The new album “A Book Of Shadows” should now take GOM a huge step further on the road. Right after the personal motto of the band “If it’s real METAL, then it can be part of the GOM-sound”, this musical Witches Diary will plunge the listener into a whirlpool of various moods. Be it the brutal, yet melodic “Discordia”, the folky title-track (which features Ingeborg of ADORNED BROOD on flute and Zagan of BLACK MESSIAH on violin), the doomy and very emotional “Guardian Spirit” or the theatrical “...And Inanna Stood Unveiled” - GOAT OF MENDES once more will walk upon the Wiccan Way, straight into the heart of anyone who believes in the power of Nature and PURE FUCKIN’ METAL!
Belated Divine Abortion
Goat of Mendes Lyrics
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All hope is lost
I'm going to end my life
Upon a cross
A crown of thorns I wear
I writhe in pain
I perish slow as a martyr
Oh, my God, so dark, the nameless one
Oh, father, please, help thy son
My God, why did you leave me alone?
Are you still my father?
I don't want to meet a fate
Of this cruel kind
'But you will die for all mankind!'
Why must I sacrifice my life
For other's deeds?
'There must be one scapegoat that bleeds for them!'
Why does a father wish death
For his own son?
'Upon the earth you were abandoned!'
Oh, I can't see why all this has to be
'Trust me, for I am your God!'
'Sacrifice your flesh and blood for me!'
Please answer me
What this fate will mean to me at all?
I want to know for what reason I was born
Only to die forsaken and forlorn?
'You will obey your father's decision!'
Belated divine abortion
A life without a sense
Darkness now embraces me
At the threshold of eternity
I curse God, as heavy thunderclouds gather
As an example how to die
A most senseless way
I will become a God on my own
The lyrics of Goat of Mendes's song "Belated Divine Abortion" explore the inner turmoil and existential crisis of a person who is about to end their life on a cross. The singer questions the concept of sacrifice and why they must sacrifice their life for others. They feel abandoned by their father and question whether they are still loved or not. The lyrics show the singer's growing resentment towards God and his decision to curse him.
The lyrics also delve into the theme of martyrdom and the pain that comes with it. The singer wears a crown of thorns and suffers in agony, ultimately dying in vain. The concept of divine abortion is also explored, where the singer feels like his life is a senseless existence, and the act of sacrificing his life is akin to killing a life that was already without purpose. The final lines of the song suggest that the singer will become a god of his own after death, symbolizing the rejection of the traditional concept of God and religion.
Line by Line Meaning
I watch the brooding skies
I am filled with despair and have lost all hope, as I ponder upon the ominous skies above me.
All hope is lost
I am without hope, feeling completely defeated and desolate.
I'm going to end my life, Upon a cross
I am going to take my own life by tying myself to a cross, just like Jesus Christ did.
A crown of thorns I wear
I have placed upon my head a crown of thorns, much like the one Jesus wore, to symbolize my agony and the pain that I am experiencing.
I writhe in pain
I am suffering in immense pain, thrashing about in discomfort and distress.
I perish slow as a martyr, And die in vain
I am dying slowly and agonizingly, much like a martyr would, but my death is pointless and futile.
Oh, my God, so dark, the nameless one
I am referring to God as being dark, unsure of who or what he is and feeling lost in the darkness of my situation.
Oh, father, please, help thy son
I am asking for help from God, referring to him as my father, hoping that he will come to my aid in my moment of need.
My God, why did you leave me alone?
I am questioning God's existence and asking why I am left alone in my suffering and agony.
Are you still my father?
I am questioning the relationship between God and myself, wondering if he even cares about what I am going through.
I don't want to meet a fate Of this cruel kind
I don't want to have a fate like this, where I suffer greatly and die for no reason.
'But you will die for all mankind!'
I am being told that my death will have meaning and that I will be a sacrificial lamb for the sins of humanity.
Why must I sacrifice my life For other's deeds?
I am questioning why I have to suffer and die for the sins of others, when I have done nothing wrong.
'There must be one scapegoat that bleeds for them!'
I am being told that someone must be blamed and punished for the sins of others, and that person happens to be me.
Why does a father wish death For his own son?
I am questioning the nature of God, wondering why he would allow his own son to suffer and die for the sins of others.
'Upon the earth you were abandoned!'
I am being told that God abandoned me on Earth, leaving me to suffer and die alone.
Oh, I can't see why all this has to be
I am unable to comprehend why I have to die in this way, suffering for the sins of others.
'Trust me, for I am your God!'
I am being told to trust in God, despite the pain and suffering that I am experiencing.
'Sacrifice your flesh and blood for me!'
I am being asked to sacrifice my own life for the sake of God, to atone for the sins of others.
Please answer me, What this fate will mean to me at all?
I am asking God to explain to me what this fate of mine really means, and why I have to die for no reason.
I want to know for what reason I was born Only to die forsaken and forlorn?
I am questioning the point of being born, only to suffer and die alone, with no one to comfort or care for me.
'You will obey your father's decision!'
I am being told to obey God's will, to submit to my fate and accept the suffering that is to come.
Belated divine abortion
I represent a late and failed attempt at divine creation, a person who should never have been born.
A life without a sense
My life is meaningless and without purpose, just a mere existence filled with pain and suffering.
Darkness now embraces me
I am surrounded by darkness, both physically and metaphorically, as I approach the end of my life.
At the threshold of eternity
I am about to cross the boundary between life and death, to enter into eternity.
I curse God, as heavy thunderclouds gather
As I die, I curse God for the suffering and pain that I have experienced, with the storm clouds symbolizing my anger and resentment towards him.
As an example how to die
I am setting an example for others on how to die, although my death is ultimately meaningless.
A most senseless way
My death is senseless, without any reason or significance.
I will become a God on my own
As I die, I am transcending mortality and becoming a god in my own right, seeking to take control of my own afterlife.
Contributed by Jordyn B. Suggest a correction in the comments below.