Throughout the 90's, Ghoulspoon forged its own path and gained a reputation and following in the SoCal area through hard work and regional touring with the likes of Incubus, Korn, 311, Deftones, No Doubt, Sublime, Kid Rock, System of a Down, Static-X, Sugar Ray, Foo Fighters, The Cult, Snot, Kottonmouth Kings, Powerman 5000, and (hed) pe among many others. The band earned a huge fan base and many accolades including handfulls of San Diego Music Awards nominations and 1 win for "Best Hard Rock/Metal Band" in 2001.
Over its career, Ghoulspoon released several demos and 3 albums - “To Serve Man (1993)”, “Medication (1996)”, and “Fever (1999)”, selling over 10,000 units without the help of a manager, booking agent, or major record label. After going through years of lineup changes and enough scandal and debauchery to fill a two part VH1 Special, the band changed a few members and was reborn as Divided by Zero in 2002.
Crawlspace
Ghoulspoon Lyrics
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'Cause everything is stolen
Still alive in my self-appointed hell
The whole world is swollen
Watch the world in which I walked before I fell
I'm still growing
Still I maintain there is no one to tell
It just keeps on going
I am a spaceship I do not breathe
There is no one worth saving
So many things that I do not need
It takes so much to make them
Even if I'm on fire I cannot leave
There is nothing worth taking
I'll only lose my perfect disease
Thousands of lonely hands waving
Every face is a sad universe
When I represent
I resent
All of those who stare
When I represent
Resent
The lyrics of Ghoulspoon's Crawlspace express feelings of isolation, detachment, and hopelessness. The persona of the song seems to have constructed a self-contained space, a cell, where they choose to isolate themselves from the world. The use of the phrase "self-appointed hell" suggests that this cell might be a coping mechanism for dealing with inner demons. Moreover, the persona feels like everything around them is stolen, indicating a sense of betrayal, loss, or abandonment. Ultimately, the persona seems resigned to their fate as they maintain that no one can tell them anything about the world outside of their constructed cell, and the loneliness of the world is palpable, from the "swollen" nature of reality to the thousands of lonely hands waving.
The second stanza furthers the feeling of disconnect, as the persona identifies themselves as a spaceship that does not breathe, hinting that they might have surpassed the human experience, or are at least trying to. The nihilistic perspective of the persona is even more apparent as they claim that there is no one worth saving, and they do not need many things, emphasizing an ascetic lifestyle. The metaphor of being "on fire" but not leaving signifies a feeling of being stuck, unable to change the current circumstances, and that there is nothing worth taking with them. The song's haunting final verse "Every face is a sad universe" comments on the universality of the human experience, but it also highlights the isolating potential of our struggles.
Line by Line Meaning
I do five in my self-constructed cell
I spend five minutes in my self-made prison
'Cause everything is stolen
Everything I have is obtained illegitimately
Still alive in my self-appointed hell
Despite my self-inflicted anguish, I am alive
The whole world is swollen
The world is corrupted beyond recognition
Watch the world in which I walked before I fell
I observe the world I used to live in before my downfall
I'm still growing
I am still becoming stronger despite my struggles
Still I maintain there is no one to tell
I believe there is no one worth confiding in
It just keeps on going
My situation keeps worsening with time
I am a spaceship I do not breathe
I am a machine without emotions
There is no one worth saving
Nobody deserves my aid
So many things that I do not need
I possess numerous unnecessary objects
It takes so much to make them
It requires significant effort to obtain these items
Even if I'm on fire I cannot leave
Even if I am in peril, I cannot depart
There is nothing worth taking
Nothing is worth carrying with me
I'll only lose my perfect disease
I will only lose my ideal imperfections
Thousands of lonely hands waving
Many individuals express their grief in this environment
Every face is a sad universe
Each individual is dealing with their personal struggles and sorrow
When I represent
When I portray myself
I resent
I feel bitterness and anger
All of those who stare
Those who gaze upon me
Contributed by Nolan P. Suggest a correction in the comments below.
SandGoose0
@Jetr5115 It's kind of sad really, we could use ghoulspoon right about now.
Alessandro R Unger_*Alejandro*
Nu metal and rapcore
InkGhost
La mejor combinacion posible, la verdad tenemos un gusto muy particular