So Close So Far Away
Futuristic Lyrics

What the fuck am I gon' do now
Feeling lost and unsure of my next move.

I shoulda got my college degree
Regretting not pursuing higher education.

It seemed like everybody moving on
Feeling left behind while others progress.

But nobody saved a seat for me
Feeling excluded and alone in my struggles.

I'm scrolling through my phone
Trying to distract myself from my problems.

Texting bitches that I know
Using temporary satisfaction to fill the void.

But I just can't seem to get a reply
Still feeling empty and unfulfilled despite attempts to distract myself.

I'm staring in the mirror
Facing my fear and uncertainty head on.

I see the fear of failure in my eyes
Recognizing my own insecurities and doubts.

I don't know what else I can try
Feeling hopeless and at a loss for solutions.

I'm drowning in a sea, my emotions
Overwhelmed by my intense feelings.

Destiny ain't in your hands
Feeling powerless and lacking control over my life.

Soul is broken, feeling hopeless
Feeling completely defeated and despairing.

But no moping, still been going
Despite feeling defeated, still trying to persist and not give up.

Don't smoke, but lately I'm smoking
Using unhealthy coping mechanisms to deal with my stress.

Fourth quarter, feel like I'm choking
Feeling like I'm running out of time and struggling to stay afloat.

I spit my dough, I'm the brokest
Giving everything I have, even if it feels like it's not enough.

Still feel my flow, it's the coldest
Confident in my talent despite my struggles.

My story, I just retold it
Repeating the same narrative and feeling stuck in my own story.

Over and over and over
Feeling trapped in a cycle of repetition.

I'm so close and I'm so far
Feeling like success is within reach, but still struggling to attain it.

And I'm so dope, that's what I thought
Believing in my own talent and potential.

I'm working hard, I'm working smart
Trying my best and putting in effort to achieve success.

But I'm still stuck in the same spot
Feeling like I'm not making progress despite my efforts.

Somebody help me, somebody help me, somebody help me
Desperately seeking assistance and guidance.

I try to get wealthy, just wanna pay my bills
Aspiring to financial stability and the ability to cover basic needs.

I'm looking at pictures from all my friends graduations
Comparing myself to others and feeling inferior.

Smiles on their families faces, nothing but happy occasions
Feeling envy towards others who seem to have it all.

Marriages, having babies, I ain't close to that at all
Feeling behind in important life milestones compared to peers.

My relationship with this music made my others fall apart
Sacrificing personal relationships for the pursuit of a music career.

And I can't talk about this shit for nothing
Feeling like no one understands my struggles and unable to share my frustrations with others.

Nobody comprehends it, they see the ending
Feeling misunderstood and not being empathized with in my struggles.

But don't get I had to start to finish
Acknowledging the hard work and effort put in, even if it is not visible to others.

You wanna do it too? The truth is I don't recommend it
Warning others about the difficulties and sacrifices involved in pursuing a music career.

Politics and money's what matters, fuck if you extra gifted
Feeling disillusioned with the music industry and its emphasis on money over talent.

Best of wishes to the women that I've loved and lost
Reflecting on past romantic relationships and wishing them well.

Drifting through these conversations
Feeling disconnected and detached from social interactions.

Sifting through my other thoughts
Trying to make sense of my emotions and inner turmoil.

Awkward tension, cause we both know that its over
Feeling awkward and uncomfortable around former romantic partners.

Emotional Rollercoaster, starting to become my favorite song, so
Feeling like life is a constant cycle of highs and lows and getting used to the struggle.