Defenseless
Forever Came Calling Lyrics

I just can't face myself alone.
I am deeply afraid of being alone with my thoughts and feelings.

I opened the window to let the breeze know,
I am trying to connect with the outside world in order to feel less isolated.

I need to feel at home.
I am searching for a sense of belonging and comfort.

It happened it did, her dress it slid,
Something intimate occurred between me and another person.

Deciding to kiss the floorboards again.
I am experiencing feelings of shame and regret over what happened.

She now stands motionless and naked,
The other person involved in the intimate moment is vulnerable and exposed.

I glimpsed the edge but couldn't take it
I was tempted to cross a line, but ultimately did not follow through.

Well I'm so defenseless, don't think that I wouldn't,
I feel powerless in this situation, but I am still capable of making choices.

But never meant it, I swear I can mend this.
I did not intend for things to go this far, and I am willing to make amends.

I've got a little bit of courage and a head full of smoke,
I am simultaneously feeling bold and reckless.

Let's see how far I can take this.
I am pushing boundaries and testing my limits.

I've got to focus now on everything that what matters most
I need to prioritize what is truly important in order to move forward.

To gain perspective, stand on edges.
I am seeking a new view of my life and my choices.

Same mistakes I'll never make again.
I am determined to learn from my past and not repeat my errors.

I found the man I thought I was,
I had an idea of who I wanted to be, but it was not necessarily true to myself.

Learned inside a. A cheap hotel, a borrowed buzz
I had a realization about myself during a time of temporary escape and distraction.

Still couldn't bring myself to feel that rush
I am experiencing emotional numbness or dissatisfaction.

Stomach spilled, I still got my guts
I feel sickened or nervous, but I am still willing to take risks.

You brought me in with confidence Assuming I would cave to hips, and kiss your lips
The other person assumed that I would be easily swayed by physical attraction.

My father told me Honest men, can lie again And nothings broken you can't fix.
My father taught me that even trustworthy people can make mistakes and that forgiveness is always possible.

I fell asleep on the floor again, What did you expect?
I am struggling with fatigue or exhaustion and am not meeting others' expectations.

I had to gain perspective You're not true til tested. I'm tested.
I needed to go through a difficult experience in order to understand myself and others more fully.