After the Aesthetic EP, Reardon was asked to leave the band for various reasons and Antillon was replaced by Jon Weisberg after he was arrested for shoplifting and unable to tour. The rest of the band members originally decided to have Good as the lead singer, but he opted to concentrate on guitar, not wanting to give it up in order to take on lead vocals. Good had wanted From First to Last to have a frontman, in order to connect with the crowd better. Using the social networking site MySpace, Good came in contact with a guitarist from California by the name of Sonny Moore, now better known as the person behind Skrillex. Moore flew out to Georgia, where the bands second album Dear Diary, My Teen Angst Has a Bodycount was being recorded, and was set to be the band's second guitarist. However, when the other band members heard Moore singing backups, they decided that he was much better suited for lead singer than guitarist.
Good and Richter wrote the album in two weeks and Moore, coming in after the music was tracked, completed the vocals with the bands help. Dear Diary, My Teen Angst Has a Body Count was released on June 29, 2004.
In 2005, from late May to mid June From First to Last participated in the "Dead by Dawn" tour with bands Emanuel, Halifax and He is Legend.
From mid March to mid May 2006 the band toured along side Fall Out Boy and The All-American Rejects for the "Black Clouds and Underdogs Tour" in support of their release Heroine.
Prior, the band went to Radio Star Studios in Weed, California to record their second album, produced by Ross Robinson. As their previous bassist Weisberg had been formally asked to step out due to issues within the band's relationship, producer Ross Robinson asked Wes Borland, (currently of Black light burns,former Limp Bizkit guitarist, to play bass on their second full length Heroine. He later played several tours with the band. The album was released on March 21, 2006 and opened on the Billboard albums chart at #25, with first-week sales of 33,000-plus. Shortly thereafter in April, they signed to major label Capitol Records after bidding between Capitol Records and Warner Bros.
Meanwhile, singer Sonny Moore began to have problems with his vocal chords. From First to Last went on the "World Championship Tour" supporting Atreyu along with Every Time I Die and Chiodos. That is when new bassist Matthew Manning joined the From First to Last line up. While on that tour, Moore had vocal cord problems and had to leave the tour. The band had planned to have guitarists Good and Richter cover Moore's vocal duties for the duration of the tour until singer of Chiodos, Craig Owens, insisted that he provide lead vocals for their sets. Atreyu eventually dropped From First to Last from the tour. The band later explained, "Our plan to enable us to play the rest of the tour was disregarded and as our crew was setting up for the show in Worcester, MA we were informed that we were being kicked off of the tour. Understand that it was not our choice to leave this tour...we were forced to leave." Atreyu then returned a statement about the controversy concerning From First to Last's departure, saying, "They couldn't perform as FFTL and are no longer on this tour."
In February 2007, Moore left From First to Last to pursue his solo career. His decision to leave was based on his urge to create his own music, and also on the fact that singing in FFTL was putting an immense strain on his vocal chords. Sonny has posted new recordings on his MySpace and has recently signed onto a label, modernorganic.
After vocalist Moore's departure, FFTL faced a crisis. Their label, Capitol Records, had dropped them due to financial problems. Without a vocalist, label, permanent bassist, or any money, the band almost split. Guitarist/Vocalist Matt Good, however, decided to take on lead vocals while still providing a backup guitar role. The band also quickly picked up Matt Manning to become full-time bassist .The band then spent their remaining money on a studio in which to continue work on their already-written third album.
After completing a full mix of their new material, FFTL was picked up by Suretone Records. Shortly after they re-entered the studio to record their album again, this time with a professional crew and better quality. This was part of the reason that there was so much delay in the release. The album was supposed to be out April 19, "Just in tiume for the High-lidays" as put by the band's merch guy, Ricky Terror. Then it was postponed up till May 6th.
The band recorded for the second time in Los Angeles, with producer Josh Abraham and seasoned engineer Ryan Williams. They have since completed the album, and at midnight on November 14, 2007, they released a new song, Two as One, on their MySpace account.
FFTL began their fall headlining tour, RATHER BE SLAYIN' N00BZ, starting November 1st 2007. This tour was with fellow post hardcore bands Pierce the veil, blessthefall, Four Year Strong, and Vanna.
After RATHER BE SLAYIN' N00BZ, the band joined every time i die, the bled, august burns red, and the human abstract on Hot Topic's Take Action Tour.
On January 23rd 2008, one of the songs from the new album, We All Turn Back to Dust, was released exclusively through Billboard.com. On February 12th, From First to Last released an exclusive 2 song CD through Hot Topic. The CD features the songs "We All Turn Back to Dust" and "I Once Was Lost But Now Am Profound" from the band's Self Titled album. On March 7th, it was confirmed that "Worlds Away" would be the album's first single. It hit radio on March 17th. The Video Debuted on AOL.
The new album received mixed reviews. With Sonny no longer in the band many people felt that From First to Last had lost their unique sound. Alternative Press magazine had reviewed their self titled album poorly, giving it a meager 2 stars, accompanied with a biased review. This had upset many other fans feel that they are better without him, or just the same.
A special edition of From First to Last's self titled is available through Hot Topic and it includes the extra track "Everything's Perfect." A more up tempo song reminiscent of their Dear Diary Days. The Japan editions include and extra track, "World's Away Acoustic." The European versions include "Tick Tick Tomorrow Acoustic" and "Medicinal Reality Acoustic." Aside from all these extra tracks, they covered "Chelsea Hotel" by leonard cohen and had it available to listen on myspace.
From First to Last plans to spend most of 2008 on the road, including a headlining slot on the Warped Tour. They have been documenting their tour life on FFTLTV, a series of videos with a new episode every week, released on Tuesdays via their youtube.
The band has a contract with EA games and will have certain songs featured on games like Facebreaker, which features Worlds Away, and Command and Conquer: Red Alert 3, for which they covered the "Hell March" theme by Frank Klepacki.
Derek Bloom and Travis Richter have a side project called the color of violence.
The band has recently reformed and announced a new EP to soon be recorded and released in 2014.
Note To Self
From First to Last Lyrics
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And my life goes running in opposite directions
Exaggerating the barrier between who I am, and who I want to be
I wanted to be that breath of fresh air
When everything smelled so insincere
But this taste still lingers in my mouth
Deceit has ways of sticking around
Vacation seems far from here
Note to self, I miss you terribly
This is what, we call a tragedy
Come back to me, Come back to me, to me
Note to self, I miss you terribly
This is what, we call a tragedy
Come back to me, back to me, to me
I can feel my mind, wandering again
Into where I don't know, and will I ever get home?
Time starts moving, faster than I can
And I'm sick of this scene, I need to break the routine
I can feel my mind, wandering again
Into where I don't know, and will I ever get home?
Time starts moving, faster than I can
And I'm sick of this scene
I need to break the routine
Two roads, split off from here
And my life goes running in opposite directions
Exaggerating the barrier between who I am
And who I want to be
Which part of me is lost?
I feel so close, and yet I am so far
Which part of me is lost?
I feel so close, and yet I am so, far
In "Note to Self" by From First to Last, the singer sees their life split off into two separate roads, with each road going in opposite directions. They feel a barrier between who they currently are and who they want to be. The singer wanted to be a breath of fresh air, but found it difficult when everything around them seemed insincere. They can still taste the deceit that has stuck with them, and they are ready to disappear. They long for a vacation, but it seems far out of reach.
The chorus repeats "Note to self, I miss you terribly. This is what we call a tragedy. Come back to me, come back to me, to me." The singer is speaking to themselves about how they miss the person they used to be, and the situation they are in now is a tragedy. They want to go back to that person they were before.
The singer's mind keeps wandering into unknown territories, and they wonder if they will ever find their way back home. Time moves too quickly, and the scene around them is monotonous. They need to break the routine and find a way to move forward.
Overall, the song is about feeling lost and searching for a way back to the person one used to be. The singer sees their life split into two paths and feels trapped in the current situation. They long for a way to break free and move forward.
Line by Line Meaning
Two roads, split off from here
Life presents choices and paths to take
And my life goes running in opposite directions
My life is headed in two different paths
Exaggerating the barrier between who I am, and who I want to be
The differences between my current and ideal self seem immense
I wanted to be that breath of fresh air
My desire was to be genuine in a world of insincerity
When everything smelled so insincere
In a world full of inauthenticity
But this taste still lingers in my mouth
Though I'm trying to be better, the effects of deceit are still present
Deceit has ways of sticking around
Lies can have a long-lasting impact
And I'm ready to disappear
I feel like giving up
Vacation seems far from here
I need to escape, but it's not possible at the moment
Note to self, I miss you terribly
I've lost a part of myself that I wish was still present
This is what, we call a tragedy
This situation is deeply upsetting and unfortunate
Come back to me, Come back to me, to me
I wish to regain the lost part of myself
I can feel my mind, wandering again
My thoughts are scattered once again
Into where I don't know, and will I ever get home?
I'm unsure of where I'm going and if I'll find my way back
Time starts moving, faster than I can
Life is moving too quickly for me to keep up
And I'm sick of this scene, I need to break the routine
I'm tired of the same old patterns and need something new
Which part of me is lost?
I've lost something about myself
I feel so close, and yet I am so far
I'm almost there, but not quite
Which part of me is lost?
I'm struggling to identify what I've lost
I feel so close, and yet I am so, far
I'm close to finding what I lost, but it's still out of reach
Lyrics © BMG Rights Management, Kobalt Music Publishing Ltd.
Written by: Derek Alan Bloom, Jon Weisberg, Matt Good, Travis Brandon Richter
Lyrics Licensed & Provided by LyricFind
Nail bat
A Vain Attempt - You Broke My Heart
AFI - Girl's Not Grey
Aiden - Knife Blood Nightmare
Alesana - Apology
Alexisonfire - This Could Be Anywhere In the World
Blessthefall - Guys Like You Make Us Look Bad
Brand New - The Quiet Things That No One Ever Knows
Chiodos - The Words "Best Friend" Become Redefined
Dashboard Confessional - Hands Down
Dead Poetic - New Medicines
Dear Whoever - Tears of Ashes
Drop Dead, Gorgeous - Dresed for Friend Requests
Emanuel - Make Tonight
Escape the Fate - Not Good Enough for Truth In Cliche'
Eyes Set to Kill - Darling
Finch - What It Is to Burn
From Autumn to Ashes - Alive out of Habit
From First to Last - Note to Self
Funeral for a Friend - Moments Forever Faded
Greeley Estates - Through Waiting
Hawthorne Heights - Ohio Is for Lovers
Hidden In Plain View - Twenty Below
Hopes Die Last - Call Me Sick Boy
Matchbook Romance - My Eyes Burn
My Chemical Romance - Im Not Okay (I Promise)
Reclaim the Fallen - A Fire In My Heart
Saosin - Seven Years
Senses Fail - Bloody Romance
Silverstein - My Heroine
Something Corporate - I Woke Up In a Car
Story of the Year - Until the Day I Die
Taking Back Sunday - Cute Without the 'E' (Cut From the Team)
The Blackout - Murder In the Make Believe Balroom
The Early November - I Want to Hear You Sad
The Red Jumpsuit Apparatus - Face Down
The Used - The Taste of Ink
Thrice - Stare At the Sun
Underoath - Reinventing Your Exit
TastyBeef44X
30 Seconds To Mars - The Kill
Anberlin - The Feel Good Drag
Armor For Sleep - Remember to Feel Real
Bayside - Devotion and Desire
Coheed and Cambria - A Favor House Atlantic
Emery - Walls
Fall Out Boy - Grand Theft Autumn / Where Is Your Boy
Funeral For A Friend - Roses for the Dead
Jimmy Eat World - Pain
Motion City Soundtrack - My Favorite Accident
Sugarcult - Memory
The Starting Line - Bedroom Talk
Thursday - War All the Time
Spartan
Two roads split off from here
And my life goes running in opposite directions
Exaggerating the barrier between who I am and who I want to be
I wanted to be that breath of fresh air
When everything smelled so insincere
But this taste still lingers in my mouth
Deceit has ways of sticking around
And I'm ready to disappear
Vacation seems far from here
Note to self: I miss you terribly
This is what we call a tragedy
Come back to me, come back to me, to me
I can feel my mind wandering again
Into where I don't know, and will I ever get home?
Time starts moving faster than I can
And I'm sick of this scene
I need a break from routine
[Verse]
Which part of me is lost?
I feel so close, and yet I am so far
Which part of me is lost?
I feel so close, and yet I am so far
Angelic Obscurities
[Instrumental Intro]
[Chorus]
Two roads split off from here
And my life goes running in opposite directions
Exaggerating the barrier between
Who I am and who I want to be!
[Guitar Solo]
[Verse 1]
I wanted to be that breath of fresh air
When everything smelled so insincere
But this taste still lingers in my mouth, deceit has ways of sticking
Around, and I'm ready to disappear, vacation seems far from here
[Bridge]
Note to self, I miss you terribly, this is what we call a tragedy
Come back to me, come back to me
Note to self, I miss you terribly, this is what we call a tragedy
Come back to me, back to me, to me
[Pre-Chorus]
I can feel my mind wandering again
Into where I don't know, and will I ever get home?
Time starts moving faster than I can
And I'm sick of this scene, I need a break from routine
I can feel my mind wandering again
Into where I don't know, and will I ever get home?
Time starts moving faster than I can
And I'm sick of this scene, I need a break from routine
[Chorus]
Two roads split off from here
And my life goes running in opposite directions
Exaggerating the barrier between
Who I am and who I want to...
[Outro]
Which part of me is lost?
I feel so close, and yet, I am so far (I am so far!)
Which part of me is lost?
I feel so close, and yet, I am so far...
[Instrumental Outro]
Aero Bim
Two roads, split off from here
And my life goes running in opposite directions
Exaggerating the barrier between who I am, and who I want to be
I wanted to be that breath of fresh air
When everything smelled so insincere
But this taste still lingers in my mouth
Deceit has ways of sticking around
And I'm ready to disappear
Vacation seems far from here
Note to self, I miss you terribly
This is what, we call a tragedy
Come back to me, Come back to me, to me
Note to self, I miss you terribly
This is what, we call a tragedy
Come back to me, back to me, to me
I can feel my mind, wandering again
Into where I don't know, and will I ever get home?
Time starts moving, faster than I can
And I'm sick of this scene, I need to break the routine
I can feel my mind, wandering again
Into where I don't know, and will I ever get home?
Time starts moving, faster than I can
And I'm sick of this scene
I need to break the routine
Two roads, split off from here
And my life goes running in opposite directions
Exaggerating the barrier between who I am
And who I want to be
Which part of me is lost?
I feel so close, and yet I am so far
Which part of me is lost?
I feel so close, and yet I am so, far
OtakuSlam
Two roads, split off from here,
And my life goes running in opposite directions.
Exaggerating the barrier between who I am, and who I want to be.
I wanted to be that breath of fresh air,
When everything smelled so insincere.
But this taste still lingers in my mouth,
Deceit has ways of sticking around.
And I'm ready to disappear, Vacation seems far...From here.
Note to self: I miss you terribly.
This is what, we call a tragedy.
Come back to me, Come back to me, To me.
Note to self: I miss you terribly.
This is what, we call a tragedy.
Come back to me, back to me, to me.
I can feel my mind, wandering again.
Into where I don't know, and will I ever get home?
Time starts moving, faster than I can.
And I'm sick of this scene, I need to break the routine.
I can feel my mind, wandering again.
Into where I don't know, and will I ever get home?
Time starts moving, faster than I can.
And I'm sick of this scene, I need to break the routine.
Two roads, split off from here,
And my life goes running in opposite directions.
Exaggerating the barrier between who I am, and who I want to be.
Which part of me is lost? I feel so close, and yet I am so far.
Which part of me is lost? I feel so close, and yet I am so, far!
lol k
If you're still listening to this fifteen years later, it wasn't just a phase.
Darren Wolfanger
trueeeee =D
Jason Scott
@M what?! Lol you don’t even know in what context I’m talking about “moved on”
Why are you even here then?
M
@Jason Scott how sad
Jason Scott
Damn right, I grew up but never moved on lol
Produced by 3AM
i never had an emo phase i just like the music
Nail bat
A Vain Attempt - You Broke My Heart
AFI - Girl's Not Grey
Aiden - Knife Blood Nightmare
Alesana - Apology
Alexisonfire - This Could Be Anywhere In the World
Blessthefall - Guys Like You Make Us Look Bad
Brand New - The Quiet Things That No One Ever Knows
Chiodos - The Words "Best Friend" Become Redefined
Dashboard Confessional - Hands Down
Dead Poetic - New Medicines
Dear Whoever - Tears of Ashes
Drop Dead, Gorgeous - Dresed for Friend Requests
Emanuel - Make Tonight
Escape the Fate - Not Good Enough for Truth In Cliche'
Eyes Set to Kill - Darling
Finch - What It Is to Burn
From Autumn to Ashes - Alive out of Habit
From First to Last - Note to Self
Funeral for a Friend - Moments Forever Faded
Greeley Estates - Through Waiting
Hawthorne Heights - Ohio Is for Lovers
Hidden In Plain View - Twenty Below
Hopes Die Last - Call Me Sick Boy
Matchbook Romance - My Eyes Burn
My Chemical Romance - Im Not Okay (I Promise)
Reclaim the Fallen - A Fire In My Heart
Saosin - Seven Years
Senses Fail - Bloody Romance
Silverstein - My Heroine
Something Corporate - I Woke Up In a Car
Story of the Year - Until the Day I Die
Taking Back Sunday - Cute Without the 'E' (Cut From the Team)
The Blackout - Murder In the Make Believe Balroom
The Early November - I Want to Hear You Sad
The Red Jumpsuit Apparatus - Face Down
The Used - The Taste of Ink
Thrice - Stare At the Sun
Underoath - Reinventing Your Exit
Aiamj
la crème de la crème
Phurpl
Alesana was a local band. I still remember them playing at the salty dog in New Bern. Sad that shows like that don't happen anymore. Back then every weekend there was always a show to go too.
TastyBeef44X
30 Seconds To Mars - The Kill
Anberlin - The Feel Good Drag
Armor For Sleep - Remember to Feel Real
Bayside - Devotion and Desire
Coheed and Cambria - A Favor House Atlantic
Emery - Walls
Fall Out Boy - Grand Theft Autumn / Where Is Your Boy
Funeral For A Friend - Roses for the Dead
Jimmy Eat World - Pain
Motion City Soundtrack - My Favorite Accident
Sugarcult - Memory
The Starting Line - Bedroom Talk
Thursday - War All the Time