The Monster
From Indian Lakes Lyrics

I hate to say it but it never felt quite right.
I have a feeling that something in my life is amiss, yet I don't want to admit it.

I'm pointing fingers and I'm holding the knife.
I'm blaming others for my problems, when really it's my own fault.

You want to stand around and stare at the night.
You are content with just watching things go by without taking any action.

We're only happy when we turn out the lights.
We only feel comfortable in the darkness because it hides our true selves.

I never told you it was going to be this way.
I didn't warn you that life would be difficult and confusing.

I only said enough to get you to stay.
I enticed you to stay with me, even though I knew I couldn't give you what you wanted.

I'm beginning to wake myself up.
I'm realizing that I need to take control of my life and wake up from my complacency.

I've been dreaming of monsters in love.
I have been struggling with a dark side of myself that I've been trying to suppress even though it's a part of me.

Now I can't get out the taste of blood.
I am finding it difficult to let go of the violent and destructive tendencies within me.

I was a normal kid no one could see I had a monster growing in me.
I appeared to be like any other normal kid, but underneath I was struggling with my own inner demons.

I always kept it down. I was always good enough.
I tried to suppress my own demons and behaved in socially acceptable ways, but it was never enough to truly make me happy.

You're calling me out.
You are trying to make me face my own problems and take responsibility for my own actions.

You tell me not to sell myself so short.
You are encouraging me to have more confidence in myself and not settle for less than I deserve.

It's weighing me down.
The weight of my problems is becoming too much for me to bear on my own.

You don't want me to go on like this anymore.
You don't want me to continue living my life in a self-destructive and unhappy manner.