At the heart of his appeal is a lyrical honesty and devotion to his fans seldom found in today's mainstream musical landscape. And his fans love him for it. As testament to this artist-fan connection, out of 1,700 artists entered in the SSL/Eventful/Tunecore "Lay It Down And Mix It Up In The UK" Contest, Gavin took first place, winning by a margin of over 13,000 votes and more than doubling the number of votes cast for the second place finisher. Having won, Gavin traveled to Peter Gabriel's Real World Studios to begin work on his new studio album (due for release in 2013). Like his previous offerings, the album is sure to please fans and critics alike, showcasing his poignant lyrics, true musicianship, and further setting him apart from other artists in the piano singer-songwriter genre. Talented, down-to-earth, and with songs that touch the soul, Gavin is truly one to watch in 2013.
Amnesia
Gavin Mikhail Lyrics
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I thought about our last kiss, how it felt, the way tasted
And even though your friends tell me your doin' fine
Are you somewhere feeling lonely even though he's right beside you
When he says those words that hurt you, do you read the ones I wrote you?
Sometimes I start to wonder; was it just a lie?
If what we had was real, how could you be fine?
'Cause I'm not fine at all...
I remember the makeup runnin' down your face.
And the dreams you left behind you didn't need them,
Like every single wish we ever made.
I wish that I could wake up with amnesia,
And forget about the stupid little things.
Like the way it felt to fall asleep next to you,
And the memories I never can escape;
'Cause I'm not fine at all...
The pictures that you sent me, they're stil l livin' in my phone
I admit I like to see them, I'll admit I feel alone
And all my friend keep asking why you're not around...
It hurts to know your happy, yeah it hurts that you've moved on
It's hard to hear your name when I haven't seen you in so long
It's like we never happened, what is just a lie?
If what we had was real, how could you be fine?
'Cause I'm not fine at all...
I remember the day you told me you were leaving,
I remember the makeup runnin' down your face.
And the dreams you left behind, you didn't need them,
Like every-single wish we ever made.
I wish that I could wake up with amnesia,
And forget about the stupid little things.
Like the way it felt to fall asleep next to you,
And the memories I never can escape.
If today I woke up with you right beside me,
Like all of this was just some twisted dream;
I'd hold you closer than I ever did before,
And you'd never slip away, you'd never hear me say:
I remember the day you told me you were leaving,
I remember the makeup runnin' down your face.
And the dreams you left behind, you didn't need them,
Like every-single wish we ever made.
I wish that I could wake up with amnesia,
And forget about the stupid little things,
Like the way if felt to fall asleep next to you,
And the memories I never can escape.
'Cause I'm not fine at all...
I'm really not fine at all...
Tell me this is just a dream,
I'm really not fine at all.
The lyrics of Gavin Mikhail's song "Amnesia" portray a heartbroken and pensive man driving by the places where he and his ex-lover used to spend their time. He cannot help but think about the last time they kissed and try to understand why she could move on while he is still struggling to come to terms with the split. He is aware that her friends claim that she is doing well, but he wonders whether she is truly happy or feels isolated even while being physically close to another man. He cannot help but reminisce about the memories they shared, and the pain lingers and haunts him. He wishes he could forget everything about his past relationship with her, including the sad parting, the painful promises of never forgetting each other, and the longing for those happier moments that they had shared.
The song captures the emotions of heartbreak, loss, and moments of deep introspection, which many people can relate to. It portrays the complex, raw and fragile nature of human emotions that can be triggered by memories or circumstances that seem to bear a semblance to a past moment of misery or joy. It represents the duality of wanting to be with someone so bad yet knowing that it's not feasible or even possible. Gavin's raw, emotion-filled and commanding voice brings out the emotion in the lyrics and makes the song a cathartic experience for anyone that has ever gone through some sort of loss.
Line by Line Meaning
I drove by all the places we used to hang out getting wasted
I passed by the locations where we regularly used to get drunk and spend time together
I thought about our last kiss, how it felt, the way tasted
I reminisced about our final kiss and how it was and tasted like
And even though your friends tell me your doin' fine
Although your companions reveal that you're doing alright
Are you somewhere feeling lonely even though he's right beside you
Are you somewhere thinking lonely even though he is present beside you
When he says those words that hurt you, do you read the ones I wrote you?
When he says those hurtful words, do you ever read the words that I wrote for you?
Sometimes I start to wonder; was it just a lie?
I occasionally begin to question if everything was simply fake
If what we had was real, how could you be fine?
If what we shared was genuine, how could you be okay?
'Cause I'm not fine at all...
Because I am not okay at all...
I remember the day you told me you were leaving,
I recall the day you informed me that you were departing
I remember the makeup runnin' down your face.
I recollect your makeup running down your face.
And the dreams you left behind you didn't need them,
You abandoned the dreams that you didn't require anymore,
Like every-single wish we ever made.
Just like every single desire we ever had.
I wish that I could wake up with amnesia,
I yearn for a condition where I could arise without memories
And forget about the stupid little things.
And neglect the trivial things we used to do.
Like the way it felt to fall asleep next to you,
Like the feeling of falling asleep beside you
And the memories I never can escape;
And the memories that always remain
'Cause I'm not fine at all...
Because I am not okay at all...
The pictures that you sent me, they're still living' in my phone
The photographs you sent me are still within my mobile phone
I admit I like to see them, I'll admit I feel alone
I concede that I like to look at them, and I also confess that I'm by myself
And all my friends keep asking why you're not around...
All my acquaintances keep questioning why you're not present...
It hurts to know you're happy, yeah, it hurts that you've moved on
It's painful to realize that you're happy, and it's also painful that you have moved on
It's hard to hear your name when I haven't seen you in so long
It's arduous to hear your name when I have not seen you in a long time
It's like we never happened, what is just a lie?
It's akin to we never existed, or was it all a falsehood?
If what we had was real, how could you be fine?
If what we shared was genuine, how could you be okay?
'Cause I'm not fine at all...
Because I am not okay at all...
If today I woke up with you right beside me,
If I woke up today with you right beside me
Like all of this was just some twisted dream;
As if everything that happened was simply a bizarre dream;
I'd hold you closer than I ever did before,
I would embrace you closer than ever before
And you'd never slip away, you'd never hear me say:
And you would never depart, and you would never hear me utter
I remember the day you told me you were leaving,
I recollect the day you informed me that you were departing
I remember the makeup runnin' down your face.
I recollect your makeup running down your face.
And the dreams you left behind you didn't need them,
You abandoned the dreams that you didn't require anymore,
Like every-single wish we ever made.
Just like every single desire we ever had.
I wish that I could wake up with amnesia,
I yearn for a condition where I could arise without memories
And forget about the stupid little things,
And neglect the trivial things we used to do.
Like the way it felt to fall asleep next to you,
Like the feeling of falling asleep beside you
And the memories I never can escape.
And the memories that always remain
'Cause I'm not fine at all...
Because I am not okay at all...
I'm really not fine at all...
I'm unequivocally not okay at all...
Tell me this is just a dream,
Please inform me that this is simply a dream,
I'm really not fine at all.
I'm unequivocally not okay at all.
Contributed by Peyton R. Suggest a correction in the comments below.
@penelopepenny9878
I drove by all the places we used to hang out getting wasted
I thought about our last kiss, how it felt, the way tasted
And even though your friends tell me your doin' fine
Are you somewhere feeling lonely even though he's right beside you
When he says those words that hurt you, do you read the ones I wrote you?
Sometimes I start to wonder; was it just a lie?
If what we had was real, how could you be fine?
'Cause I'm not fine at all...
I remember the day you told me you were leaving
I remember the makeup runnin' down your face
And the dreams you left behind you didn't need them
Like every single wish we ever made
I wish that I could wake up with amnesia
And forget about the stupid little things
Like the way it felt to fall asleep next to you
And the memories I never can escape;
'Cause I'm not fine at all...
The pictures that you sent me, they're stil l livin' in my phone
I admit I like to see them, I'll admit I feel alone
And all my friend keep asking why you're not around...
It hurts to know your happy, yeah it hurts that you've moved on
It's hard to hear your name when I haven't seen you in so long
It's like we never happened, what is just a lie?
If what we had was real, how could you be fine?
'Cause I'm not fine at all...
I remember the day you told me you were leaving
I remember the makeup runnin' down your face
And the dreams you left behind, you didn't need them
Like every-single wish we ever made
I wish that I could wake up with amnesia
And forget about the stupid little things
Like the way it felt to fall asleep next to you
And the memories I never can escape
If today I woke up with you right beside me
Like all of this was just some twisted dream;
I'd hold you closer than I ever did before
And you'd never slip away, you'd never hear me say:
I remember the day you told me you were leaving
I remember the makeup runnin' down your face
And the dreams you left behind, you didn't need them
Like every-single wish we ever made
I wish that I could wake up with amnesia
And forget about the stupid little things
Like the way if felt to fall asleep next to you
And the memories I never can escape
'Cause I'm not fine at all...
I'm really not fine at all...
Tell me this is just a dream
I'm really not fine at all
@annaazw
"The saddest thing ever is when you both loved each other, and then one day, one fell out of love and left the other still in love."
I adore you cover!
@isabel4379
annaazw where is that from??
@madeleinehenley7523
this cover is amazing, i feel it harder than the original.
@zZTheOneZz1
I listened the original song from 5SOS but your cover touched my heart.
@tylersimmons7200
Man this will drain ur eyes after a breakup
@alpals8796
Holy damn, I wasn't expecting to cry.
@gavinmikhail
+Al Pals Sorry about that... I tend to have that effect on people :)
@DragonsRuby
This is one of the few songs that absolutely destroys me to listen to. Don't know why I can't stop.
Thank you for your music!
@isabelbartley3752
Bro this song is way better than the original.............
Says everyone
@Nara-nl4xi
this cover deserves so much more views and likes, I usually don't like covers but this one is the most beautiful I've ever heard