Akyol is the daughter of fellow artist Muzaffer Akyol, and, like her father, she is involved in visual arts as well as being a graduate from cultural studies. Her debut solo record, Develerle Yaşıyorum, stroked a new chord in Turkish alternative music scene. She unearthed her own story expanded into nine tracks in May 2014. She gained notoriety in the scene as each parts of Toz ve Toz, and the local hypnotic "electro-acoustic" band Seni Görmem İmkansız with Tuğçe Şenoğul, now determined to continue her musical venture as a whimsical storyteller.
The singer's sound can be defined as ‘musiki’ rather than the old good muzak itself. An old school word used in Turkish language for music, be that a more sophisticated, oriental and spiritual sound.
Akyol received Best Artist award at Songlines Music Awards 2019.
Kendimden Kaçmaktan
Gaye Su Akyol Lyrics
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Uçurumlardan uçtum
Ölmedim ama süründüm
Kırlarda kendime mezar buldum
Senden uzak bir yuva kurdum
Günden güne kurudum
Ne yandın ne de kurudun
Uzaklardan tuzak kurdun
Sonsuz okyanusta sonlu aklım
Yıkandım aşkınla hep
Hep çıplak başa döndüm
Kendimden Kaçmaktan yorgun düştüm
Uçurumlardan uçtum
Ölmedim ama süründüm
Kırlarda kendime mezar buldum
Senden uzak bir yuva kurdum
Günden güne kurudum
The lyrics of Gaye Su Akyol's song "Kendimden Kaçmaktan" depict a sense of exhaustion and desperation resulting from running away from oneself. The singer expresses feeling tired of escaping and avoiding their true self. The repetitive nature of the line "Kendimden Kaçmaktan yorgun düştüm" emphasizes this weariness, suggesting that they have been trying to flee from their own identity for a long time.
The mention of flying off cliffs, accompanied by the line "Ölmedim ama süründüm" (I didn't die, but I crawled), conveys the idea that even though they have managed to survive, the journey has been difficult and has left them feeling low or degraded. This line might symbolize the risk taken to escape their own self, risking potential harm but still ending up in a vulnerable state.
In the subsequent lines, the singer describes finding a grave for themselves in the fields, away from the person they have been trying to distance themselves from. This can be seen as a metaphor representing the burying of their past self or shedding their previous identity. Creating a new home far from the influence of another person signifies the desire to establish a personal space free from the negative impact that person had on them. However, the following line, "Günden güne kurudum" (I dried up day by day), reveals that this distancing and the process of rebuilding oneself has been draining, leading to further emotional exhaustion.
The following passage, "Taş olsa yanar deniz olsa kururdu, Ne yandın ne de kurudun, Uzaklardan tuzak kurdun" (If it were stone, it would burn; if it were the sea, it would dry out. Neither burning nor drying, you laid traps from afar), portrays a contrast between what the singer anticipated from the escape and the reality they faced. It suggests that the expectations of transformation and growth were not fulfilled. The use of metaphors highlights the singer's disappointment as they reflect on their failed attempts to distance themselves, realizing that their efforts to build a new life and escape their own self have ultimately been fruitless.
The lyrics culminate with the lines "Sonsuz okyanusta sonlu aklım, Yıkandım aşkınla hep, Hep çıplak başa döndüm" (My finite mind in the infinite ocean, I always bathed in your love, always returning naked). These phrases convey the cyclical nature of the singer's experiences, where they repeatedly find themselves immersed in love, only to end up at the beginning again, stripped of all defenses and protection. The image of the infinite ocean and the finite mind suggests that regardless of their attempts to escape their own self or establish a new identity, they continue to face the same patterns and struggles.
Line by Line Meaning
Kendimden Kaçmaktan yorgun düştüm
I have become tired of running away from myself
Uçurumlardan uçtum
I flew away from the cliffs
Ölmedim ama süründüm
I did not die but I crawled
Kırlarda kendime mezar buldum
In the fields, I found a grave for myself
Senden uzak bir yuva kurdum
I built a home far away from you
Günden güne kurudum
I dried up day by day
Taş olsa yanar deniz olsa kururdu
If it were a stone, it would burn; if it were the sea, it would dry up
Ne yandın ne de kurudun
You neither burned nor dried up
Uzaklardan tuzak kurdun
You set traps from a distance
Sonsuz okyanusta sonlu aklım
My finite mind in the infinite ocean
Yıkandım aşkınla hep
I bathed in your love always
Hep çıplak başa döndüm
I always returned back naked
Lyrics © O/B/O APRA AMCOS
Written by: Gaye Su Akyol
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Buket
Kendimden kaçmaktan yorgun düştüm
Uçurumlardan uçtum
Ölmedim ama süründüm
Kırlarda kendime mezar buldum
Senden uzak bir yuva kurdum
Günden güne kurudum
Taş olsa yanar, deniz olsa kururdu
Ne yandın ne de kurudun
Uzaklardan tuzak kurdun
Sonsuz okyanusta sonlu aklım
Yıkandım aşkınla hep
Hep çıplak başa döndüm
Of, of, of
Of, of, of
Kendimden kaçmaktan yorgun düştüm
Uçurumlardan uçtum
Ölmedim ama süründüm
Kırlarda kendime mezar buldum
Senden uzakta bir yuva kurdum
Günden güne kurudum
Buket
Kendimden kaçmaktan yorgun düştüm
Uçurumlardan uçtum
Ölmedim ama süründüm
Kırlarda kendime mezar buldum
Senden uzak bir yuva kurdum
Günden güne kurudum
Taş olsa yanar, deniz olsa kururdu
Ne yandın ne de kurudun
Uzaklardan tuzak kurdun
Sonsuz okyanusta sonlu aklım
Yıkandım aşkınla hep
Hep çıplak başa döndüm
Of, of, of
Of, of, of
Kendimden kaçmaktan yorgun düştüm
Uçurumlardan uçtum
Ölmedim ama süründüm
Kırlarda kendime mezar buldum
Senden uzakta bir yuva kurdum
Günden güne kurudum
B
Çok çok güzel bir parça daha. bu tarz müziklerin piyasada daha çok olması ümidiyle
🖤
Onur Savaş
Günlük bir kaç kere dinleyip doz almadan olmuyor..
Agni Parvata
HA-Rİ-KA! İpek gibi akmış. Işığına, ruhuna, bedenine sağlık. Devamını bekliyoruz mutlaka! Namaste.. 🦁🙏💜
GiZem Hacer Keskin
Ellerinize sağlık. Tek kelimeyle 'Efsane' .
Adem Dedem
Tanrım bizi vesvesesiz bırakma.
sinem ucar
Remixten daha fazla biseyler var içinde..👏👏
The Sykolog
Çok başarılı.
haydaR can
ÇOOOK GÜZEL OLMUŞ.DİNLEDİKÇE DİNLEYESİM GELİYOR :)
Gurur Ozdil
sound çok iyi, her biri ayrı 🚀