too harsh to thrive in

I'm sorry, sorry I couldn't go
I apologize for not being able to leave with you

On with these lies while I'm kissing your nose
Continuing to pretend everything is okay when it's not

I wasn't ready, I should have known
I wasn't emotionally prepared for this

That this would happen
The relationship coming to an end so soon

So let's stop these words, they're turning cold
Let's stop talking because the conversation is becoming unproductive and sour

Let's treat this goodbye like a simple hello
Let's depart amicably and gracefully, like we first met and exchanged greetings

You're still so young, you have room to grow
You have a lot of time and opportunity ahead of you to develop into something great

Into something amazing
To become something truly incredible and unique

You'll sleep tight, I know this feels right
I understand that this feels like the right decision and I hope you'll rest peacefully tonight

But there's something you should understand
However, there is something important for you to know

When the leaves change, after three days
In a few days, after the autumn leaves have fallen

You won't remember who I am
You'll forget about me and our relationship completely

I'm not calling you out
I'm not trying to accuse you of anything

It's just you sound like her when you open your mouth
It's just that when you speak, you sound like someone else I knew

And I can't live with the chance
And I can't handle the possibility

That this feeling's ever coming back
That this same feeling will resurface again

So no, you're not what I need
You're not what I require emotionally or romantically

Those words you say, they're the orange in the trees
Your words are like the oranges in the autumn foliage - they seem bright and attractive, but they're fleeting and temporary

And I just need to sleep
I simply need to rest and escape my current emotional state

I'm so sick of always counting sheep
I'm tired of trying to force myself to sleep and distract myself from my feelings

I've been feeling so ill, is this all in my thoughts?
I've been feeling unwell, but is it all in my head?

This feeling I get when I want you to rot
This negative feeling I have towards you

For all the things and all the pain you've caused
For all the pain and suffering you've put me through

If we see each other, we won't stop and stare
If we happen to encounter each other, we'll keep moving with little interaction

Yeah, I'd rather you treat me like I wasn't there
I would prefer if you pretended like I didn't exist

I don't hate you, but honey, this still hurts
I don't hate you, but this breakup still causes me great pain

So I still have the things that we've had from the start
So I still have the things that I began this relationship with

This pen in my pocket, this rusted guitar
These possessions are like emotional anchors that remind me of the past

And the courage to sing this pain away
And the strength to sing and express my feelings in hopes of finding closure