The After Dinner Payback
From Autumn To Ashes Lyrics


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I'm not wishing anymore
I'm not writing songs for you
I sleep better in the dark
I'm not doing this for you

This is because of you I don't believe
Tongue tied an institute of my relief
You're my, my reason to shame
(My reason to shame)

I'm not wishing anymore
I'm not writing songs for you
I sleep better in the dark
I'm not doing this for you

This is because of you I don't believe
Tongue tied an institute of my relief

One wish that this is over
You are all I waste today
(Discarded worthless throw it away)

Will it tear you apart?
Will it?
Will it tear you apart?

(When I turn and walk away
Abandon, its not worth the effort
When stalling means
Too fucking scared to create
Abandon, its not worth the effort
When stalling and too scared)

One wish that this is over
You are all I waste today
(Discarded worthless throw it away)

Will it tear you apart?
Will it?
Will it tear you apart?

When I turn and walk away
I'm not holding onto this
I'm not wasting words on you
I sleep alone in spite of it
I'll do anything for you

This is because of you I feel relief
Tongue tied to investigate what I believe
You're my, my reason to blame (my reason to blame)

I'm not holding onto this
I'm not wasting words on you
I sleep alone in spite of it
I'll do anything for you

This is because of you I feel relief




Tongue tied to investigate what I believe
You're my, my reason to blame (my reason to blame)

Overall Meaning

The lyrics to From Autumn To Ashes’ song “The After Dinner Payback” express the singer’s frustration with a toxic relationship that has caused emotional pain and turmoil. The singer declares that they are no longer wishing or writing songs for the other person, but sleeping better in the dark, away from their influence. They feel tongue-tied and shamed because of this person, and they no longer believe in them. The other person is the singer’s reason for shame and blame.


In the chorus, the singer wishes for the relationship to be over, saying that the other person is all they waste their time on. They wonder if their departure will tear the other person apart, but ultimately, they are done with the toxic relationship. They are not holding onto it or wasting words on the other person but sleeping alone in spite of it. However, the singer still feels tied to investigating what they believe and blames the other person for their emotional turmoil.


The song depicts a complicated relationship in which the singer experiences both relief and pain because of the other person. They wish to be done with the relationship but are still tied to the other person in some way. The tone of the song is angsty, depicting the deep emotions of a broken relationship.


Line by Line Meaning

I'm not wishing anymore
I have stopped wishing for anything related to you


I'm not writing songs for you
I have stopped composing music that has anything to do with you


I sleep better in the dark
I find more restful sleep in a dark and quiet room


I'm not doing this for you
I am not engaging in any actions or activities with you in mind


This is because of you I don't believe
I no longer have faith in something because of your influence on my perspective


Tongue tied an institute of my relief
Being unable to speak out of conflicting emotions gives me the feeling of finding tranquility through mental health resources


You're my, my reason to shame
I am embarrassed by the way I allowed you to affect me and my decisions


One wish that this is over
I hope that this situation or relationship comes to an end


You are all I waste today
You are the only thing in my life that has been unproductive and fruitless today


(Discarded worthless throw it away)
Something that has no value should be disposed of or disregarded


Will it tear you apart?
Will this lead to your emotional breakdown or extreme distress?


When I turn and walk away
When I distance myself from you and the situation, leaving it behind


Abandon, its not worth the effort
Giving up on something is not worth the energy or time put into it


When stalling means too fucking scared to create
When procrastinating on something is a result of being too scared to try something new


I'm not holding onto this
I am not continuing to hold onto any attachment to you or this situation


I'm not wasting words on you
I am choosing not to use words on you, as they have not been effective in the past


I sleep alone in spite of it
I choose to sleep alone because it is preferable to being with you


I'll do anything for you
I am willing to go to great lengths to make sure that you are happy, even if it does not make me happy in the process


This is because of you I feel relief
I am experiencing a sense of relief because of your involvement in the situation


Tongue tied to investigate what I believe
I am hesitant to express my thoughts on my beliefs and doubt them as a result of your influence


You're my, my reason to blame (my reason to blame)
You are the cause of my problems and I hold you responsible for it




Lyrics © BMG Rights Management
Written by: Benjamin Perri, Brian Deneeve, Francis Mark, Mike Pilato, Scott Gross

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