Am I Alive
From Indian Lakes Lyrics
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When the closet door is the only source of light?
And the whole ride home you were mine
'til the front door closes leavin' me to fight
Back all these things that I've been feelin'
Like a lost cause
When I know you're trying hard to make me right
And I'm holding out my hand to you
And I need you to reassure me I'm alive
Am I alive
Can you take me home, if it's alright?
I can't look away but I don't wanna meet your eyes
I wish I'd been a little more careful
With the things I chose to give away
But if I can't make this up to you I'll
Find some way to make it through these feelings
Like a lost cause
When I know you're trying hard to make me right
And I'm holding out my hand to you
But you slip right thru my fingers
And I need you to reassure me I'm alive
Am I alive
I hear them whisper so softly
Tellin' me not hold my breathe
They're closer
The demons
And I can't fight 'em off without you I've been feelin'
Like a lost cause
When I know you're working hard to make me right
And I'm holding out my hand to you
But you slip right thru my fingers
And I need you to reassure me I'm alive
Am I alive
The lyrics to "I Am Aware" by From Indian Lakes convey a sense of confusion and uncertainty in a relationship. The singer seems to be struggling with their own emotions, unsure of whether or not they are truly alive. They question the validity of their own existence and seek validation from their partner, who they feel slipping through their fingers. The use of vivid imagery, such as the shaking of bones and the only source of light being from a closet door, help paint a picture of the singer's state of mind.
The chorus suggests that the singer is aware that their partner is trying to help them, but they are struggling to hold onto them. They feel like a lost cause, and are desperate for reassurance that they are alive. The second verse introduces the idea of regret, with the singer wishing they had been more careful with the things they gave away. They suggest that they will find a way to make it up to their partner, but the underlying sense of uncertainty and insecurity remains.
The bridge introduces a darker tone, with the singer hearing whispered voices telling them not to hold their breath. These voices are described as demons, and the singer feels like they cannot fight them off without their partner. The final chorus echoes the previous ones, emphasizing the singer's need for reassurance and validation, asking "Am I alive?"
Overall, "I Am Aware" is a deeply introspective and emotional song about the struggles of a relationship, and the impact it can have on one's state of mind. The use of vivid imagery and powerful vocals helps convey the singer's sense of confusion and desperation.
Line by Line Meaning
When it shakes your bones is it alright
Does it make you feel okay when everything around you feels unstable and uncertain?
When the closet door is the only source of light?
Do you ever feel trapped and suffocated in your own darkness and struggles?
And the whole ride home you were mine
At one point in time, you were everything to me and we were in this together.
'til the front door closes leavin' me to fight
Once we're apart, I have to face my own demons and fight my own battles.
Back all these things that I've been feelin'
All of the emotions and thoughts that I've been holding back and not expressing.
Like a lost cause
It feels like there's no hope and I'm beyond help or redemption.
When I know you're trying hard to make me right
You're doing your best to help me and make things better, but it's not always enough.
And I'm holding out my hand to you
I'm reaching out for your help and support.
But you slip right through my fingers
You're not always able to give me what I need or be there for me when I need you the most.
And I need you to reassure me I'm alive
I need you to remind me that I'm not alone and that I'm still here, living and breathing.
Am I alive
Sometimes it's hard to tell if I'm really alive and present in the moment or just going through the motions.
Can you take me home, if it's alright?
Can you give me a sense of safety and security, even if it's just temporary?
I can't look away but I don't wanna meet your eyes
I'm torn between wanting to be close to you and feeling vulnerable around you.
I wish I'd been a little more careful
I regret some of the choices I've made and wish I could go back and do things differently.
With the things I chose to give away
I've given away parts of myself and my heart to others, sometimes without realizing it.
But if I can't make this up to you I'll
If I can't make things right or fix what's broken, then what?
Find some way to make it through these feelings
I'll do whatever it takes to get through the pain and heartache of this situation.
I hear them whisper so softly
The negative thoughts and doubts in my head are always there, lurking in the background.
Tellin' me not hold my breath
They're warning me not to get my hopes up or expect too much.
They're closer
The demons and negative thoughts are getting stronger and more present in my life.
And I can't fight 'em off without you I've been feelin'
I need your help and support to keep my demons at bay and overcome my struggles.
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@lovergirl5013
LYRICS:
when it shakes your bones is it alright
when the closet door is the only source of light?
and when the whole ride home you were mine
'til the front door closes leavin' me to fight back all the things I've been feelin'
like i'm a lost cause
when I know you're trying hard to make me right
and I'm holding out my hand to you
but you slip through my fingers
and I need you to reassure me that I'm alive
am i alive? [4x]
can you take me home, if it's alright?
I can't look away but I don't wanna meet your eyes
I wish I'd been a little more careful with the things I chose to giveaway
but If i can't make this up to you i'll find someway to make it through these feelings
like i'm a lost cause
when I know you're trying hard to make me right
and I'm holding out my hand to you
but you slip through my fingers
and I need you to reassure me that I'm alive
am i alive? [8x]
i hear them whisper so softly
telling me not to hold my breath
they're closer
the demons
and i can't fight......
@CarsandGuitars100
This band played at one of our worst venues (acoustically), and they sounded literally perfect. That my friends, is how you tell a specific musician or band is worth the time [and money].
@Andrewtimoni
Radiant? haha
@mattc8213
we have the same photo :)
@Broganshire
This music video is amazing. I am surprised this isn't way more popular.
@josepepe7784
Idc if the video isn't that popular or song, this video deserves am award its a freaking masterpiece, like the whole time while listening to the song I'm just staring at the lead singers lips and wondering how long it had to take to get ever single lyric mouthed just right underwater, probably the best music video I've ever seen
@cheri618
this song makes my hear skip a beat. I'm being serious my heart skipped a beat when I first heard this song. Just..beautiful
@hannahanderson9117
I fucking KNOW 😭 I can't believe I'm just now listening to them.
@bnanax3683
6 years later, I hope you sought medical care for your arrhythmia.
@lovergirl5013
LYRICS:
when it shakes your bones is it alright
when the closet door is the only source of light?
and when the whole ride home you were mine
'til the front door closes leavin' me to fight back all the things I've been feelin'
like i'm a lost cause
when I know you're trying hard to make me right
and I'm holding out my hand to you
but you slip through my fingers
and I need you to reassure me that I'm alive
am i alive? [4x]
can you take me home, if it's alright?
I can't look away but I don't wanna meet your eyes
I wish I'd been a little more careful with the things I chose to giveaway
but If i can't make this up to you i'll find someway to make it through these feelings
like i'm a lost cause
when I know you're trying hard to make me right
and I'm holding out my hand to you
but you slip through my fingers
and I need you to reassure me that I'm alive
am i alive? [8x]
i hear them whisper so softly
telling me not to hold my breath
they're closer
the demons
and i can't fight......
@lovergirl5013
them off without you i've been feeling like a lost cause
when I know you're working hard to make me right
and I'm holding my hand you
but you slip through my fingers and I need you to assure me that I'm alive
am i alive [4x]