Envy
Gao the Arsonist Lyrics
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Spat congratulations, saying left a bullshit after taste
Tension high as opera singer's frequencies that shatter plates
Huh, shove my knuckles through the same gap that the laughter came
Pass the cane/Cain
I'm not able/Abel to see the impressive factor
Stingy giving props, tick me off the list of benefactors
Huh
Adders slither through the overgrowth I, play with matchsticks in the pastures
Burn me, nigga, take me straight to Salem, death is heaven sent
Rather bite the bullet than be put where envy tends to vent
Strip my bluffs and fuck 'em like the clubs where plenty twenties spent
Excelling next to me, you get a mouth of empty sentiment
Subtle, beat-up in the tunnel on a summer weekend
Puddled blood appears your stomach weakens
Pummel peons broke a couple teeth to comfort demons
It's unbelievable I, choke my mind, delete my being
Every time I run a beating I get so envious
Every time I run a beating I get so envious
Anxious in this state I panic, rancid in my acid sage
Entranced, faded, while erratic in the manic phase
I go insane when I'm alone, myself and my brain
Have to kill my thoughts, inferno upon the canna
Evaporate like I'm Gallifrey
Cellos cry for the lost talent
Lost balance, fall and shatter my jaw
Can't talk now it's one o'clock
And sirens are spitting their soft ballads, lulling me
My body finds itself at the landing of tall mountains
In the shadow of a boulder face
Burn a couple bridges just to show they can't support the weight
Fuck 'em
Empty shipping wooden coffins out from Birnam straight to Dunsinane
Burn em with the Bunsen, Ga
My cup of blood sweat and tears is your beverage shade
Envy crept in easy as the fucking edges on a blade cut
My smile so rusty, getting tetanus from a gaze, fuck
Being less cause terror like a single mother's pay cut
Take up the mantle of the handle bar gripper
Lemme gather all your victories I'm spiteful of and cycle through
Pastor said don't covet but right now I'm finna light the crucifix up/fix up
My own mind my own shit like the idle do
Eyes are glued
To heights that you
Climbed up to
Devised a fool proof scheme to
Always feel like I'm the su-perior
I lie to you
To me, I brag that i could do it
Act like clad in rags, hold cocktails
Violent like a pyro's booze
Well fuck I'm tired too
I'm breaking/braking, check tyre marks
Just want at least equality, this shit would even tire Marx
Animal for damaged pride, more musk than the entire ark
If scavenging for self esteem ain't work why don't I try a carcass
Subtle, beat-up in the tunnel on a summer weekend
Puddled blood appears your stomach weakens
Pummel peons broke a couple teeth to comfort demons
It's unbelievable I, choke my mind, delete my being
Every time I run a beating I get so envious
Every time I run a beating I get so envious
The lyrics to Gao the Arsonist's song "Envy" showcase the rapper's struggle with feelings of jealousy and envy toward others' success. He admits to being the "bastard" who seeks after accolades, but only to "shove his knuckles through the same gap that the laughter came." He acknowledges the tension high enough to shatter plates, comparing it to the frequency of an opera singer. Gao also discusses his unwillingness to acknowledge others' achievements, making him stingy in giving props to those he believes do not deserve it. He then admits to being envious of those achieving next to him, and how he feels like he's constantly running a race to keep up.
Gao describes the physical and emotional pain he feels as he struggles with himself. He's anxious, panicked, and feels like he's going insane every time he's alone with his brain. He finds himself in the darkness, in the shadow of a boulder face. Gao takes things to the extreme, burning bridges, empty shipping wooden coffins, and even breaking tires with his car. He just wants to feel equal with those who he envies.
Overall, the lyrics to "Envy" are raw and honest, showing the struggles and pain that come with feeling envy and jealousy towards others.
Line by Line Meaning
I'm the bastard who's after your accolades
I am the person who is jealous of your accomplishments
Spat congratulations, saying left a bullshit after taste
I pretend to compliment you but really mean the opposite
Tension high as opera singer's frequencies that shatter plates
The tension between us is very high and intense
Huh, shove my knuckles through the same gap that the laughter came
I am filled with anger and want to punch something over your success
Pass the cane/Cain
A play on words referencing Cain, the biblical character known for killing his brother out of jealousy
I'm not able/Abel to see the impressive factor
I am unable to see anything impressive about your achievements
Stingy giving props, tick me off the list of benefactors
I am unwilling to give credit where credit is due and become angry when I am not acknowledged
Huh
What the fuck mean I'm jealous
I become defensive when someone suggests that I am jealous
Adders slither through the overgrowth I, play with matchsticks in the pastures
I take pleasure in destructive behavior, comparing it to playing with matches
Burn me, nigga, take me straight to Salem, death is heaven sent
I would rather die than have to deal with my envy
Rather bite the bullet than be put where envy tends to vent
I would prefer to choose my own pain than suffer from the consequences of my envy
Strip my bluffs and fuck 'em like the clubs where plenty twenties spent
Expose my lies and weaknesses like a stripper, as if I am worth nothing
Excelling next to me, you get a mouth of empty sentiment
When someone succeeds next to me, all I can offer them is insincere praise
Subtle, beat-up in the tunnel on a summer weekend
An intense fight or struggle that often goes unnoticed
Puddled blood appears your stomach weakens
The sight of blood makes you feel sick
Pummel peons broke a couple teeth to comfort demons
I take out my frustrations on those weaker than me
It's unbelievable I, choke my mind, delete my being
My negative thoughts consume me and make me feel like I am losing myself
Every time I run a beating I get so envious
Whenever someone does better than me, I become extremely jealous
Anxious in this state I panic, rancid in my acid sage
My jealousy causes me to become anxious and angry
Entranced, faded, while erratic in the manic phase
I become obsessed with my jealousy, entering a state of chaos
I go insane when I'm alone, myself and my brain
When I am alone, my jealousy takes over and makes me feel crazy
Have to kill my thoughts, inferno upon the canna
I have to get rid of my jealous thoughts, which feel like a burning fire inside me
Evaporate like I'm Gallifrey
Disappear like a fictional planet from the TV show Doctor Who
Cellos cry for the lost talent
The sound of cellos creates a mournful feeling for lost talent or opportunities
Lost balance, fall and shatter my jaw
My jealousy causes me to lose stability and hurt myself
Can't talk now it's one o'clock
And sirens are spitting their soft ballads, lulling me
I am distracted by the sounds of sirens and cannot focus
My body finds itself at the landing of tall mountains
In the shadow of a boulder face
I feel small and insignificant next to those who have achieved more than me
Burn a couple bridges just to show they can't support the weight
Fuck 'em
I cut people off and burn bridges with them just to prove that they are not important to me
Empty shipping wooden coffins out from Birnam straight to Dunsinane
Burn em with the Bunsen, Ga
Burn wooden coffins that are being shipped without anyone inside them, referencing Shakespeare's Macbeth
My cup of blood sweat and tears is your beverage shade
My hard work and effort mean nothing to you
Envy crept in easy as the fucking edges on a blade cut
My jealousy came easily, like being cut by a sharp blade
My smile so rusty, getting tetanus from a gaze, fuck
My fake smile is so old and worn out, it may as well give me tetanus
Being less cause terror like a single mother's pay cut
Being demoted or looked down upon causes a lot of fear and stress, like a mother losing her source of income
Take up the mantle of the handle bar gripper
Lemme gather all your victories I'm spiteful of and cycle through
Take your place and become successful, while I reap the benefits of your accomplishments
Pastor said don't covet but right now I'm finna light the crucifix up/fix up
Reference to biblical commandment not to covet, but I am so jealous that I want to destroy religious symbols
My own mind my own shit like the idle do
I am stuck in my own jealousy and negative thoughts, like someone with nothing to do
Eyes are glued
To heights that you
Climbed up to
Devised a fool proof scheme to
I am fixated on the successes you have achieved, and am coming up with a way to surpass you
Always feel like I'm the su-perior
I lie to you
I always want to feel superior to you, but I lie to myself to believe it
To me, I brag that i could do it
Act like clad in rags, hold cocktails
Violent like a pyro's booze
I act like I am better than you, even if it is not true. I am violent and act like a pyromaniac
Well fuck I'm tired too
I'm breaking/braking, check tyre marks
Just want at least equality, this shit would even tire Marx
I am tired of feeling jealous and angry all the time. I wish we could be equal, even a huge socialist like Marx would tire of this
Animal for damaged pride, more musk than the entire ark
I become an animal when my pride is hurt and become more overpowering than even the largest ship
If scavenging for self esteem ain't work why don't I try a carcass
If my attempts to find self-esteem through other means has not worked, I should try something even more desperate
Lyrics © DistroKid
Written by: Othneil Gayle
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