Serotonin
Girl In Red Lyrics

I'm running low on serotonin
I'm lacking the neurotransmitter serotonin in my body, which is causing symptoms like depression and anxiety.

Chemical imbalance got me twisting things
My brain chemistry is unstable and causing me to have distorted thoughts and beliefs.

Stabilize with medicine
I need to take medication to help stabilize my brain chemistry and alleviate my symptoms.

There's no depth to these feelings
Despite feeling intense emotions, there is a sense of emptiness and superficiality to them.

Dig deep, can't hide
I need to confront my emotions and face them head-on instead of trying to bury them.

From the corners of my mind
My feelings and emotions are constantly on my mind, and I can't escape them even if I try.

I'm terrified of what's inside
I'm scared of confronting the root causes of my mental health struggles and what I might uncover in the process.

Intrusive thoughts like cutting my hands off
I have disturbing and unwanted thoughts that are often violent or self-destructive.

Like jumping in front of a bus
These thoughts can be so overwhelming that I consider hurting or killing myself.

Like how do I make this stop
I don't know how to control or stop these thoughts from intruding on my mind.

When it feels like my therapist hates me
I feel unsupported by my therapist or mental health professional and fear that they don't actually care about helping me get better.

Please don't let me go crazy
I'm afraid of losing control and going insane from my mental health struggles.

Put me in a field with daisies
I wish my mental health struggles were as simple as being in a peaceful environment or enjoying nature.

Might not work but I'll take a maybe
I'm willing to try anything, even if it's unlikely to help, in order to alleviate my mental health symptoms.

Oh, been breaking daily
My mental health struggles are causing me to feel like I'm falling apart or breaking down every day.

But only me can save me
Ultimately, the responsibility falls on me to take care of my mental health and find ways to cope with my struggles.

So I'm capitulating
I'm surrendering to the fact that I can't control everything and need to accept help and support from others.

Crying like a fucking baby
I feel overwhelmed and emotional, and it's difficult to control my tears and reactions.

Incredibly impulsive
I act quickly and without thinking, often making choices that are harmful to myself or others.

But I try to contain it
Despite my impulses, I try to control my reactions and not act on them.

Oh, it gets so draining
Trying to control and contain my impulses and emotions is exhausting and takes a toll on my mental health.

Every night I'm contemplating
My mental health struggles keep me up at night, and I'm constantly ruminating on my thoughts and feelings.

My inner voices saying, 'tough'
My thoughts and beliefs are often negative and critical, pushing me to be harder on myself and not give into self-care or self-compassion.

So I try to brush it off
I attempt to remove myself from my negative thoughts and emotions in order to not let them control my life.